So long is never enough.

I don't know what you are,
And I can't see where you've been,
Its only been so long,
And so long is never enough.
There's so much of you.
And day by day,
We get closer, we fight wars.
We say the words that these birds say,
So high and mighty,
It could be you and me,
And we can we faraway from here,
From where we've come to.
Its only been so long,
And so long is never enough.

When you smile like that.
I don't know what you do,
But you do so much,
I fly faraway from here,
From where you've brought me,
Held my hand and day by day,
We've come so far,
And it never feels far enough,
But when you smile,
Your beautiful smile.
You make me fly,
So far away from here.

If its a day, two or three.
Could you be there, without me?
It feels like forever when you're gone,
So don't go, don't speak of distance.
Maybe its love, maybe its attachment,
Maybe I'm used to you, like never before.
Maybe I'm addicted, maybe I've fallen.

If its a day, two or three.
I'll still be here until eternity.
And for these moments you've given me,
Maybe I'll walk to you,
To carry you forever from here,
Maybe I'll hold your hand,
And we'll walk together forever.
And we'll go faraway from here,
From where we've come.
To where I dream of.
Where you smile and make me fly.
We'll be faraway from here.
Its only been so long,
ANd so long is never enough.

Dear Life. Forgive me.

I can see right now,
But when I close my eyes, I forget.
I can see my shadows as I walk,
Scattered around this world,
From where I've been to what I've become,
Getting darker by the moment.
I can see and I've learnt.
But when I'm in your arms, I forget.
The reason for the tears I cry,
I don't know what these tears are for.
I'm unable to express but trust me,
I want you to know,
Some way to reason with my pain.
Someone to understand how it feels.
The screetching in my ears,
The constant howling in pain,
Echoing all around this place,
This place I forget, everytime I try to remember.
Darker than the night,
Rougher than the ocean,
Somewhere at the back of my mind,
This place haunt every waking thought.
Every moment I'm alone like a flash into my past.
For all the things I might've done,
Standing here infront of you,
I'd feel disgusted.
For all that we've been through,
I hold your hand, don't you feel mine are rough?
You've been through pain,
And I wouldn't say I've suffered more.
But I've suffered alone.
I've felt their cries down to my bone.
Until it grows cold like I used to be.
Now I cry, infront of the needy.
Now I cry for you, and for every pain you go through.
Is it an illusion? Or is it just me that feels this way?
Could this be true? Such amusement in your smile.
Like everything is bright again, perfect.
Like everything leaves me for you to hold.
Could it really be this perfect?
Or am I dreaming when in your arms?

I can feel right now,
But when I'm alone I forget.
What you do to me,
Is it love or it is care?
I wouldn't know anyway,
For when I sit here alone,
While the waves crash at me.
Standing still, unturned.
I stand here, forgetting it all.
Sometimes it feels like a bother,
Sometimes I wish you come to me,
Hold my hand,
Look at me.
Sometimes all I want you to do is care,
Just a little, just to make me feel love again.
Sometimes all it takes is your voice,
And if I don't find reasons to be close to you,
Will you still remember me?

At times I feel so broken,
Every smile hurts,
And when they laugh,
I feel like I'm dying inside.
Is it the constant weight on my back?
Is is your protests of my being?
Have I done my part wrong?
Have I missed listening to you again?
Is it that you're mad again?
Is it that you've no time for me again?
Until I crash and fall to pieces,
You stay, so far away.
Just watching me burn,
Playing with fire.
Is it what I've come to,
Thats breaking me down.
Is it the moment I want to,
Live, live while youre still around.

Tomorrow,
Tomorrow is a new story.
A horror, a darkness.
And the promises we make,
They'd make no sense.
And the promises we keep,
They'd be reminding us of yesterday.
Will you be here?
The next time that I cry.
Will you be here for me?
The next time I give up and fall down.
Won't you pick me up and brush me off?
Won't you make me smile and make me laugh?
You WILL feel my pain, won't you?

I'd say so much and I'd forget.
If I make promises, trust me I mean to keep them.
If I ever go and hurt you, trust me I would have never meant to.
Forgive me, I'm only human,
Forgive me, if I'm not up there.
Forgive me if you've felt more pain,
And kept it within, suffering alone,
But I cannot,
For the times I hurt you, unintentionally,
For the times I'm not what you want me to be,
For the times you look at me, and I shatter your dream.
For everything I've ever failed to do,
You will forgive me, won't you?

Love and war.

Find the beauty in these eyes,
The innocent ones you leave on the floor,
Bleeding and crying, for the cries of a war.
Far away somewhere their heroes fight,
Tooth and nail, for life and love.
It could be their last sunset,
It could be their last breath...
Feel the pain of the weaker one,
Living in the shadows,
Scared of what the future holds.
They'll be missed, if you drop it on this place,
They'll still be loved,
When you're dead and gone away.

Run away, why don't you run away?
From this heat and blame,
They'll keep in the dark,
For every truth you've told,
They'll lie to your hopes.
They will all rise up and come tumbling down,
In silence and in the night.
Don't be scared to start another day.
Still innocent, you're still precious.
Live tomorrow, you could die today...
There's just too much to cry for..
Its all fair. In love. In war.

