Through the window.

You didn't ask for it,
You never gave your heart,
But you lie with our dreams,
How we look in the future?
With no hope for tomorrow,
We just live these little moments,
Caught in the middle of roads,
We have no where to go,
We're left with the expectations,
This is the time you just smile,
Watch the days go by,
Bring life in everything you do,
And I live, just with you.
Day after day, we make dreams come true,
Just me and you.

Yesterday when you told you loved me,
You voice hasn't stopped echoing,
I can feel our dreams come to life.
Like you hold the hands of the little ones,
We walk in the snow,
And we dance in the rain,
When I look out this window,
It rains in the sunshine,
And the ice melts the snow,
Its just you, lying here with you,
There's so much that you do,
Bring life in everything you do,
And I live, just with you.
Day after day, we make those memories,
With no clue of tomorrow,
Just you and me.

I'm losing.

Its the same place,
Its the same date,
A few months later,
But I'm alone now,
I can see my mistakes,
I can feel them leave me behind,
In the darkness the of night,
In the coldness of all their smiles,
They walk around me,
Hand in hand,
And I don't remember your laugh,
I don't remember your smile.
I'm losing a memory.

I remember my hands on your waist,
We danced to that song,
Where you hummed the tone,
And I sang those words,
Watching you count the stars,
I couldn't look away.
Until you lost count,
And I felt you shiver.
I thought I'd warm you up with my smile,
But you held me tight, shivering more.
I'm losing my charm.

To every promise I made,
Promises I couldn't keep.
I feel the crack on my demeanor,
In the outlines of my heart,
How I carry your heart,
Setting fire to our love,
Brighter than the sun,
I held you tight,
I couldn't feel you there.
I'm losing you.

Under the rainbow.

Just underneathe the stars,
Where the birds stay still,
Feeling the wind against their wings,
And the fly to the highest peak,
Hidden by the rain,
Until the most beautiful rainbow,
Pulls them all, towards that laugh.
It changes the world,
Dumbfound by the thunder,
Pulled towards every drops that falls,
Crack after crack, they stood there.
Staring into nothing,
Where the rainbows lie,
Where there is no love or hate,
And sorrow lifts up the happiness,
Where the rich find the poor,
Under the rainbow,
Where the clouds crack and they're all there.
And when it rains, they're no longer hidden.

End of the world.

The skies are crashing,
And we run from the clouds,
They burst over us,
Just flooding us with memories.
I watch the place we used to love,
Fade away into ashes,
As it rain over the fire.
And we put off our hate,
All this rage and all the sorrow,
We let them drown,
Like they're never be tomorrow.
If its the end of the world,
Let me carve your way,
Away from every stone that falls,
From the dunes that cover me,
Later when I'm alone,
When you're nowhere to be found,
Away from these lightnings,
The thunder and the clouds,
That set fire to me.

If it was the end of the world,
I'd have you linger on my hold,
Finding reasons to stay longer,
When I held you tight,
When the flowers fade to petals,
Flying away like the lashes,
Of my eyes, wished upon.
Just to keep you here longer.

I take comfort from this rain,
I feel it numbing my senses,
Putting off my despair,
Pulling through my soul,
Like there's no tomorrow.
Like its the end of the world.

Darkenss that meant the world to me.

I look back on this road,
So far, beyond the horizon.
As far as I could see,
I just watched you walking with me.
Now a few steps to fall,
Just a few steps end it all.
I can't see why you're not here,
I close my eyes and my tears fall,
My breathe quickens, like my heartbeat.
I close my eyes and it burns.
The memories of you, flashing before me.
Is it the moment I'll remember?
This pain making me so cold inside.
You made it seem so beautiful,
Now without your memories,
I open my eyes to this darkness,
This darkness that once made me smile.
It was colourful and bright back then.
This darkness that meant the world to me,
Before it shattered, before the fall.
Now it lies underneathe my steps,
Pieces of you,
The way you made me feel alive,
The way you lifted all my pain,
And I pick these pieces up,
Walking all the way back,
I'll hold your hand,
Just to do it again.

For all the right reasons.

