Invalid Life.

Mostly out if my mind. I trip on my words.
Searching, though nothing to find.
I cut, you know..it hurts.
A blade memory relived.
Blood lost again.
My mom's really worried, been a while since i smiled.
My friends are quite frank, their words, i advertise my pain.
Its better to live than to die.
To die alone is better than living without you though.
I've deformed my face, its a bang on the clay.
You'll never know i love you, i'll never do it the right way.
Trying to stay silent, like a LED above my head.
Says ' in love '. Nothing to express, all inside.
Hurt me, and hurt me again.
You did, never tried to understand.
You were my only wonder, the thought of us i ponder,
Upon my horizon there is darkness.
I was the dark knight with the dark secrets. You were the princess with my heart toyed with.
There was the light flickering, now fused.
I was inhaling the barbeque smoke, hey i smoked.
Now they left me, thinking i was a drug addict.
I waved my flag with the sign of death ahead.
Woke up again, feverish.
All i want right now is breakfast in bed.