Untold vision.

I could swear the last thing I did was close my eyes, but here I was again,

I remember this place, I told myself as I felt the scratched, soaked trunk of a tree, I rubbed my palm across its scratches, as if recalling a battle within.

Rain drops sliding from the leaves made the only noise, and every step I took made a soft yet crispy breaking noise. 

And my hawk like eyes searched every corner, if there were any, to this endless darkness.

I remember this place, I told myself again, as I breathed in the scent of damp wood, seeped in the little moonlight and remembered this very breeze tickle the hair at the back of my neck,

"Is it you again?" I screamed, and heard myself echo. 

"I'm ready! Take me with you!" I demanded, fearful, yet certain.

And it was then, I saw myself, a much stronger, more mature, powerful vision of me, staring at me with horrific eyes and an emotionless face. 

Don't be scared, I told myself.

"How can you not be scared of who you are?" He replied, in a hoarse voice, a hoarse voice, that woke me up in cold sweat demanding to go back. 

I needed answers. 

Try and cry.

Sometimes I squint my eyes,

I try and cry,

To stop this trembling jaw,

This aching heart,

I find eyes,

Sincere and soft,

To read and discover,

I find corner of blood,

And walls of scratches,

To try and cry,

I squint my eyes,

And these eyes of millions,

Here and there,

Wherever I am,

Stop me from being me,

These eyes of millions,

Stop me from crying,

Stop me from being me. 

Moonlit.

It was then,

And it was there,

When I closed my eyes,

And visions of me,

Outside my body,

My soul how it glides,

Flirts with these clouds,

Settles for the moon,

In nights like these,

When I'm easily forgotten,

I jive on my own,

And I glide out,

Of myself,

My soul,

It loves and laughs,

Without me,

My soul finds happiness,

In the light of the moon.

When I was you.

I'm giving you my word,

I'm giving you my past,

I've seen you,

Being me,

I've seen myself,

In you and where you are,

I have been,

With the same heartbeats,

At all the same places,

Pulses that make you cry at night,

I've seen it all,

And felt myself torn,

Just like you right now,

I've been broken too,

And I stand here,

Give me your hand,

Let me tell you,

There is love for you,

Give me your hand.

Let me love you,

Like no one loved me,

When I was you. 

MH370

I was smiling at my shine,
I could feel her holding my hand,
With a similar promise of love,
I could see her band,
Intertwined with my fingers,
I was under the stars,
With the flowers and fireworks,
And she walked down the aisle,
And held my hand,
I could feel her, next to me,
I could feel her in this fear,
Comforting me, I closed my eyes,
Wrapped in my self,
I was fading,
Tell her I love he-....

Our hearts are pounding,
Hungry for light,
We're screaming, can you hear us?
Our tears are starting storms,
Can you see us?
We're ripping the tides apart,
Desperate for closure,
We're fading...
Can you-...

Somewhere we hide,
From all the darkness in this world,
Up above, down below,
We're the lucky ones,
Far away from all lies,
We're fading...
Can you find-..

I still remember,
I dug my tiny nails into their fingers,
Daddy took me in his arms,
And we walked from window to window,
When our house fades,
In the sky and I cried,
I was scared and Mommy held me tight,
I burst balloons and I bothered people,
I laughed when Mother shushed me,
I cried for colors at the shop,
I faked a cry and stay in your arms,
I should've gone to school,
I'm sorry Mother, I love you,
I'll go to school everyday,
I'll be the best version of myself Father,
I'm scared and I miss your arms around me,
I don't want the colors or the candy.
Can I have your arms around me?
Daddy I'm scared.
I'm fading...
Mother I lov-...

RIP MH370

...

We escape the world,
And everything it brings,
Walking past these headlights,
In our own little world,
When we walk to places,
We've never seen,
And lose ourselves,
Throw our hands up,
With people we've never known,
Escape everything that means so much.
Why?

Seclusion.

Never show your pain,
Hide your eyes,
When you cry,
Infront of the world,
And their ears,
Their eyes and their hearts,
Sometimes cold and hard,
Sometimes soft and fallen,
Yours maybe broken,
But cover their eyes,
From all the misery,
You've faced.
All the misery,
They've never seen.

Close your ears,
When you cry tonight.. 
Hide your eyes, 
When you cry in light... 
Tomorrow you'll face the world again, 
Be brave, tomorrow you've to live again. 

If these stars fall, 
When you sit and weep, 
Smile and look for the light, 
That's guiding you, 
Wish for innocence, 
Atleast for the ones unknown, 
To this misery you've seen, 
To the tears you've cried, 
Wish for seclusion, 
Of those dry eyes, 
That have never seen pain, 
And for those eyes, 
That rain in the dark, 
Wish for seclusion, 
For those eyes, 
That've never seen pain.