My last, *maybe* note.

For the record,
It was never fair to me.
If you were me tonight,
You'd know the words how they hurt.
A song for a goodbye so good.
If each word they'd say.
Was a stab to my thoughts.
I've them right here, dead.

This is a goodbye note.
For the last time, maybe.
This is just my thoughts talking, maybe.
If they're alive still.
Maybe, maybe.

For the future,
The poets they need the pain.
If I feel it again.
I've started trying to turn away.
For the times I'll cheat.
Keep the papers in my pockets.
Never to reveal,
Burning at sundown.
Things I'll never want you to see.
To keep them alive,
To keep the things I think,
Alive.

This is a goodbye note.
For the last time, maybe.
This is just my thoughts talking, maybe.
If they're alive still.
Maybe, maybe.

Casualties of war.

In the war,
The dieing words of a soldier,
I love you.
And it rains,
Down in her arms,
He lays astray.
Away from her.
Looking away from her eyes.
In the casualties of war,
The door stands ajar.
The sounds of bullets,
But for now.
Its the silence before the storm.
Silence before the tears,
In the ruins,
The façade of this place.
Covered in blood,
For its now or never,
Tears for the kids,
Who don't ever want to be there.
In this war, giving up everything.
Just don't,
Let them have the last word.
Not now, let them go on.
Hand them the water guns.
Theres only much that mind bears.
With the bullets and blood.
You're spoiling the generation.
In the casualties of war.
In all fair.
In love and war, its all fair.

Upside.

I sit here,
Right here,
With nothing to say.
Looking away.
Into the darkness,
Thinking things, they're harmless.
Affecting me inside,
Turning me upside.
Like a pendulum,
I'm back to my valium.
Up high feeling so high,
30 floors above, look at the sky.
For the shining fades away.
In the night,
Without a fight,
You let go.
In your eyes, this feeling show.

I feel this again,
The hole in my heart.
Theres nothing I gained from this pain,
Abandoned in the nights,
I recall it up with the bottles they lie,
Thinking about all the fights,
Down in the rooms that haunt me,
Every corner has a haunted memory,
I can see it everywhere,
I hear your screams everywhere.
Changed the place from scratch.
But you hover over,
Like a wound you scratch.
At the right places,
For the last time,
For the last time was wrong.
You don't see this now,
Your not here,
You left with your pretty smile.
With your fake kiss.
Into the darkness,
Thinking things, they're harmless.
Affecting me inside.
Turning me upside.

I'm love.

I'm the pianist with the broken hand,
The guitarist with the broken strings.
The pick up line with the word beauty.
The thunder without the lightning,
And the rain without the rain drops.
I'm love,
I'm anywhere,
I'm everywhere.

In the heart of your daughter,
In the eyes of your mother.
In the things you see,
The shine in their eyes,
The smiles, they say alot.
Thats me,
Right there.
Thats me everywhere.

Inside the broken heart,
Piecing it up together,
Inside the tears of a lover.
Shedding it away from the other.
Inside the thoughtful smiles,
For when they leave, they always leave.
But I'm there.
I'm anywhere.
I'm everywhere.
I'm love.

Taking chances.

The steps you take back,
To not feel that again,
Resenting from all happiness,
Theres nothing that I can say.
To make it all go away.
Just one day, I'll be at your door step.
With a mouthful of words,
Words to make you smile.
In the middle of the night,
When its all too much,
When letting you go is just not fair.
In the brink of the moment,
Thinking about the words to say.
The things to say when you're right there.
Theres nothing that I can say.
To make it all go away.

The things I threw away,
In my fight with life,
To have you here.
Just to make you feel whole again,
I'm falling down but I need you now.
To hold me again,
I've come halfway to you,
Don't make me lose what I never found.
These chances I've taken,
Just to make you feel whole again.
I know theres nothing that I can say.
To make it all go away.
But for what it could be worth.
Every second from now on,
We can fly and never drown.
Fly off to nowhere and never come down.
Count the stars till forever,
Feel the love that we have to part.
This right here, halfway is a start.
Don't make me lose what I never found.

Empty again.

You leave me with tears,
For what its worth,
When the angels wipe them away.
With a smile on their faces,
I see you there.
With a candle in your hand,
Smiling at me, like healing my soul.
Looking into my eyes, like reading my mind.
You make every move, perfectly.
You say all the right things, softly.
You stab me in the right places, peacefully.
For people always leave.
For what it worth,
You at me dying in your arms.

In the same dream,
Over and over,
When I wake up, I hear your scream.
I think you're there, right where you hover.

In the life I've lived.
Every time you told me that you loved me,
You've stuck a piece of the puzzle.
In its place, right here in my heart.
Day by day, you complete me.
Piece by piece, you heal me.
Like an angel right next to me,
You watch over me when I sleep.
For the way you care,
Like tomorrow I'll break.
You've made me whole again,
In the morning I'll still be here.

Hold me like you'll never get to,
Ever again.
Look at me like you'll never get to,
Ever again.
This world of yours, you've made out of me.
Will never be empty again, with me here, never be empty again.

Life's too short.

Take two steps wrong,
And you could be gone.
You'd never know if they'll ever miss you.
You'll probably come down to earth int he form of dew.
For the misery, to be miserable.
For the grief, to be sad.
For the fights, to be hurt.
Life's too short,
Don't let the bitter ones change who you are.

Do your thing, take those chances.
Take the risk that are worst their pounces.
Start over right now.
Begin with a memory.

Embrace hope by the second,
Deeper and deeper believe in the good.
It might save you for all you know,
You've learned to run away when it hurts you.
Hide your face with the fake smiles,
Till the day you'll be gone faraway,
With one wrong step.
You could be gone forever.
For the things left behind, believe again.
For the things left to do, embrace hope.
For the things you've never said, smile.
Life's too short.
Don't let the bitter ones change your dreams.

Do your thing, take those chances.
Take the risk that are worst their pounces.
Start over right now.
Begin with you and I.