Finding My Innocence.

Just walk by, nodding when you look at me,
See in locked in the cage,
Like I belong there.
Ragged clothes and scratched walls.
Find the reasons my eyes are missing,
They're there but you never see.
Find my innocence somewhere its missing,
And watch me plead to you,
Running my eyes on you like knifes,
Did you put me here?
Come closer, and brush my face,
Watch me unravel, watch me flap my wings,
Watch my grimace when you rub through my scars.
Inside my soul, inside this light of me,
That I hide from you.
Too scared to lose my sanity,
I hide every tear that sheds.
And in the darkness when the wolfs, they cry.
When the owls stare right through your souls.
I weep and I scream.
To reach out to their dreams.
When they sleep peacefully at night,
I'm stuck in my nightmares.
I'm stuck in this darkness.
Finding my innocence.

Parallel.

I just wanna tell you,
One thing that I know.
From the time that you call me name,
Until the very moment you leave me by,
I'm only human but I feel too much.
I look into myself and I'm into another world,
I see myself like I've never, before.
And before you hold me tight,
I can feel myself and when you do,
I'm overwhelmed. I'm in for too much.
And when you look at me,
I feel my skin burn,
Are you too much?
What do you do to me?
I just wanna tell you,
I'm amazing when I'm with you.

I fall down, and I slip.
I stumble on my words,
And I can't face the truth.
Standing away from you,
I'm a nervous wreck,
But did you ever understand,
You're like my halo,
Changing everything in me,
From this world that I've known,
Until you walked into my life,
And made me fall,
Made me fall for you,
This world that doesn't make sense,
So beautiful and serene.
Its too much,
I just wanna tell you,
I'm amazing when I'm with you.

I'm lost.. Just hold on..

Recall our last words,
We stormed off, and I've been alone,
I realize every thought betraying me,
From how beautiful you are,
To the way you make me feel,
And here I am,
Swallowing my pride,
Writing this for you,
In a few moments, crawling back to you,
Don't turn off the lights,
I'm almost there,
Don't close the doors to your heart,
I'm there, just lost.
Finding my way back to you.
Just hold on...

I remember the last time,
I'm here, on my knees.
Like the 27th of the month,
Watch me smile, and hear my heartbeat.
I know you're a few steps away,
But it pounds so loud,
Loud and clear, they say sorry,
For all the times I've hurt you,
For all those lonely nights,
In the darkness, tears that we shed,
I remember, trembling for your shoulder,
I remember, hiding myself from the world,
For the shame of what I lost,
For the loneliness I brought upon us,
Here I am swallowing my pride,
I'm crawling back to you,
Don't close your eyes yet,
I'm just on the way,
Walking my way through this storm,
Will you hold me tight,
Shivering of this storm,
Will my words make it right?
I'm almost there,
Just lost.
Finding my way back to your heart,
Just hold on...

Never.

You're that one,
You've the care about every words she says,
Don't find reasons, to why you fell behind,
When the times comes, they'll walk over you.
Don't find reasons, to why you fell over.
Listen close and when its time, listen again.
Write pages and page, but they'll never smile.
I hope you know, your dreams are too cold,
Like the ice they'll melt away,
Shiver you for the night.
I hope you know, they'll all walk over you.
Like the mountains turning to dust,
Don't think of reasons to smile,
When you know you have none,
Think of the times they'll left you to cry,
Did you hold your head or bury it in your pillow?
Did they find you tears or was it so yesterday?
You're that one,
And you've never been the same,
Their words are like knives,
And you've in pieces all over the place,
Never find reasons to hold a hand,
Never find reasons to why you fell.
They'll walk over you.
They'll break you down.
And you can never say a word.
Never even smile.

Make me happy.

The way you say, whatever you say.
And the way you close your eyes,
When the wind blows by.
If its my smile that gives you life,
I'll stay forever to hold you tight.
If its my weakness that makes you cry,
I'll be here, to wipe of your tear.
With a kiss, I'll brush your cheeks.
With your blush, you'll tell me stories.

The way you love, whenever you love me.
And the way you call out my name,
When I'm searching for you.
Like you've seen me, seen all of me.
And I'm here, listening and feeling.
I can hear your heartbeat,
I can feel mine at the same time.
I hold you tight and I feel it too.
You're my heart, and you feel mine too.

Out of place.

Every second in this place alone,
Every other just smiles and waves.
I hide my face, behind the everyday scrolls.
I look for you, beyond the sunset and waterfalls.
Like a beautiful pearl, running over the sea.
Shining in my eyes, like a gem underneathe.
Find another hand to hold, but I can never.
Just let me go, but I can never.
In theirs eyes, I look for you.
In their voices, I hear you.
Their laughs and smiles, take me back in time.
Their love and care, put me somewhere I dont belong.
I look for you, even in the darkest of oceans.
Fighting fears like you do, I hope to find you among the strangers.
Wiping my tears like you do,
Smiling when I'm still facing my dangers.
I'm put in a place where I don't belong.
Where the stars don't shine and they sing their song.
I feel out of place, empty handed, out of touch.
I miss you here, without you,
I'm out of place.

More than me.

I can't touch you, not more than I can touch the sky.
I can feel you here, I know you're here.
Beyond my reach but I can feel my heart.
My tears dry when I cry at night,
Isn't it you in hiding?
Isn't it you that pulls me through,
All those nightmares where I feel the warmth,
Isn't it you holding me tight?
Isn't it you calming me down?
But I can never see you, never hear, never touch.
But I can feel you here,
Like you're my shadow, my soul, my life.
And indeed you are, away from you,
I lose them all,
And with you, I have everything I need.
Isn't it you that completes me?
With so much that you are,
More than words can say,
More than eyes can see,
More than the heart can feel,
More than my love for you,
You're so much, more than all of me.