Three Six Five.

Three Six Five.
Every day and every night.
Time to time, they all vary.
Like January and February.
All the memories will stay,
Like March, April and May.
May our June's and July we remember,
With the rush of August and September.
Chilling in the coldness of October,
And every hand we held, last November.
Through our winter clothes, do you remember,
Kissing under the mistletoe last december?


Forgive me for all my wrongs,
For all the times I brought you down.
Remember the times we cried,
Holding our hands, tears we dried.
Will our stories be told,
As our figures come nearer,
Will I be here tomorrow?
Will tomorrow be a better day?
I can feel most of you fade away,
Years have passed, and years come by.
We stand here, drifting apart,
It all comes down, like it always does,
Making us remember just yesterday,
When we changed our ways,
We walked away with hate in our heart,
Brewing love inside,
We call them love,
Looking away with disgust.
Find me today, for my yesterday.
Take my hand, feel me forgive you too.
No regrets, tomorrow is a better day.

Three Six Five.
Every day and every night.
Time to time, they all vary.
Like January and February.
All the memories will stay,
Like March, April and May.
May our June's and July we remember,
With the rush of August and September.
Chilling in the coldness of October,
And every hand we held, last November.
Through our winter clothes, do you remember,
Kissing under the mistletoe last december?

I'm 10.

They say I'm too innocent for this,
All this shouting will hurt my cute,
When you hold me, lying on your hand,
I'm scared I'll be forever 10,
When I'm afraid of losing you,
They say I'm only a kid,
But I'm scared of these dark clouds,
I'm feeling something none of they do,
Without all of you, I'm just 10.
When you're here, you make me loved.
You give me all that I ever need.
When I bring your hands together,
You brush my hair, and smile at me,
Making me believe its not simple.
I see 1's and 2's in all my pages,
And 2 with 1 is 3, just like them and me.
But I'm so scared they'll change me,
I scribble everywhere there remain 2.
I tear them, again and again,
Slip em into the garbage,
Until you find them,
You and Mum, you hold me and cry,
And I see you hold her hand,
I smile, my world comes together.

Crying a nightmare.

I've stabbed you I know,
Do you feel what I feel?
Everytime you're not here,
When you throw me away,
In their laughs,
When you follow the flaws in me.
Point me down when they arrive.
And when I'm sane, I dream of you,
Smiling at me, its a dream.

I feel flawless when you're with me,
When the moon shines, perfectly.
And the wind tickles your curls.
I notice everything but the coldness in you,
In this chilly winter night,
You stab me again, holding me until you cry,
Leave the thread to my misery,
And for everytime you've burned me down,
You look at me and cry,
It took everything in me and more,
To walk away, that day when you cried.
Crying at me, living a nightmare.

I stand here.

You held me in the walls,
Finding every fear in me,
You bring the strangers here,
And I cry and fight with everyone of you.
All of you who read this on these walls,
I've been here and bled,
You were here too but fled.

And someday in the dark,
When you see me shine,
Flying in the wind,
Running against the waves.
Working my way through the fire.
Paving my way on the sky, like painting my tomorrow.
Today I stand here, a face of yesterday.
Fearless, falling through the skies.
I stand on my feet, dropping at your feet.
When you walk my way,
And here I stand, unable to look in your eyes.

I remember every word you said,
The promises you made, you've kept.
The dreams you promise, I'm living them.
And the knifes I put on your back,
All the times I cried on your lap.
For every time I've tortured your soul.
With my words that hurt and the gestures of my past.
They haunt me today, walk to me.
I feel this memory fleeting.
Look me in the eye..
I'm standing here.

You say love.

I bring your favourite flower,
Pulled right from this earth.
I wear your favourite shirt,
I do so much, I know what you're worth.
I walk cities just to bring you a smile,
And I'm shunned for a while.
When you love me so much,
With so much that you are.
I'm so weak inside, fighting all these thoughts.
And you close your hands on me,
And I feel my world complete.
If there's one thing I've to prove,
Baby, I don't deserve you.

In your eyes, I see that fire.
It burns my heart, this desire,
To watch your, your every step.
To hold you high, up way too high.
You find me weak, when you say love.
You'll find me asleep when you hold me close.
I'm falling through the skies, shouting your name.
I'm carving your name, in the depths of my soul.
They can see you've got to me,
Etched in my smile.
And with all your love,
I'm shunned for a while.

