What I feel, Its something real.

I. Me. The person actually referred to in this piece of articulation is a person who would die. Die... to make your day. Die to make you smile. Die for anything you wish for. Let it be a small lollipop. Let it be a bookmark of some sort. I of all people , right now, at this moment can say..'i love you' for the umpteen number of times you want me too. All i need all day is your presence and my blissful journey begins. You make me happy. You make me smile. You make me laugh. I wonder what i miss out on. I wish to see what you want me to be. So i can gratefully thank my vision or picture or the advise , on what to be. For you. For ever. Yours only faithful lover. Be mine. Accept my love. Accept my presense. Accept my care. The way i'll brush your cheekbone. The way i'll wipe of your tears. Though i wish there be none while im with you. I'm ready to give up anything for you. I'm ready to proceed a dream with you. Not ready to accept a scenario without you. I'll try my level best to give you all youre worth. Snowballs chances in hell, youre worth alot. A smile , lifts me off. Puts me in a pleasure place also called the oblivion. I feel nothing. I go numb. Accept a gift from me. A fancy little bracelet. Has a heart on top. Has a purpose inside. Someone has their hopes locked upon you. Something they want you to do. Something they want you to accept. Place your hand on my heart. See me hitch my breath. I know you'll feel alot. Im only pounding. A dimlit room, i dreamt. A fragile angel i held. She had a bad dream. Taking it off on my sweat shirt. Shes been crying for a long time. I've held her all along. She trembled for a while. A lullaby i whisper. Trying to bring her back, revive her from the state of shock. Trying to smoothen the crease of worry. Trying to make her comfortable. She means alot to me. Not another tear i want to see, pass down the lovely valley that runs from yours eyes to your chin. I'll wipe it off anyway. Making you shiver. I wonder when you stop, i wonder when you did. Cuz i woke up on my bed. Only to find you out of my grip. Nowhere in sight. I get up i run around. In search of those brownish eyes. I spot them by the window sill. Take her hand into mine. Feel the numbness seep in. Why now? She turns around. Horrified to see black under eyes and puffy puffy look. I asked her 'Why?' I felt like a defeat. She said ' He died. In my dream'. Theres a new road that starts here. I heard a new name im never gonna be fond off. I heard a faint cry. Unable to recignize. I think it was mine. She has a love she sees in her dreams. Duh! I wasnt even sure if she liked me. As you can imagine i felt like my inside got slit. I felt my heart bleed into my stomach. I felt a growl play along my chest. I felt the urge to vomit everywhere. My knees gave up. I think i'm crying. I felt a hot liquid pass through my nose. Was it blood? Are my eyes bleeding or is my heart crying? Regaining my strenght. Regaining my posture. I walked up to the top. Reached the rooftop. I sat by the edge. I could see my world falling down all these 30 floors. I can witness my demise. I see the world passing by. I wish i could relate to someone whose heart had cried. Just like mine did. Just like a tap of water. Ill stop this nonsense. Am i her brother? I love her. I love her. She never sees that. She needs to see what feelings for her i carry. She needs to hold my hand and tell me not to worry. Promise me she'll be there. She needs to stop deciding and make a decision. She needs to develop a feeling for me in her heart. Let it be hate. Let it be love. I'll love her forever. I'll love her always. But dont take it for granted, it gets sour. Tell me you love me. I know i love you more.

*!*SidMarauder*!*
04-May-2010. 22:59