The music starts,
And I can see you looking at me,
With the blush on your cheeks,
The perfection of your smile,
Drawing me to you,
Next to the fountain,
Where all our world meets.
I hold your hand,
Lead you under the stars,
Where the music moves your feet,
I hold your hand,
And twirl you into me,
I can feel the flick of your hair,
Tickling my sensing, like your sweet perfume.
I follow every look in your eye.
I find all the thing I ever fell for.
From the hint of shyness,
And the nervousness on your palm.
I could you just hold your hand,
And watch you breathe, quicker than I'd walk away.
Deeper than my love for you,
Hitching your breathe,
And fluttering your eyes,
You whisper, ' Don't do this to me.'
For all the right reasons,
I leave you breathless,
For all the right reasons,
I do so much for you.
With just your smile,
Your beautiful smile,
You leave me speechless.

Next to you.

I'll be the one next to you,
With all your needs,
Clenched so tight in my hand,
I'd never let them go,
I need you to need me,
Is it enough to keep you here?
When you hold my hand?
Just to go through every step,
Leaving trails behind,
And you walk within the lines,
Seeping in every little detail,
And I stand next to you,
Hold the side of your face,
I can feel your eyes, bore into mine.
Inside your world falling apart,
Your brown beautiful eyes,
Shattering into pieces,
I can see your dreams,
In the tears you wipe.
Was it enough when I held you tight?
Was it enough when you walked over me?
Was I the one you remembered when you cried?
Is it enough for me to die?
Just to save your life.

Push me.

Give me reasons to breathe,
Behind the lines of hate,
Beneathe the shower of love,
Put me there,
Up on a pedestal.
Put me there until I'm free again,
Pointed on, until I'm shimmering,
I'm shining.
Brush the strands of my hair,
Hand me the ray of hope,
Push me, and push me hard.
Push me until I live again.

You stole my senses,
Numbing me to the bone.
I stepped in the wrong shoes,
Feeling out of place,
Somewhere under the wrong shadows.
When every movement, felt like a heartbeat.
Moving so loud, past all my wards.
These walls I put up, you look past them.
Painting it bright, paving my future.
Brushing with colours, like potraying your love.
I stare at this wall, giving me reasons to smile.
Hand me the ray of hope,
Push me, and push me hard.
Push me until I live again.

If it wasn't for...

If it wasn't for my love of the process of things,
How I love watching things grow, facing things, pushing the limit,
I'd be the laziest coach potato ever, I'm however not at all lazy.
In the spontaneous moments, how I decide on running miles and made a life out of it,
How I started rhyming a few months ago, and now stand here with heaps of pages.
The pen and the paper, my thoughts and this silence, Its all I'd ever need to keep my alive.
When they pushed me away, when they brought me down,
When I was the punching bag, I remember how I sat in silence,
Imagining life otherwise, like every other kid would.
If it is giving up on everything that you've ever wished for,
Or wanting something you can never have,
Feeling something so true that it breaks you down,
If its screaming to the whisper and talking to the silence,
I've been there, I've pretty much felt all of that.
If it wasn't for the depth of my thoughts, I'd be another 9 to 5..
At times when they fall on me, I walk to place I'd usually drive,
This is how I usually waste time and fall behind of daily chores.
I put my headphones on and suddenly the world stops making sense,
Screaming so loud and I never heard a thing,
I look at my brothers, the ones I live with and don't.
I can see how I would die for them,
I wouldn't say they're always there, but I wasn't so much of a needy person anyways.
When it comes to cheering me up, I've never been more thankful.
When it comes to making me feel like a father, well I wouldn't be thankful.
They're so brave on the outside, putting on the fake faces,
Deep inside, we're all the same, ready to fall apart,
Never letting the other know,
We do everything together, from hiding from the nerds to facing the retards.
We all talk so much but never say a word, weird init?
If it wasn't for my conscience, the way I realise everything that goes wrong,
How every turn that I take makes me feel more and more concious,
Am I wrong? What is it that I'm doing? And why?
All these questions have never let me fall in the wrong plates,
And this would be everything on the inside that I'll never speak,
Maybe you've read it in my eyes.
Or just read it out here.
If it wasn't for all of you, I'd never be me.