I stand here.

You held me in the walls,
Finding every fear in me,
You bring the strangers here,
And I cry and fight with everyone of you.
All of you who read this on these walls,
I've been here and bled,
You were here too but fled.

And someday in the dark,
When you see me shine,
Flying in the wind,
Running against the waves.
Working my way through the fire.
Paving my way on the sky, like painting my tomorrow.
Today I stand here, a face of yesterday.
Fearless, falling through the skies.
I stand on my feet, dropping at your feet.
When you walk my way,
And here I stand, unable to look in your eyes.

I remember every word you said,
The promises you made, you've kept.
The dreams you promise, I'm living them.
And the knifes I put on your back,
All the times I cried on your lap.
For every time I've tortured your soul.
With my words that hurt and the gestures of my past.
They haunt me today, walk to me.
I feel this memory fleeting.
Look me in the eye..
I'm standing here.

Crying a nightmare,

I've stabbed you I know,
Do you feel what I feel?
Everytime you're not here,
When you throw me away,
In their laughs,
When you follow the flaws in me.
Point me down when they arrive.
And when I'm sane, I dream of you,
Smiling at me, its a dream.

I feel flawless when you're with me,
When the moon shines, perfectly.
And the wind tickles your curls.
I notice everything but the coldness in you,
In this chilly winter night,
You stab me again, holding me until you cry,
Leave the thread to my misery,
And for everytime you've burned me down,
You look at me and cry,
It took everything in me and more,
To walk away, that day when you cried.
Crying at me, living a nightmare.

I'm 10

They say I'm too innocent for this,
All this shouting will hurt my cute,
When you hold me, lying on your hand,
I'm scared I'll be forever 10,
When I'm afraid of losing you,
They say I'm only a kid,
But I'm scared of these dark clouds,
I'm feeling something none of they do,
Without all of you, I'm just 10.
When you're here, you make me loved.
You give me all that I ever need.
When I bring your hands together,
You brush my hair, and smile at me,
Making me believe its not simple.
I see 1's and 2's in all my pages,
And 2 with 1 is 3, just like them and me.
But I'm so scared they'll change me,
I scribble everywhere there remain 2.
I tear them, again and again,
Slip em into the garbage,
Until you find them,
You and Mum, you hold me and cry,
And I see you hold her hand,
I smile, my world comes together.

Put you behind.

After the longest nights,
Staying up and watching them sleep,
Holding pieces of parchments,
I scribbled my quills,
Thought of every way, I could have you here.
Every word I wrote, was never enough,
With the morning light, I burned the pages,
Putting you behind,
When I blew the ashes,
I stabbed the hopes of my heart,
Living this pain, every night.
Just to put you behind.

And we all gathered,
Just to remember those we lost,
I saw you there, black and elegant.
I could feel myself being pulled to you,
Weeping in the corner,
I couldn't hold myself for long,
Until I turned around,
Walked away from you,
I shut out my heart,
And so much that I feel,
When I see you weak,
I pull myself together,
Until I lie in the corner,
And I cry, I feel ignorant, every time,
Just to put you behind.

Souls you touch.

You run and hide,
Away from every sad thought,
So brave, you're such a fighter.
And you fire me, from making you smile.
You throw me away, when I try to cheer you up.
You keep the darkests of thoughts inside,
Letting them haunt you, in this winter cold.
Making it harder to breathe,
Its not just me, but every soul you touched.
Every hand you've held.
They are all here, making you smile.
But you don't give up,
Tougher than the front you put.
Tougher than the breeze in this winter cold.
And we put it together,
Hold out the world for you.
I remember you held us close,
I remember your tears falling my down my cheeks.

You scream and shout,
But you never let it out,
You set fire to every star,
Making them shine brighter.
Making us feel so much,
You hold yourself close,
Crawling in this winter snow,
Feeling it on you,
Just to feel something,
You stare at the sky,
Making the star fall for you.
Every hand you've held,
Is right here, ready to climb,
All seven skies,
Just to pull them for you,
Just say the world,
And we'll hold out the moon for you.

Six Lives.

