You're Here Now.

To feel this love that I feel,
And be the one to remember.
You're the brightest star in my horizon,
Shining like my heart does for you.
The distance that seperates us,
The pain you go through.
I wish to just wash it away,
You try so hard, But never let me know.
Pulling through all I make you go through.
I feel horrible, But I can't let you know.
I just love you so much, I can't hurt you anyhow.
I'm so proud of you, You don't whine at all.
You know I'd give it all up,
And give it all away,
Just to see you smile, and to watch you sleep.
Throw it all away just to wipe away your tears.
The beautiful colour of your eye,
And the pink of your cheeks.
They said my laugh needed something, someone.
You're here now.
I've found my chyme,
You're here now.

That moment.

Thinking back of the time,
The moment, The words.
The way they wiped off my pain,
A happy tear shed with so much of love.
The world stopped as I looked into your eyes,
The look in your deep brown chocolate eyes.
They moved me, embracing my pain.
The tears they shed, colouring the oceans.
Take my hand and hold it tight.
Lie here with me, Watch me breathe your love.
You sniff that flower, the sunshine reflects on your hair.
Making me crazy,
It was then, the perfect fairytale moment.
'I love you'
It was then, that moment when you froze in terror.
I brushed your cheekbones, making you blush.
It was then, that moment when I felt your tear slip by,
'Say that again.'

Stammer

It takes alot to keep up with you,
Alot of things to notice and shine about.
Just the fact of your existence,
Gives me backflips, Tears of joy.
Its a blessing, Its my dream come true.
We sit but don't talk much.
We've shared alot,
We sit but don't talk much,
Just smile, feel you in my vicinity.
Enough to melt me down,
Just knowing you're there,
Just to see your smile,
I wrote something, The words shine.
Your love, You leave me speechless.
You're understanding, Its unimaginable.
I'd tell you this, forever and always.
I love you so much.
I lose my mind, all the time.
Lost in your thought,
Engulfed in the feeling of love.
Losing my way with words,
Being speechless.
Brain freeze, Stammer, Starstruck.
You do it all, all of it,
Just with your smile.
I love you.

Te Amo Mi Amor

Nothing changes until you follow,
Follow the light in the tunnel of your heart,
Give yourself the benefit of the doubt.
Find yourself smiling for something new.
Nothing feels so real, Its when you realise its true.
When you compare a smile to your emotion.
Like missing puzzle pieces, You match to your love.
Like a hand held to be taken,
She takes your hand, She smiles.
The dimples that you cannot express here,
The fear of losing her,
That fear, The fear of sitting here alone,
Wrapping yourself around your knees,
Shedding a tear never wiped off,
With a caring hand, You've held it tight.
Wish a small smile, YOu've won her heart.
Just this morning, You felt different.
Like colourful explosions you felt inside,
Its crazy, Its huge.
When hours feels like years, You miss her.
When hours just go by, You say you'll miss her.
The next time you smile, You know why.
The next time you feel this,
Close your eyes...Tell her you love her.
Tell her you're there.
Te Amo Miamore.

Shiny

Undeserving of you, I smiled.
Today when you told you loved me, I smiled.
Just today felt my world coming together,
What if its just what I needed.
This is my promise, I'll never forget you.
Here is a vow, I'll love you forever.
You make my muscles go crazy, The awful number of times you makes me smile.
Each times you shine like a star.
You feel so close, Feel your breath, Though you're so far.
Time went on and we shared what we feared.
You assure me of your presence, 'I'll be there, forever'
It feels like a movie, I carry you away.
Believe me, I've never felt this thing I'm feeling.
This thing that lifts me up, I've been as light as a feather.
Your voice it lifts me, Your love it makes me high.
I found your eyelash on my coat last night,
Looked up in the sky, Wished on that shooting star.
"I love her now, I'll love her forever."
Lost in the train of my thought,
I spent my time thinking about you,
Lost track of time, It was dawn and I found myself smiling.
This night was flawless.
You're my waking thought, Its in my eyes.
When I'm alone, you're my smile.
When I think of you, I hope you think of me too.
Look at the horizon, Feel the wind hit my face,
Recognize your scent and I go off looking.
Following the sweet smell, Looking for hints.
Pluck and rose, Surprise you with a smile.
'How'd you find me?'
Heres how it is, I follow your scent,
I look around, I feel your shine.
You're shiny.

Too late.

The view from this window,

Reminds me of the day.

With a small smile, A big dream.

Lost pace with life when I look into your eyes.

A deep pit full of mist, Never letting me see through.

The view from this window,

Remind me of that song.

It was that day early morning and the fog,

Just a walk and I picturized it taking place.