Memories of you.

I wouldn't have flinched,
I wouldn't have shed tears,
Held my head and cried all night.
I would've held my head up high,
Walking though the roads we took,
After that morning coffee,
And your beautiful smile,
The way you held my hand,
And talked about the faces in the sky,
Finding dust under my eyes,
You brushed my cheeks,
Ran your fingers over my scar,
Just the way you did,
Everytime you'd see it,
And hold me tight,
Like I'm about to break down.
I wouldn't have fallen at every move,
If you haven't taken away the memories,
As I look at the empty wall,
Where the pictures of us hung,
When our favourite song played over the radio,
But I couldn't find that chanel anymore.
I walked over the same road,
I could no longer see the colourful houses,
Or the flaws in their lawns.
I could no longer feel the nervousness on my palm,
The sky's no longer cloudy and grey.
I wouldn't feel the pain of losing you,
If you didn't leave traces of you..
And its like you're gone,
Just gone,
With everything we were,
Everything I had,
Memories of you.

A little more than tomorrow.

A little less than tomorrow,
A little more than yesterday,
I feel a little more of this fever,
Falling forever, I'm free falling.
Forever running to nowhere,
I hold up all my thoughts,
I put them on a plate,
And you break the dishes,
Making me fall, shattering me,
I couldn't feel anymore,
When you walked away..
With my soul and more,
I couldn't feel anymore.
Running from the emotions,
I watched him cry, never felt that rush,
I would've wiped his tears,
I would've held him tight,
He stops at my face,
Like facing a nightmare,
Realizing the monstorous gaffe on my face,
The way I force a smile,
Like its never there,
The way I laugh out loud,
Making them walk away.
I worry and I weight a little less,
A little less than yesterday,
A little more than tomorrow,
You walked away with my soul,
And I wish emotions could be borrowed.

Grieve and Mourn.

I saw you taking all the wrong steps,
Turning around to notice me looking at you,
I could feel you hesistate.
In the biting of your lips.
I could see you hitch your breath,
Waiting for every inch of you to release.
And I waiting for you to disappear again,
I could unwrinkle my worries.
At the edge of the cliff,
I watched the sun set down,
And then I couldn't feel you anymore.
All I ever did was bring you together,
I held your hand, I couldn't watch you suffer.
But you pushed me away,
Leaving my soul battered.
You never turned around,
Leaving my dreams shattered.

You stole my heart,
Before I heard your voice,
Before I saw the fire in you,
The way you walked upto every pin,
Softening the edges,
Being stronger than I could imagine,
You were tougher than I'd ever see,
But you walked away, I couldn't watch you suffer,
Now you lay there on the floor,
And my heart is stabbed,
Playing hide and seek with my soul,
Soulless and lifeless, I walked till dawn,
In every breath, my mistake I mourn.
All I ever did was bring you together,
I held your hand, I couldn't watch you suffer.
But you pushed me away,
Leaving my soul battered.
You never turned around,
Leaving my dreams shattered.

Listen.

I held myself together,
Everyday, everytime.
When you hit me heart first,
Moving my insecure little world,
I felt these tremors in me,
When you moved my way, moving me.
I felt your voice echoing,
Over and over calling my name,
In my sleep whispering to me.
Washing emotions over me,
With my innocent eyes,
And I feel complete,
Like you've half of me,
When you're here, I watch you breathe,
I'm sleepless, feeling numb.
Looking back from where I came,
To what I've become,
From the times I went days alone,
I'm just so dependent of everything you do,
Do you know me?
After every drop of tear I've shed for you?
Do you feel my pain?
After I lay myself for every knife that cuts you,
I put my faith in your smiles,
But you decided to never smile again,
I was your voice and you sat in corners.
Likes there's no me with you,
You move me just don't move away,
You've half of me,
Listen close,
Listen to every beat of me,
Listen to what they say.

Through every fall.