Beauty of my life.

In the softness of your eyes,
And the way they stare at me,
Bringing me and you here together,
When you say my name,
I can feel your brush,
The way your eyes sparkles,
And the giggle with your smile.
Watch me, watch you,
Making promises for my love,
This smile right here,
I'll guard and cherish,
And when you say my name,
This voice right here,
I'll conceal and hide,
You're so precious and pretty,
For me to protect.
For me to love.

And since I've heard your voice,
This beautiful tone, this symphony.
I've felt my dreams come to life,
And my fingers tremble,
My heart beats faster,
When you're near, smiling,
Your beautiful smile.
When you're far away,
Leaving me by the clock,
And when the sun goes down,
I can feel us setting too,
When the moons shine so loud,
I remember the sparkles in your eyes,
The giggle with your smile.
So simple and so beautiful.
The beauty of my life.

Make my day.

Been smiling for the past,
Two hours you've been here.
On the phone, in my arms.
Your beautiful voice, this soothing calm.
And you make my day,
With every word you say,
So soft, and so low.
Making me weak and bend low.
Been a few years,
And its still the same,
Its been a few weeks,
I still feel the same.
Dropping to my knees,
Whenever you're in vein.
Curling up in my sheets,
Whenever my eyes rain,
Missing you but I've no right to,
But when you're here,
I could close my eyes and stop time,
Feel every inch of me, set on fire.
And my eyes burn when they look at you,
I'd steal you away and keep mine forever,
And with every word you'd say..
You'll make my day.

When I hear your voice,
I can feel you here,
And when you hum that tune,
I can feel your love,
Fighting for words,
I'm dreaming of you,
If you find me sleeping,
Just hold me tight,
I know I hear your voice,
I know I'll feel you there.

These days grow colder,
These night turn grey,
When you're gone,
Far and far away.
I will reach out to you, forever.
Sit here where our eyes met,
I'll walk on the roads,
Where I heard your voice,
I held you cry.
And I'll make no mistake,
I'll make you mine,
For every word you say,
You make my day.

Falling Through.

I lose count of the steps.
I take them towards you,
Smiling like there's no tomorrow,
And its all you.
Hands held out, reach over from faraway.
Somewhere sitting on this grass,
Somewhere swinging on this swing.
I'd sit there and write,
About your smile and your laugh,
The pages, they'd never be enough.
I've seen you from up close,
When you smile, your breathtaking smile.
And we've lived so long but its only a few days,
And I'm here writing this song..
You an I, I've felt so close to you,
After falling so hard,
Head over heels, face first,
Into your love, deep inside.
And whenever I look at you,
From faraway, somewhere beneath my scare,
Somewhere, beneath every moment.
A fountain of love, that grows for you.
A fountain of my blood, that flows for you.
Somewhere maybe in the depths of my soul,
You'll find me crying,
For every moment I took my eyes of you,
For every moment I didn't think about you.
For every tear you've ever let fall,
Somewhere deep inside me, I regret it all.
Somewhere in my smiles and my laughs,
Find my love, read my eyes.
They're for you, me and my life.

All this twisting and turning,
I've found life in these impatient darkness,
I sit here and wait for you,
For the words you say, creatings world in me,
For the moments me make, creating new memories.
It was only yesterday that you sat across me,
I looked into your beautiful eyes,
We smiled.
It feels like forever, it was only yesterday.
Somewhere deep inside,
I've felt lonely since the sunset,
Somewhere deep inside,
I've only been here to watch you,
Hold you, hug you, love you..
And I'll be in my dreams,
Somewhere deep inside my love,
My love for you.. I'd never fall down.
Just keep falling through.

Scenario #32 John Butler Trio - Ocean. It has nothing to do with the solo, it just got to me.

So I don't know what this track did to me but it made me write this..
I was listening to it just now...

I remember, every memory.
So clear and loud,
Like it was yesterday,
We were here,
Holding hands,
All of us, just laughing,
And you're all gone.
I still sit here,
For the number of their plates,
And those honks we made fun of,
I miss your voices,
I miss your laughs,
You're all still here,
At 5 in the morning,
At dusk and dawn, rise or sunset.
In every tap of my strings,
I can feel you pushing me,
We've come so far,
We've worked so hard.
I'm still struggling,
Sitting at the top of this hill,
I can see you all, flowing away.
I've tried and I've tried,
I've fallen so hard,
Relying on all of you,
And the notes I play,
They mean the world to me,
You mean the world to me,
And I play you, in the nights,
In winter and in rain.
With your memories in my mind,
I close my eyes,
I pray.
I close my eyes, and I play.

Someday you'll be faraway,
Grown and old,
And I'd never know of your presence,
Find me here, please find me here.
Listen to me, listen to every string.
Follow me, follow your heart.
You'll be here, sitting next to me.
And I'll wait for you.
I'll pray for you.
I'll play forever.