The fall to the knees now to the memory has faded,

All I recall is the mist, The fog.

The view from this window,

Plays the rhythm of my heartbeat,

Dedicating each beat to you,

Every second to my love, Every thought of loving you.

If stopping beating, I threw it all away.

Rest your head now,

I gave up, You never knew.

My sacrifices along the sidelines,

Overshadowed by the douchebag.

Too late for a look,

Too late for a nod.

Just smile and walk away cuz,

Its too late for a goodbye now.

Rewind.

I'd sit silently but you'd ask me why.

If I could stop time, I'd just sit and cry.

I had my way with it, You never stopped crossing my mind,

Yes I tried to look back, Memories just washed away, left behind.

You're the one that goes by,

From the corner of my eye,

I watch you, Smiling at our history,

I remember now, We faded. This solved my mystery.

If we could PAUSE. REWIND. PLAY.

To the time when we just lay.

The time that went too fast,

The one that was meant to last.

Those days and moments like these.

I'd see you in the crown and just freeze.

I go through all of it once again,

Then and now, Lifes not the same.

You gave him your life.

The precious hours of our lives,

The precious tear drops that you shed,

He means most to you, You found your life in him.

No one else you trust.

With a few words and sympathetic smile.

He took your life away.

He walked away and didn't look back.

You tremble there, never letting a tear get back.

I stood there, agonized.

Its a secret, I've never told anyone.

I love you now, Love you forever.

You sit there wounded inside, lifeless.

The thoughts that occur to me,

The scenarios they make,

Don't have a perfect ending.

Theres no way to see through your pain.

Time went on and I observed your change.

It was all set and perfect.

But you said " I don't think I can love anyone else, I can't. "

I did nod, Its an infection, Don't worry, My eyes are randomly red.

Its not a moment of shame, A battle I've lost.

A battle for you, 

Against your loneliness, Your lack of interest,

And your mistake, You gave him your life.

This Is Love.

This feels so high,

I'm elevated, Off the ground.

Off my feet,

My inside excite and I'm fighting.This fire.. it flames,

Green and purple,

This feels so high,

This is love.

This looks so beautiful.

Soft enough to melt with,

The looks this gives,

My hands tremble and I stutter.

This I'm glad to feel.

This looks so beautiful.

This is love.

Every once in a while.

The worlds stops making sense to me,

Blocks my throat, Its hard to breathe.

Feels like being left in the middle of nowhere

I'd tell you everything right now but why care?

All it takes is your smile.

This happens to me,

Every once in a while.

The distance between us,

I spend alot of me to cover.

I travelled on foot, at times the bus,

I saw you, stayed in your vicinity and just hover.

All it takes is your smile,

Every once in a while.

I'm sticking to a page of your dairy,

A strand of your hair, Its my fuel.

Cmon just once, smile. Be my fairy.

" I love you, fit me in your schedule. "

All it takes is your smile,

Every once in a while.

Forever yours.

When I looked at you, For the first time,
I knew I wouldn't care about your past.
I saw into your eyes, That torture.
The faded emotion out of horror.
You'll won't need to explain, or justify,
Your past is something I don't care about.
Just pull me near and make it clear,
Spend some time, Heres a new start.
Remember the feel of my hand in yours,
Get used to the smell of flowers and my smile.
We'll walk these roads that never end,
Close our eyes and take the turns.
Without a care to where it leads,
You're mine, With me and nothing else I'll need.
Ready to wipe of your tears,
I'll regret them ever being shed.
When you smile and when you dance,
The flowers shine and make me go crazy.
Stay like this, stay mine.
'Close your eyes' I'd say those words just to hear your whine,
You don't like surprising, Sorry it comes with the package.
'You really don't have to do all this you know'
You are so adorable, You never fail to make me laugh.
You are a blessing, I thank for you belong to me.
You changed me, I used to be self centered and rude.
Your smile sends this peaceful message,
The feeling of your hands, straighten my forehead.
Free me of my worries and make me happy.
'This is just way too much' A token of love,
There are no words to explain what you make me feel like,
A bunch of flowers are no match,
Here is to your safety,
To your love,
To your company,
To your laugh,
To your smile,
Most of all,
This one is for you.
Forever yours.

Let Me Go...

Someone asked me to 'open up'.
Just sometime later you said "Children whine".
Its that day and today, All you get is " I'm fine. "
Its that time and right now, We've metamorphosized into different people,
Ruder, Meaner, Cold...The usual.

Pick me up like a phone call,
Drop me down like free fall.
Why'd you do? Wat'd you do?
Why? Why didn't you?
Just let me go,
Let me go...

