Lost pages of 2010 #6

I held my hand, waiting for you to accept.
I'll hold you hand and make you forget.
I'll make you plat a smile along those ruby lips.
I see you try to false it in a way.
Don't do this to me, I put my hand on your shoulders,
' Look at me, tell me what's wrong..'
You smile amd push me away.
I stand there, hurt by all means ofcourse.
I look at you, I think you regret.
I've never been a jerk or never meant to be one.
Why push me away? Why?
While all I want to do is bottle up your pain and drink it up.
Let me suffer, let alone I die.
I cannot see you cry.
Not another time, not ever.
Not a tear, I'll stand here.
Right here wating for you.
I believe its impossible for you, to let me help ypi.
Let me make you happy.
I know you're very unhappy.
Do you have any idea what I feel?
Do you have any idea what I go though having this stupid sensitive heart?
Only to top it off you being a gashed wound on it.
You being the one I've cried, I cry for.
You are special.
You are amazing.
Nights are not real. Letting something be there is soothing.
Take my hand, grab it firmly, don't ever let go.
I'm here for eternity. Use me. Redeem all I have.
Smile. Laugh. Grin. Shine.
I'll be happier than a baby with a lollipop.
I want to make you forget.
I want to share a secret.
I've loved you always, I've adored you like a teddy bear.
You're a medicine to all my negetivity.
You're the reason of my ocassional stupidity.
You. You. You :')