Silence and stillness.

I'm usually not silent,
But tonight my lips have dried,
I'm watching and hurting,
So much arrogance and hate,
All around even if I close my eyes,
I still hear every word they say,
Tonight, I'm so silent,
And there's stillness inside.
I'm scared of so much tonight,
For so many around me,
Have you not loved?
Have you not felt that cold wind?
In the summer, haven't you felt cold?
Haven't you been numb and deprived?

When you close your eyes,
Don't you feel yourself fall?
When you fall on your knees,
Are you still proud of all you've been?
Infront of this shining light,
When you fall and squint your eyes,
And you look back,
Do you smile?
Tonight, I'm silent for I couldn't.
Tonight, I turned around and looked at myself,
Tonight I was scared of so much.
I was scared for so much...
I shut myself in this stillness.
I shut myself in this regret.