I hear your voice, and you stab me slowly.
With every word, racing my heart.
I can feel you move when you breathe.
In every little thing, I see so much life.
I close my eyes and smile to you.
For every blessing, the reasons to smile.
For everything that I've ever been,
Finding the heavier things,
Just letting them go,
You let them go,
Watching me hold your hand,
Through every fall, I fall down with you,
Holding you higher than ever.

I could shine all the light on you,
Shine with brighter than the sun,
With so much love, I could let it all go.
I can hardly breathe when you hitch and sob,
Words stop making sense, like when you smile.
I find my dreams in reality, at times like these..
I could hold you higher than I'd ever be,
Finding your place, right where you belong,
While I'm waiting, steady and strong,
No one could ever pull you down.
Through every fall, I fall down with you,
Holding you higher than ever.

Beyond The Mountain.

Was it when we ran through the fields,
You fell down and I kissed you cheeks,
Wiped away your tears and you cried for comfort.
I held you tight and brushed your wounds.
We cried and laughed, singed through the day,
Running from the mountains to the edge of the cliff.
I could see the innocence in your eyes,
Even then, when the words we said, so light
So innocent, back then,
When all we cared about,
Were the rainbows high off the sky,
The day, ending with a goodbye,
Until tomorrow, when we smile again.
You'll be here and I'll bring the colours,
We can fill the clouds with your laugh,
Let them linger here,
Until you're gone, they'll crack.
And I'll remember you.
Was it really then, when I fell for you?

Was it when you had your dreams far away,
From this place we called home.
You ran to that better place,
Finding your place in ever street cafe,
I sit here on this same cliff,
I wonder the time the tears rolled down your cheeks,
I ran to you and I fell on my knees,
So weak and broken, I sheltered you from the rain.
All I saw was your happiness beyond the mountain.
When the clouds crack, I remember that long day.
And I remember you.
Was it really then, when I fell for you?

Life.

I'm not really good at writing anything other that Poems and official stuff,
I can write anything in a poem and say 'fiction' and get away with every staring eye.
But its different like this, People nowadays are very judgemental.
I learned it the hard way.
Okay so lets just write without thoughts,
I've felt alone, I've felt lost and isolated.
I've stayed up nights just to figure life out,
And everytime I've come up with a different conclusion,
A different view on it, a different scenario of my 'tomorrow'.
I've come to one conclusion though,
What you will really think about your 'life', at any given time or day,
It all depends on what you've been through in the recent days,
The tales of a few people, or their experiences can change our lives.
Believe me or don't, sometimes even a few songs can turn you into someone people around you will love more.

What is life according to you?
A touchy topic or a clique?
Something that will never make sense?
You just need to look into yourself and find all that you have, every bit of you is blessed.
All of us need to overlook every little flaw in our lifes.
Be thankful and watch your life turn to something that makes sense in a single sentence.
I learned it the hard way.

On the edge.

I can feel myself fall,
When I let my guard down,
I feel myself bleed from my eyes,
I can hear you walk away..
And I see you lying there,
Ignoring all my gestures.
I would it give it all up,
Just to see you smile.

Throw all your pain,
Aim it at me,
I'll take it up,
Even if you miss some,
If its in sunshine,
Or the dark of the moon,
Remember me if you need flowers,
If you want smiles and love,
Think of me and feel me there,
Around the corner, watching over my heart.
Watching over you.

I couldn't tell you how words hurt,
I'd feel it everytimes you walked away.
When I hold out my hand,
Picking you up after every fall,
Promising to never let you fall again,
But you went back again,
Taking all those roads,
I was a little late again,
I held my hand to pick you up again.
But you didn't need me anymore.

Grow on me.

Time flies and people change,
I've watched you grow but you stayed the same.
Growing on me like a beautiful creeper,
Giving me flowers that make me smile.
Flaws drop by and you've stayed the same.
Day after day, spreading in every inch of me.
Like catching fire in here, in my heart.
I've left all the edges,
I couldn't feel myself drown.
I walk with my head up high,
And you never let me down.
Talking to me but hardly speaking.
I know your eyes say so much,
And the way you feel on me.
Like a creeper growing on me.
I've kept you so close to this heart,
Beating for you, beating as you grow.
Covering more of me, with your love and flowers.
Making me smile and fade..
Fade into you, cover me with your love.

