Upside.

I sit here,
Right here,
With nothing to say.
Looking away.
Into the darkness,
Thinking things, they're harmless.
Affecting me inside,
Turning me upside.
Like a pendulum,
I'm back to my valium.
Up high feeling so high,
30 floors above, look at the sky.
For the shining fades away.
In the night,
Without a fight,
You let go.
In your eyes, this feeling show.

I feel this again,
The hole in my heart.
Theres nothing I gained from this pain,
Abandoned in the nights,
I recall it up with the bottles they lie,
Thinking about all the fights,
Down in the rooms that haunt me,
Every corner has a haunted memory,
I can see it everywhere,
I hear your screams everywhere.
Changed the place from scratch.
But you hover over,
Like a wound you scratch.
At the right places,
For the last time,
For the last time was wrong.
You don't see this now,
Your not here,
You left with your pretty smile.
With your fake kiss.
Into the darkness,
Thinking things, they're harmless.
Affecting me inside.
Turning me upside.