At times...

At times if you ask me too,
For you right then, I'd write an essay.
At times I feel so much,
That words aren't enough to make me say.
All that I feel, all that happens to me.
In love with you, and its so real.
At times, if you ask me too,
I just don't know what to say.
I'm full of words, but I don't know what to say.

At times I'm so tired of this fake smile.
This longing to just rest in your lap.
With myself open like a book,
I let you read me, I let you caress me.
At times, I just need you.
I need you to need me back,
I need you to love me.
At times, I'm just so tired.
Tired enough to throw it all away,
I don't mean too, but I throw it all away.

At times I'm just so impatient,
Just to get a word out of you,
I sit there, staring into your eyes,
Those beautiful brown eyes and that look that scares me.
Times like these, when you're all silent,
And I need you, more than ever, I need you to grin.
You stay there, hovering in my vicinity.
Never a word, never a laugh. Never that smile.
It brings me down, this phase it does.
I just wish I could take it all away.
Just take it all away.