When you were here.

You found me in every weak position,
Turned around and smiled,
Caught my eye and blew me away.
With every blink of your eye,
Throwing me farther into this bliss.
I remember feeling overwhelmed,
Worked up when you looked at me,
I couldn't keep myself together when you flinched.
I couldn't find my words when you said nothing,
From the touch of your hand,
Until the time I caught your eye,
I felt so cold, with this fire in my chest.
You warmed me up and put it out.
Bringing my world together, whenyou came to me.
Step after step, I remember each word you said..
Moment after moment, I remember every smile you gave.
With your precious eyes, you made me feel that rush.
Holding me tight you couldn't say so much..
From the corner of your eyes,
Till the palm of your hand,
Your beautiful smile and soft hair,
I would do it all again, just to feel you there.

Heartbeats.

Our heart beats,
Sometimes harder than before,
Some softer than you'll ever feel.
In every beat, there's truth.
There's love, hate, anger and sorrow.

Put your hand to your heart,
Feel every little beat.
Are you running away from the truth?
Can you feel yourself fade towards love?
Hear what the heart never says,
Feel what the heart will never feel.

Slower than before,
Lower than you'll ever know.
Are you feeling defeat?
Did you close yourself?
Let yourself cry?
Hide no more,
Find the words and scream.
Let the world know.
Let them hear your heartbeat.
Somewhere inside you live.
Between beats you sing,
Telling the world things,
Things these your heart never will.

Here tomorrow?

To every corner of this city,
We can walk until the lights go off,
Fall asleep at that street cafe,
Ring up the bells at 1 in the morning..
Take away all the sorrow,
All the things that killed our day.
When the thoughts got brighter,
We ran away.. away.
To places we never knew..
I'm finding myself in you,
We tried to be just okay,
All we ever wanted was a piece of love,
And we're talking at this street cafe,
Finding love in every glance,
Just you and me,
Don't know where you'll be,
Tomorrow is a new day..

When it rains we can dance,
We could even cry, they'd never know.
For all the goodbyes,
All the stabs of life.
Stand at the edge of ocean,
You can jump but don't leave me alone.
You seem real when you smile,
It feels fake when I laugh.
Its only been a moment,
But I feel like you're the one.
Just you and me,
Here now, where'll you be tomorrow?

Our baby sister.

We've seen that fire grow,
Your brother and I,
We sat through the cries,
When Dad ran up the hill,
Feeding us with everything,
The little things making us happy..
We've been through that road,
Stepped the stones, we put them away.
Hold our fingers, we'll take you there.
Away from every little monster,
Away from the tiny bugs.
Shine our world with your adorable smile,
Point to whats pretty,
We'll take you there,
You're learning everything,
With your gestures and noises,
Get us all together,
Make us wonder what you think,
Until you walk next to us,
With your head held up high.
You'll see no darkness,
And shine our lives.
With such innocence in your eyes,
You live in our heart.
Your brother and I,
We've been through the tough times,
We'd paved this smooth road for you,
Our little princess,
Our baby sister.

Take me home.

I was so sure last night,
I've been walking since,
Every tree that goes by,
So familiar, feels like mine,
A tiny change in all these clouds,
They're greyer than before,
Bursting over me.
I can't find my way home..
I sang through all those bridges,
Distant from here, over the horizon,
The shining lights of my city...
I can see the fountain roaring up high.
Until I'm down again,
I don't know where to go.
Every turn I take feels like home,
Every step, feels so wrong.
I could've been there today,
But the stillness of the wind,
Followed by the roaring of the cloud..
Making me feel so lost,
Numbing my senses,
Drenched in rain, I sheltered under this tree..
This tree I believe I'd once sat under..
I wrote all about the smiles,
I remember scribbling my name here,
I can't trace it anymore..
Like the past is fading..
Challenging me, waiting for me to let go.
And I wait, close my eyes..
Wait for this nightmare to end.
Lost, insecure, Take me home.