You can call me freak,
I'm twice on your killing streak,
Goodnight is over,
And you're sober.
We need that name,
You pull him to blame,
Go and grow,
Shine and show,
And you laugh in the evening,
Remember your cry in the morning.
Let go of the barells.
After all the quarells.
You move up and let me down,
I'm screwed up, let me drown.
And its never too late,
Didn't you wait?
I could chase you no more,
This winter, your cold made me sore,
I couldn't cry for you anymore,
My love in the pages you tore,
Close your eyes and let me go,
Forever, there's nothing left to show,
I was in it, getting addicted,
You held me, getting it?
To this pain and the drama,
In your pain, you blame it to karma,
And you've no reasons to smile,
Breaking me like a marble tile,
In half, and you throw half of me,
My other half, softer, you couldn't see.
If you were my cat, with seven lives,
I'd be the bat, blind for your tries.
In your next six lifes.
Say hello to my knives.

Family.

They read you like a book,
And your smiles turn the pages,
With every word bringing them closer,
The love you show, hurt you share.
Where the happiness begins,
And the sorrows drown.
Holding you back where there is lightning,
Holding you back where there is darkness.
They're always there, just say a word.
They're always there, just to complete you.
From your beautiful baby sister,
Her tears make you frown,
And look at the stones that made her fall,
You move them away, making her smile.
From your stone of an elder brother,
He walks before you,
Taking the perils of life,
Down on his lap, brushed before you sit.
He holds you by the hand,
Reminding you of his mistakes,
Regret in his eyes,
He paves the way for you,
Making you smile.

It started when you first cried,
And they cried too,
With tears of joy, they held you so close,
You're everything they've ever dreamed of.
They see you climbing to the top,
And they never frown, when you fall down,
You get back up, and they know you will.
They've given so much,
Maybe its time for you too.
You'll ache for their love,
Embrace while you can.
You'll ache for every emotion,
Listen, while you still can.

Save me?

This time, you saved me.
When I was about to fall,
You pulled me back.
I was beaming with glee.
You made accounts of your regrets,
You look back and say, no more turning back.
I held your hand, and I slipped of the cliff again.
And you pulled me again,
Showed me the jewels of life.
Giving me reasons to walk on by,
Setting fire to every dark thought.
This time, you saved me.
I was a thousand miles from darkness,
And toward the light, you pull me with you.
I can see your soul, crystal like,
I can feel you rubbing on me,
Everytime I cling to you,
Giving me more and more,
Just picking me up, whenever I fall down.
Giving me all of you,
Until I slipped again,
And I fell down.
This time won't you save me?
And I'm back to where I belong,
Alone and hopeless,
Picking up pieces of me, I remember you.

Before the storm.

We see he's gone,
Somewhere in the depths of the ocean,
Somewhere where there is no light,
Under the shine of these stars,
You cry like it rains tonight,
Thunder and lightning,
So scared of what tomorrow brings.
You rain over me,
Reminding me of my mistakes.
Where were I?
You make me remember,
Before the storm,
Before he was gone,
You make me remember,
Memories that made me cry.
Memories, I could never say goodbye.

I look back at this smile,
Such innocence,
Washed away, just a few days.
You were here, and we laughed together.
And you held her when she cried,
I laughed when you didn't get by,
Dipping your feet in the ocean,
Sometimes you pushed me too,
And I felt the rush,
I felt the rush of losing you.
And she makes me remember,
Of the darkness that ponders here,
Over us, when you're gone.
We miss you, its so silent here.
Before the storm.

Find me.

Watch me go, and push you away.
I am cold, when you cry.
All these tears, seeping on my shoulder,
And I let my hands fall,
When you hold me tight,
I'm cold, I've given up.
I feel nothing that you do,
I know sooner or later, its over,
You walk away and I'm in pieces.
When everything's meant to be broken,
I don't want to miss you, right now.

Watch me leave my soul behind,
In every step that I take,
Leaving a trail of me,
Will you come find me?
Where do I go when I'm lonely,
Tell me you'll follow.
I will laugh coldly,
When you hold my hand, I'll push you away.
I'm only looking out for my soul.
If I let you see me cry,
If I let you hold me tight,
Promise me you'll find me.

My Sad Reality.

