April.

An Inspiration. Taylor Swift - Back To December. This song felt real, made me cry. Stuff like that.



I remember my april.
Carefree as ever, the responsibilities.
You pulling me through it all.
All those burdens on my shoulders.
The love we shared, numbing the pain.
How i just whined and you smiled.
I would sit all night, think about you.
Let the strings of my guitar lead my emotions.
Glad to have you in my mind.
Never letting you out, i pull another string.
Careless as ever, the blood drips down.
The last time i felt this pain, out of reach.
Now i'm sleepless, thoughtless. Losing you.
The pain back, bringing me to conciousness.
Now the reality intruded, Not april anymore.
Months away, feeling this pain.
Just one chance to apologize, just a conversation.
Make my October, the April i had.
Its a snap of your fingers,
I'm choking on my regrets, regretting the words.
Realizing all that we could have been,
Just another reason i'm sleepless, thoughtless.Losing you.
Rereading the conversations we had, bookmarked that chatlog.
Its a day started, your "hi" makes me high.
How i'd melt at your ups and downs.
Worried at every late reply.
Never letting the questions out of my mind.
Turning over, tossing and turning, I spent my nights with you.
Feeling complete, I was careless.
You were most cared for.
Its like i'd blink and replay the entire month.
Over and over, tear for a blink.
Perfect to feel, never feels true.
How i could just sit and listen,
Realizing my weak spot for you.
My everything you were,
This is me, remembering everything.
Wondering where i was wrong,
Crying here, trying to make it right.
Just one conversation.
An apology.Give me my April.