Taking all of me.

Tonight, before midnight,
Hold my hand,
Around the fountain,
When no one's around..
Give me your hand,
Let me brush the flakes of snow away.
From the corner of your eyes,
Twirling you around every stranded road..
They can stare, point and laugh.
Just this world of you and me,
Let it all out,
Hum your tune and I'll tell you you're beautiful.
Fill every missing spot,
Every little detail of your life,
With all that I have,
All that I can give.
Give me your brightest smile,
Take all of me.

Let go of all the what ifs,
All of the maybe's.
Look at me,
Call my name and flirt with my innocence,
I can feel you winning me,
With every twitch of your lips,
With the shine in your eyes..
When you pull me close,
This sweet fragnance pulling me closer..
I can feel myself fade,
Fading within you,
Give me your brightest smile.
Take all of me.

My little world.

This little world of mine,
I create flowers from the sky,
They fall apart when you cry,
And it rains with your tears.
Slowly slowly working on my heart,
You grow on my, like the sunflower.
With every breath,
It gets colder here,
Like I'm breathing the happiness,
It snows, creeping through your neck,
Tickling your senses,
Its like lightning on a clear sky..
I've been trying to breathe love,
Fighting for every ray of sun,
Trying to get the flowers to blossom,
For the chirping of the birds,
The scent amidst the rainbows..
So natural, like breathing love..

Even in the brightest of days,
There's an empty hole in here.
Empty space between my fingers..
When you're not here..

Why're you loving me?

When they're all holding me back,
Punching me down,
When I try to come up,
I'm undershadowed.
When I try to fly,
They cut off my wings,
Lock me in a cell,
They numb my senses,
And I feel no pain..
You hold my hand,
You kiss my forehead,
You rub my cheeks,
And brush my hair..
Look into my eyes,
And overlook every flaw,
When they all crush me,
Break me and shatter me.
I'm in pieces,
And you pick me up,
Piece after piece,
You put me together..
And you leave me crying..
I was so used to hurt,
Why're you loving me?

Here I am.

I recall every little detail,
The way the fountain stayed shut,
The flowers dried up,
And the pathway covered in snow,
The sound of every step we took,
The stillness of the wind.
The chirping of the birds,
Followed by your amazing laugh..
I look to my side,
And I remember you next to me,
How you held my hand,
You took of your glove,
Just to feel my skin..
I remember the love in your eyes..
And here I am,
Its not the same..
I stand still for as long as I can remember,
It was forever and I was soaked in the memories,
I couldn't cry or maybe I did,
I don't remember, the raindrops are te same..
The fountain's so beautiful,
And the flowers held so high..
Everything so beautiful..
Lifeless but it looks so beautiful.
I look to my side,
And you're not here..
The rain stops and the sun sets,
The fountain dries and the flowers dead..
When you're not here.
Everything's so still,
Beautiful, yet lifeless..
I stand still for as long as I can remember,
And here I am.

Longing.

I can feel you've missed me,
Weeks since the last time,
I heard your laugh and it moved me.
I was doing very well,
Holding on to everything that made me smile..
Almost as bright as the ones you gave..
Almost as true as the happiness you gave..
I feel the butterflies flutter again,
Inside of my chest, when I hear your voice..
I felt the nervousness,
I could feel myself shiver,
As I heard you breathe, so long..
Its been so long..
I'm still in love,
With everything you are..
Every second and every moment,
I'm missing you so much..

I can feel it in your voice..
You're holding back too,
From the last time,
We've come so far..
We've done everything they said we couldn't..
I've stayed up nights to soothe you to sleep,
You've made sense out of every flaw..
My eyes are looking for you,
In every corner..
My voice needs your tone,
In every word I say..
I'm longing to hear you whisper..
'I've missed you so bad'..

So much, so much more.