I'm numbed by so much love,
In my sad reality,
And they look over my clangers,
Making me believe in the truth,
Yesterday does not define me,
And they've faced the past,
But they're still here.
Holding me hand,
After every stone hits me,
Deforming my soul, insecure and changed.
They're bringing new life to my soul.
And I look over my shoulder,
They all stand, waiting for me to move.
Until I tell them to,
They're just there, feeling every pinch on me.
Covering me from the sight of their fingers,
Turning them around, just to let me through.
Yesterday does not define me.
And you change my soul.
Breaking me from my misery,
Letting me out of this cage,
Where I look into the dark,
You enrapture me with your love,
With so much love,
Numbing me in my sad reality.

Daddy.

I remember holding your finger,
And we walked through the paths,
Of the cobblestones, near the fountains.
You held me high, I felt your love.

I look at that day,
Its your amazing smile,
Holding me tight,
Looking at this picture.
I miss you, do you miss me too?

I remember the promises we made,
When we looked at the stars,
I smiled at mom,
You gave me her ring that day,
Told me about her dreams,
And we set out of bring them to life,

Dad, was I always such a disappointment?
Why're you not here?
When they all hold me high?
For all I've ever done,
Do you see her in me too?
I've held her dreams tight,
I've been loved,
So much for all I ever did,
And that all was you,
Why're you not here?

Just like her you've left,
And I've your dreams to give life.
Just to smile and live on,
Like the times you closed my eyes,
Getting me used to the darkness,
To the loneliness.
I know now,
You never meant to stay.

Mourn.

I hold your photograph,
That beautiful smile,
I remember how much I loved you,
All those punches of peril you took for me.
I remember how your voice held me high,
And when you're not here,
Not that you're not here.
I've mourned your beautiful soul.
I can feel you staring at me,
When I look in the sky,
I find reasons to smile.
In the shining and twinkling,
One of these star, you're my star.
I wish I had told you,
Of all so much gratitude.
How I can never repay you,
For everything you've ever did.
But I just lie here,
Staring into nothing,
Finding something out of nothing.
Making these excuses for why you're not here.
And when you're not here,
Now that you're not here.
I've mourned your precious smile.
I lie lifeless, I can feel you here.
Where'd you go?
Please come back home.

Regret.

I don't ask for you for much,
For you to forgive me or to forget.
I don't want you know, I'll live in regret.
I was in the darkest of sides,
And you walked away from my pleas.
I was tired of waiting,
Just for you to smile at me again,
But you're stuck in those memories,
I remember, I haven't been perfect,
I know I'll never be.
Why do I try?
What you've missed all your life,
Giving me reasons to regret each breath.
I fall down at your feet,
I know its never enough,
For all the times you cried on my shoulder,
Setting fire to your tears,
And I walked away, finding another way around.
And I never heard the sound,
The sound of you crying,
For all my mistakes,
I don't ask for much.
I don't ask for forgiveness.
I don't wish for you to forget.
Just never know I'll live in regret.

“If only. Those must be the two saddest words in the world.”

So much love.

You ask me why,
And I laugh and smile,
I love you, its limitless,
Higher than the skies,
Deeper than all oceans,
Come here and feel it too,
Let me take care of you,
Let me be there to hold you high,
So strong, you're so tough.
You took all their fights with a smile,
But you never had to,
You put a brave smile and fake a laugh,
But you didn't have to,
When I stand here,
Throwing away all of me,
Just to bring my shadow to you,
To protect you from the peril.
And I take step by step,
Picking you up,
Holding you high,
Brush your demeanor with so much love,
Blinding you with my innocence.
And you fight just to feel right,
Fight with all that you feel.
But I hold you by love,
You are my world,
The one I adore,
The one I love, for so much that you are.

When I look at you.

I can see my mistakes,
When you smile, I regret.
The thought of tears in your eyes,
My heart beats, beats me heart.
It hits walls and drops down.
I can feel it down on me,
Making me sick, just another day.
When I look back to those days,
I wish I could just around.
Stand with you,
I wish I could stand with you,
When the rain fell down.
When the rain fell down.

One more time, just one more day,
I'll be there for a fight,
If you push me away,
I'll let you know its clearly wrong.
I can fix every shattered,
Travel the world to pick pieces of you.
I can see my mistake,
And you shine them with your smile,
When you shine so bright,
Bringing life to all that's broken,
You bring life to my broken heart.
When I look back to your precious face,
The tears in your eyes,
Beats my heart when my heart beats.
Beats me for every wrong step.