Most of them said " You'll get over it. "
You hit me so hard, I'm still picking up my pieces.
I've found myself talking, Like nothing wrong but it scares me.
Have I really moved on?
No more want for the stab? No more need of you?

Pick me up like a phone call,
Drop me down like free fall.
Why'd you do? Wat'd you do?
Why? Why didn't you?
Just let me go,
Let me go...

Its this moment when I got scared,
Looked around for you and you weren't there.
I find myself crawling back to you,
Each day, Every moment, Inching towards your existence.
Wanting to relive the pain, I'm bound to you.
Trust me I couldn't do it, I'm addicted to you.

...her

You looked at me in the eye, moving me.
The longer you stared, healing every wound.
Each smile caressing my heart.
Moment like those made me,
Sit up all night, Wishing to return the favour.
I'm a few words short of a happy ending.
Pushing you away or pulling your nearer?
When theres nothing, Nothing to choose.
Its clear, Life another day,
Fishing for rays of hope.
When you've hit rock bottom,
You feel the emptiness, You live the recklessness.
Look at them, With that dead eye.
A living recluse, A fake smile. My life story.

I remember the place where I met you,
Reliving the memory, This familiar scent.
Each step increasing the pain,
Every breath's like inhaling this poison.
The one that relates to you,
The one that has no antidotes.
This time I don't let go,
I'm not giving up.
Maybe just for you, *breathes in*
I...need you.
*drop to the knees*
I love...

You my letter.

Sometimes we just wish for things,
All kinds, all the ones with doubt and fear.
I once wished for you to remember me,
Now I don't know why I did.
I don't remember the need, or the feeling.
Its like numb feeling that blocks my mind,
Its like trying to access a blocked part of my being.
Another wish for a stupid reason?
A reason to remember why i wished?
Take a look back, Relive those heartaches.
Not seeing you there, thinking of the maybe's.
Leaving the rose to dry,

Now I realise what you were,
A jabbing finger at my pain,
The one that made me feel better,
A letter reread in the rain.
You were the one to set me free,
You were my dream never meant to be.

If I could recall and relive,
Those nights and days, sitting by the window.
I'd watch your window across the street,
Dark and black, Guess it made me feel better,
Embracing your presence under that roof,
Behind that wall...Only if I could see through.
I'd watch you sleep all night, Keep a watch.

When I closed my eyes,
I saw me get the door for you,
Return the smile and feel the blessing.
Stare into your eyes and make you blush.
Hitting it off with that, we fell down.
My dream, fading away. Unreal.

Now I realise what you were,
A jabbing finger at my pain,
The one that made me feel better,
A letter reread in the rain.
You were the one to set me free,
You were my dream never meant to be.

Thinking twice.

Just tonight I was thinking about you,
What I would do for you, Your love...Too good to be true.
I have a weakness, I fall for, easily.
Just give me a look and i melt away,
Slipping away from reality into bliss.
Trusting myself with the thought of trusting you.
Letting you in, I'm weak when it comes to you.
I fall for, easily. Never thinking twice.
Once was misfortune, Twice was hurtful.
Over and over, Now it hits me.

Just tonight I was thinking about it all,
How I just throw it all away,
Pinning my hopes to something so small as a 'ttyl'.
As I walked alone the other night, Could've done it,
But i needed you, Depending on your company.
Ending up with a tear to part, Just another reason,
Another reason I don't think I'll trust myself again,
Dodging on, Towards a smile, running away...
Almost hidden, The fear of losing to your charm.

Just tonight I was losing my mind.
But i threw it away,
Smile as you please, Walk away.
Don't give me that look.
This game we no more play,
I'm thinking through it all,
Before hand, Thinking twice.

Love me In your way.

After all that thinking, after all those sacrifices,
Going through change and going through all of it again.
Giving up almost everything, Just letting it all go.
Now i'm certain i can't just let you go.
Not so easily after all.
Ready to take you in with just heartbeat.
Just to live without regrets, Letting you know.
A shocker of a confession.
There was a point to which there was no going back,
Reaching there i've realised, its time to let you know.
Maybe just hold your hand, and let you see.
The vision for us i hold, Something that makes me smile..
Something that keeps me up at nights...
Making me just wonder of the 'how-to's and the 'what not to's.
These moments that haunt me, The thought of losing you.
Realising it was all a waste, to plan so much.
All for nothing, After all.
A shocker of realisation.
I watched the sunrise the other day, Missing a shoulder next to me.
To the happy tear that left my eye, to the beautiful sight.
Be with me, let me take you up there.
To the height of craziness,
To the point where we see the colours of the sky,
The vigrant blur of the world..
Blur of the memories, Just lost in the moment.
Realising the thorns of life, after such a beautiful life.
Was it all a waste? Did i confess and regret?
Did i lose my only star up my lonely horizon?
Show me you love me too. This is what i could call love.
Just in my world, This is love to me.
Love is undefined. There is no height.
Maybe just a degree, maybe just taking risks.
Its never too late, Its never to much.
Come to me whenever, I'll come to you wherever.
After another beautiful blissful moment,
Another fear of being taken for granted.
Most of it done for you, Done for nothing?
Show me you love me too,
In your way, In any way..
Just don't throw me away.