You're so much,
So much more than you give yourself the credit for,
I can write pages on your beauty,
The way you blink and the shine of your eyes.
How you put me before you,
Wiping every tear and comforting me,
I remember how all my memories were your enemy.
All the dark days that you shunned away.
With the way you care,
The way you love me.
I've seen my life change,
I've seen the worst and,
I've been with the best.
When I was with you, I could feel myself change..
From the worse, you make me better..
You did so much,
Never gave yourself the credit for..
In your silence, I can hear the shatter,
The shattering of your heart,
In your tears, I can see the rainbows.
The ways you've changed me,
How I see everything so beautiful,
Even in the dark, I'm so thankful.
And your voice, like an angel.
Whisper love to me,
I can never feel that way..
The way you made me feel.
You did so much,
So much more than you give yourself the credit for...

Letting go.

She has her mother's eyes,
And the way she smiles,
Finding me wherever I hide,
Tingling every sense in me,
I can feel her play with her hair,
When my heart beats loud,
I know she's thinking of me,
When her eyes strike me with fire..
Its hard to not look away..
With so much grace,
She can turn me around..
Find me wherever I hide,
Blame me for whenever I wasn't there..
I just couldn't feel you too much,
I'd feel you here and never feel you here.
Feel so much and I could never lose it..
I held your hand and I had the world..
If you don't find me here,
I'm scared of losing my world..

Maybe I needed you to pull me closer,
Whisper to me and make me feel..
I've missed on so much,
Living in the fears,
Love you so much but I've never loved.
I can feel you needing me back,
When I hold your hand,
I left my heart on the plate..
Holding you closer,
Getting used to the feel of you,
Memories your scent,
Learning your expression..
Letting go off my fears.
I'm loving you..

Mirrors.

What do you see?
When you look in the mirror?
Do they show you who you are?
Do you see who you want to be?
I found myself in there,
Behind one of those mirrors,
Smiling back at myself,
Reflecting back at how pathetic I've been,
With the dull eyes and the greasy hair,
Do you feel broken too?
When you look at who you are?
And what you could've been?
Its never too late to smile again...

Do you like the way your eyes shine?
When you feel the love for her?
When you think of him?
Do you look away or smile back at you?
Are you seeing yourself on a pedestal?
Place yourself there with the best in you..
Find out who you are, place yourself high.
You're worth more than the mirrors show,
They show you smiling, beaming..
These mirrors hold your secret..
Be what they're making you see..

Broken Wings.

You've walked the very few steps,
Over a few stones and you're bleeding,
Looking into their eyes like you're dying..
Resenting from every smooth surface,
You've fallen deep..
Into this pit of darkness you've created..
Shadowed by a few, you feel so weak,
You've made yourself fall so low,
Desperate, broken, feeling so insecure.
This hunger for sympathy,
Just smile when they push you,
Smile again when they push you harder...
With the looks on your face,
You'll be gone by the end,
The end of this road.

You felt so out of line,
When you were left alone,
You went with every dark ray,
Finding blood in every corner,
You found peace in pain..
When they hurt you, you felt pain..
Like a misrable angel, you've fallen..
This is you, you've broken your wings..
Let go of the threats you've found..
Smile in the darkness,
Let go, shine on..

Friend.

I remember thinking about something..
And there he stood,
Right next to me when we were alone..
He held his heart back,
Wiped away his emotions,
Like an open book to me,
He said everything I thought the other day..
When he understands you like a song..
Speaks to you, in this tone..
Just for the two of you..
He said everything I thought of..
He did everything I asked for..

I remember his voice,
Shrill in the middle of the night,
When I shivered and held myself together,
He held me close when I shed my fears,
Tear after tear, amidst my nightmares,
He made them alright..

And there she was..
Understanding this speech of mine,
Never understood by them..
I could swear they'd think the worst of me..
Word after word I felt myself being punched..
For ever wrong step I took back then..
She could just smile and make me believe..
Like a bold leader,
Leading me away from the darkness,
At times when I needed it the most,
She wiped off my tears and slipped me smiles..
Understand this speech of mine,
Understood by no other..
I was breathing again..
So thankful for every moment,
Every moment she was there..
Smiling and making sense out of nothing.

Just words.

Words they can hurt,
When you fall short of them,
You stand there in the corner,
With the corners of your lips,
Twitching and switching..
You flee to every corner,
In the your thoughts,
You spread like the fire,
Finding elegance in your tone,
Stuck when you're short of them,
Just words..
Mere words, with the strings...
Working on you, burning you down..

