All over again - II

This ones for you, like all the rest.
This one is for you.
Loving you is all i managed to do,
You don't feel the same.
I'm hurt but worrying not at all.
Loving you is all i ever mastered.
You didn't see, you didn't care.
A snowglobe with your name on it.
A sonnet with you name on it.
A note and your name on it?
Girl what else?
The next thing i'm looking forward to is the constellation with your name on it.
I'd give up everything.
I'd forgive anything.
I'm in love, i'm not even sane.
In love with you, you don't feel the same.
A rare dream, you and me.
A beautiful place, next to the sea.
French windows and a beautiful view.
I'm holding your hands and your smiling your smile.
The one i wish for, every once in a while.
I try to read your eyes, mystified.
Nervous to the bone, whats missing?
What went wrong?
Racing of my heartbeat.
You feel it on my chest.
Rub my forehead ' Why're you so nervous? '.
I tried to smile, a nod and reassurance. But now youre fading away.
Turning to dust.
Blending with the air.
Smoke.
Ruining all my happiness with just one snap.
Running in circles, bloodshot eyes.
Looking for you, staring at the sky.
I wisper and then burst into tears of flame.
I lay there, trembling to my touch.
Wrapping myself around my knees.
I look up and breath with regrets.
All over again, cynical about love.
Been in and out betrayed.
Managed to feel lost again, managed to stay incomplete again.
I'm broken, i'm beat. I'm battered.
All of it.
All over again.