Moments.

Moments that matter,
Moments that we remember on forever..
Some hold the truth, the look in the eye.
Some hold the bitterness, something pondered over.
Moments we spend standing by the window,
Staring at the dull horizon,
We stare, we smile, These moments we share.
Some sweet memories held by these moment,
Some just exposed to the hurtful side of life.
No more regrets, we live on.
Taking up everything given, We don't complain.
We spend these moments with nothing but a challenge,
A challenge to never deny, Take up every step.
With a new moment to remember forever,
Just another reason to live on,
Remember these moments, They live forever.

She will be loved.

She's a tear of his eye,

Escapes reality like a goodbye,

And she will be loved, once again..

She will be loved..

It was the day after that spark,

How everyting was set to fire, unintentionally.

We just hurt each others souls...

Wanting completely different things,Misjudging ourselfs, we live on,

Just live on...

She's a tear of his eye,

Escapes reality like a goodbye,

And she will be loved, once again..

She will be loved..

Bearing most of it, lying on the floor,

She'd take it all tonight, with a fork and chocolate cake,

Having to bear so much of shit,

They don't say, Rock music escapes reality?

Flooded with emotions, clapped together,

Shedding the coloours of disappoinment, lost hope.

Almost never looking back,

Taking the high road, Just to live on...

Just live on..

She's a tear of his eye,

Escapes reality like a goodbye,

And she will be loved, once again..

She will be loved..

Another Rant.

The past six months meant alot ot me.
I loved you with all my heart,
You did too for a while,
Now this has to end, 
I am sorry but I feel miserable,
Hanging between your Yes and No.
Everyday, I rise with new hopes.
Everyday you crush and crumple em,
Shove them down my existence.
Burning me more and more,
Burying me deeper and deeper.
Maybe one day you'll see with differently.
Just the way i used to see you.
The beauty that i'd recognise in every little thing.
How i called you adorable and you made that face,
That face that you'll make when i'll pass you down the road.
When you'll expect an "oh hello" but things have changed.
We can say that the tables have turned,
This thing thats arising from inside of me,
A new way of thinking, A new attitude.
A mysterious character that you hate,
For it doesn't give a shit about your existence.
Here you realise, It was all attention game, No?
Didn't Mom ever tell you its not good to expect?
What you feel right now is what you put me through.
You treated me like shit, Now move on.
Come on! You shouldn't be the one going through the morning period.
You thought i couldn't resist you, After knowing my feelings for you,
Resistence is my middle name, Now this is another rant.
You lied, You made me cry.
I never complained, I just smiled.
I was broken hearted now you're looking at me with those eyes.
Looking at me through the glass, The polished truth.
Maybe its something you should've seen long time ago.
When i actually did care about you, Don't come to me now.
I've too far gone. Gone way too far.
Everytime i close my eyes, I know a part of me,
That keeps on edging towards your thoughts, 
But you still don't see my sad eyes,
Mystified. I'm still in love.
Just blind. Blinding myself. Hurting you.

The feeling.

These many questions i've left unanswered,

Paper after paper, crumpled on the floor,

I've written notes.The pathetic words that i wrote up, 'need' 'want' 'love'.

A second to think it all, Its the same story played again.

Missing you for the moment, Dying inside.

Then the sudden hit of realisation with the dizzyness.

At last the recovery.We could've totally just taken the leap to avoid all this.

Staying away and never talking again, It almost kills me.

I don't think i'll give up easily after the time i spent,

Trying to gain your trust, Tell you i loved you.

Only to just find you pushing me away,

I did my best to present my best, Tried my best.

Just to let you know how i felt, 

I tried my best to let you know about my clean motive.

Just love, A bright future, just a few smiles.

All i needed was your recognition to fight for you.

The light at the end of the tunnel.

We are just two different people, with two different visions.

Mine just consisting of you, Yours leaving me be.

Hurts a bit, But its fine, after all this time.

The time i spent waiting for you, I don't think a vision..

Just a vision will make me forget all that i have for you.

I don't think i can just change my ways,Become someone else,

Try to change myself to feel different.

To maybe just feel a bit short of burden.

Maybe just to forget the feeling of your need.