Words, they make you smile..
When you let them flow,
From the pits of your heart,
Pumping up with the your blood,
The blood that loves,
Flowing to every corner,
Forming a smile from the corner,
Corner of your beautiful lips..
Finding affection in your eyes..
In love when they work on you..
Just words..
Mere words, with the strings..
Working on you.. shining your eyes..

Never mine, I was all you had.

I'm still breathing here,
And I'm sorry everyday.
I won't always find,
Myself in the corner of guilt,
I'll move on but I'm sorry.
For everytime you bled out,
No one else was crying,
When you walked away..
No one else was dying..
When you couldn't stay..
I'm still crying for you..
And I wish these things you knew..
I can have you here but never have..
Everything I want, my other half.
For every moment you smiled,
I pictured this world of love,
Where we breathed love,
And you gave away happiness,
With every tear we formed rainbows to slide on,
We found ourselfs smiling, finding clouds to glide on..
We kept walking, right next to the sun..
Weighing on me, now you're too much to carry..
Leaning on me, like I've been yours forever..
Never mine and I was all you had..

Work.

Does this really work for you?
Killing me down and apologizing,
Watch me fake my smile,
Using the softer side of me,
I could never glare on you,
I was never the one to shout..
And you slipped all your mistakes,
Holding me by my face,
While my tears welling up on you..
I was never the one to shout..
You misunderstand every word I say,
Walk away to every move I make,
I was insecure and you crossed me out,
Living like you'll never lose me,
Will it really work for you?
Watching me walk away,
With all that I have,
All that I give,
For our love to catch fire,
All that I surrender,
To make it easier for you,
I was never that one,
That one you loved.
Watch me walk away,
With all that I have.

Reasons to smile.

I've been so lost,
Looking for you,
Everything, in every corner..
I trace sparks of your smile,
Tears of your eyes,
Seaped up in the dew,
They rain over me,
Covering me with your scent,
I can feel you near,
I wish you were here..

Fighting my way to you,
I've killed time,
And fought with these thoughts,
They say, you're gone,
Leaving tracing to nowhere,
I've been here before,
Where you smile,
I can see my tears,
Seaped up by the dew,
Raining over me..
I can feel your in this sand,
The way it slips,
I wish I had never let you go..
Now I need you here..

When the clouds burst together,
I heard your laughter,
And it rained your scent,
I couldn't help but smile..
When I laid down in the dark,
And it rained outside,
I remember every look in your eye,
It rains, giving me reasons to smile.

Still.

I wear that shirt,
When I'm missing you,
I remember when you held me tight,
With your arms around me,
It feels alright,
Everything feels so true..
I walk the roads we took,
Sit on that same park bench,
I remember how the birds flew away..
With your laughter, they stood still..
Watching you smile your beautiful smile..
They stood still,
Like nature on hold..staring.
You're so beautiful.
You held me.

I ran my fingers through the river,
They feel colder than before,
And they wet my eyes,
I miss you.
I took every step,
With you holding my hand,
And here I am,
I wish you were here,
Watching me smile,
I just wish you're somewhere,
Watching me cry..
I remember the way you made me feel,
It has me wishing for more..
I wore that same shirt, sat on the same park bench..
Its never the same, without you holding my hand...
You're so beautiful.
I miss you.

Never Show.

You can tell me you care,
Hold my finger and take me everywhere..
Place me on a pedestal and shine on me..
You can make me smile and let the entire world see..
I can feel you fade when you look away...
I sense hesitation in every word you say..
Walk away now, why're you still here?
Throw me away, don't pull me near..

There were a thousand candles, just you here..
Burning one by one.. Fear after fear..
Tear after tear, rainbows in our eyes..
The rivers we formed after all our goodbyes..
Deep inside my heart, I've carved your name..
It rains here and things don't stay the same..
Find me in every bursting cloud..
I'll pour over you, pour out loud.
If you see me walk away, just let me go..
Don't tell me you care and never show..