Now, then.

Trying so hard to reach the top,
Struggling, but breaking through all these challenges,
You're on my mind, through all this thunder and rain.
Trying so hard to reach the end of this tunnel,
To survive this storm and drop on my knees, face you again.
Stare into your eyes and let you see.
What i did, what i went through,all of it, killing me, all of it, for you.
You've made me tough, i try to prove myself, over and over.
I still smile, i'm breaking inside.
To deserve you,To let you let me in, to finally be in peace.
Unaware of my future, guide me.
Please do.This emptiness is bothering me, its a pain i relive.
It gets emptier and colder everytime i feel this,
This is the pain, the pain amplified,
When you look away, leave me with nothing to say,
The tear that leaves my eyes, trying my best to do my best,
Trying my best to deserve the best,
Never ever questioning my sanity to all the things i go through,
Still alive, still surviving, you're my hope,
My reason to be breathing, alive and kickin'.
Now its all a shame, further, nothings the same,
Tumbling and tripping, on my words on my thoughts,
Free falling all the way to the pit,
The pit of pain, this blackhole.
Now i'm careless.
Now i'm blind.
Now i'm rejected.
Now i'm a creep.