Friend.

I remember thinking about something..
And there he stood,
Right next to me when we were alone..
He held his heart back,
Wiped away his emotions,
Like an open book to me,
He said everything I thought the other day..
When he understands you like a song..
Speaks to you, in this tone..
Just for the two of you..
He said everything I thought of..
He did everything I asked for..

I remember his voice,
Shrill in the middle of the night,
When I shivered and held myself together,
He held me close when I shed my fears,
Tear after tear, amidst my nightmares,
He made them alright..

And there she was..
Understanding this speech of mine,
Never understood by them..
I could swear they'd think the worst of me..
Word after word I felt myself being punched..
For ever wrong step I took back then..
She could just smile and make me believe..
Like a bold leader,
Leading me away from the darkness,
At times when I needed it the most,
She wiped off my tears and slipped me smiles..
Understand this speech of mine,
Understood by no other..
I was breathing again..
So thankful for every moment,
Every moment she was there..
Smiling and making sense out of nothing.

Just words.

Words they can hurt,
When you fall short of them,
You stand there in the corner,
With the corners of your lips,
Twitching and switching..
You flee to every corner,
In the your thoughts,
You spread like the fire,
Finding elegance in your tone,
Stuck when you're short of them,
Just words..
Mere words, with the strings...
Working on you, burning you down..

Words, they make you smile..
When you let them flow,
From the pits of your heart,
Pumping up with the your blood,
The blood that loves,
Flowing to every corner,
Forming a smile from the corner,
Corner of your beautiful lips..
Finding affection in your eyes..
In love when they work on you..
Just words..
Mere words, with the strings..
Working on you.. shining your eyes..

Never mine, I was all you had.

I'm still breathing here,
And I'm sorry everyday.
I won't always find,
Myself in the corner of guilt,
I'll move on but I'm sorry.
For everytime you bled out,
No one else was crying,
When you walked away..
No one else was dying..
When you couldn't stay..
I'm still crying for you..
And I wish these things you knew..
I can have you here but never have..
Everything I want, my other half.
For every moment you smiled,
I pictured this world of love,
Where we breathed love,
And you gave away happiness,
With every tear we formed rainbows to slide on,
We found ourselfs smiling, finding clouds to glide on..
We kept walking, right next to the sun..
Weighing on me, now you're too much to carry..
Leaning on me, like I've been yours forever..
Never mine and I was all you had..

Work.

Does this really work for you?
Killing me down and apologizing,
Watch me fake my smile,
Using the softer side of me,
I could never glare on you,
I was never the one to shout..
And you slipped all your mistakes,
Holding me by my face,
While my tears welling up on you..
I was never the one to shout..
You misunderstand every word I say,
Walk away to every move I make,
I was insecure and you crossed me out,
Living like you'll never lose me,
Will it really work for you?
Watching me walk away,
With all that I have,
All that I give,
For our love to catch fire,
All that I surrender,
To make it easier for you,
I was never that one,
That one you loved.
Watch me walk away,
With all that I have.

Reasons to smile.

I've been so lost,
Looking for you,
Everything, in every corner..
I trace sparks of your smile,
Tears of your eyes,
Seaped up in the dew,
They rain over me,
Covering me with your scent,
I can feel you near,
I wish you were here..

Fighting my way to you,
I've killed time,
And fought with these thoughts,
They say, you're gone,
Leaving tracing to nowhere,
I've been here before,
Where you smile,
I can see my tears,
Seaped up by the dew,
Raining over me..
I can feel your in this sand,
The way it slips,
I wish I had never let you go..
Now I need you here..

When the clouds burst together,
I heard your laughter,
And it rained your scent,
I couldn't help but smile..
When I laid down in the dark,
And it rained outside,
I remember every look in your eye,
It rains, giving me reasons to smile.

Still.

I wear that shirt,
When I'm missing you,
I remember when you held me tight,
With your arms around me,
It feels alright,
Everything feels so true..
I walk the roads we took,
Sit on that same park bench,
I remember how the birds flew away..
With your laughter, they stood still..
Watching you smile your beautiful smile..
They stood still,
Like nature on hold..staring.
You're so beautiful.
You held me.

I ran my fingers through the river,
They feel colder than before,
And they wet my eyes,
I miss you.
I took every step,
With you holding my hand,
And here I am,
I wish you were here,
Watching me smile,
I just wish you're somewhere,
Watching me cry..
I remember the way you made me feel,
It has me wishing for more..
I wore that same shirt, sat on the same park bench..
Its never the same, without you holding my hand...
You're so beautiful.
I miss you.

Never Show.

You can tell me you care,
Hold my finger and take me everywhere..
Place me on a pedestal and shine on me..
You can make me smile and let the entire world see..
I can feel you fade when you look away...
I sense hesitation in every word you say..
Walk away now, why're you still here?
Throw me away, don't pull me near..

There were a thousand candles, just you here..
Burning one by one.. Fear after fear..
Tear after tear, rainbows in our eyes..
The rivers we formed after all our goodbyes..
Deep inside my heart, I've carved your name..
It rains here and things don't stay the same..
Find me in every bursting cloud..
I'll pour over you, pour out loud.
If you see me walk away, just let me go..
Don't tell me you care and never show..