Are we asking for too much?

Are we asking for too much?

I just looked to my side and saw my Blackberry, my iPod, my laptop that I'm not using right now.
I honestly, don't mean to brag about my possessions,
I'm saying Alhumdulillah for everything, and then I look these shiny glitter they put all over the internet, advertisements and things of that sort, and I'm tempted to 'want' it.
Just one question,
Are we asking for too much without being thankful for what I already have?

Let me know your thought.

Intezaar.

Abhi, is lamhe mein,
Kuch samajh nahi aa raha,
Awaazien yahaan sirf sunai de rahi hain,
Kuch khaas tha, ab raha nahi.
Kuch kheechta rehta tha mujhe,
Ab mein yahaan,
Barish ke boondh mein,
Khada raha, dard mein,
Aansooun mein, lipta hua,
Ruka hua hoon mein,
Bhardha lo haanth,
Main dard mein hoon,
Fursat se jab dil behel gaya,
Har aahat ghabrane lagi,
Har kandha masroof hogaya,
Apne aansoon thame hue,
Do kadam uthaya aur behne diye,
Har moodh pe jisne dheka,
Jaane diya,
Mere in aansooun ko,
Bhoondhoon mein mila kar,
Chalde diye.

Baithe hue is tanhai mein,
Is hawa ka rukh badalne se,
Dil behel jata hai,
Kisi aahat ke intezaar mein,
Shayad mein yahaan tukdoon mein gir jaaon,
Shayad is intezaar mein,
Mujhe meri tanhai ka kandha mile,
Shayad ishi mein khushi mile.
Shayad phir akelepan mehsuus nahi ho.

Feel like home.

This place.
I've no clear picture of it,
Not yet anyways.
I see a few faces and they're here again,
Across tables,
Behind the pillars and stairs.
Sitting on the chairs under the large trees.
I'm new to this wind,
It tickles me under my chin,
These lights and sounds,
They haunt me at times,
I'm scared, at times afraid.
There's still goodness,
In so much that is around me,
This place,
Unknown to me,
I find so much light,
At every corner, I'm welcomed,
With so many lights,
So many memories to make,
Somewhere in this mix up of memories,
I remember hints of these roads,
These clouds look the same,
But this place.
So unknown to me.


In rightness and wrong,
Their faces and faults,
There's so much to see,
Here there is so much to experience,
I'm just another lost mind,
In this crowd of thousands,
On rails and roads,
Holding railings and belts.
There's no stillness, in my stillness.
I'm so desperate,
So tired of being home-sick.
I sit in corners and make memories.
I keep these pictures on the wall,
They make me feel like home,
In this place, so unknown to me.

I'm here again,
I remember that tie,
The smell of this place,
The crash of the waves,
Next to this huge fountains,
Maybe, I'm like those birds,
Sipping from so much,
So much left to see,
So many things to feel.
I'm stuck here, making memories,
I'm fighting with the unknown.
In this place,

So unknown to me.

Mahi. May you rest in peace.

With everything that you proudly smug about,
The colours and tastes of this land,
This land was mine too,
I had dreams of the fields and rain.
We had miles to walk, before we went to sleep.
Such was my country.
With the best of you,
Putting together your heads,
I'm fading,
I'm almost long gone.
So deep, in this darkness.
I can almost remember their promises,
Those ones in the black's and whites,
With four wheels, how they faded in corners.
How they held these hands,
Now ragged, rough and broken,
Such was my country.
And I was one of you too,
How could you just let me go?

You're all up there,
Behind the glasses and screens,
Watching them make their names,
I'm a path they've followed,
For the gold round their necks,
For the cheers and the fame.
Such carelessness, in my country.
Where there is name, and prestige.
I was one of you too,
But now I'm fading,
Taking all my dreams with me,
Maybe deep down,
I'm smiling as I go,
But I still remember,
The promises you made,
How could you let me go?

I don't know what this is, just saying.

Its all really dark over here right now, everyone thinks I'm sleeping,
One thing about having the PC all to myself in my room, is that it helps my tendencies of waking up in the middle of the night and typing out absolute crap.
One of my many recent tweets, the tick of the clock in pitch black darkness and excruciating silence is louder than 'Bass down low' on my Creative thingy.

But anywho, My Brother got me a time machine watch..
There it is, its about marbles or chrome balls and stuff,
Very german, trust me you don't want me to explain it right now.
Lets just say, whenever a minute passes by, there is a machine sounds that go off and balls rolling,
So every minute, my heartbeat accelerates to the no of balls that roll by.

So the point of this post is, okay I have absolutely no idea.
I was just thinking and thinking,
And well I realized that sometimes you need to let go off the truth, rather your straight forwardness just to keep a few sparks going, or a few relations stable.
Time minute you criticize, the negetive evaluation starts,
And like I said in my earlier post,
When you're annoyed with someone, everything they do starts being annoying times 10.
So you're annoying and then the fact that you're breathing bothers the person.
When you're dealing with short tempered, angry and unstable, emotionally, people,
Just let it go a few times,
It feels great being the more mature, understanding one.
A little blow for a long run doesn't hurt much. :)

Don't give people reasons to jump on you, if they do so,
Forgive and forget.

My stillness.

I remember the sweetness,
The stillness in this word,
The soft and slow,
Thump of my heart,
I felt it on your skin,
That time when you smiled,
The last time I saw you,
I'm still here.
The moon shine is still the same,
The wind here, blows again
Chilling me to the bone,
Where are you?

My warmth, the breathlessness,
The spark in ever part.
The shine in this dimness.
Where are you, my heart?
My stillness.

Smiling still,
I remember the tears,
They fell and fell again.
I smiled, for every story they're tell.
Every corner of my heart,
Every calm waves of the sea,
Brushes memories of you and me,
Of the times you held me tight,
Touch me with your heart,
And we danced to our heartbeat.
Like the life in you,
Like you, life in me,
Fearlessness in your touch,
Such beauty in your eyes.
The way your eyes seem,
The deepness and peacefulness,
It gives me strength, it gives me hope.
Love, you give me hope.
In this silence,
In the dimness.
You keep me here, and move me.
You, my stillness.

My warmth, the breathlessness,
The spark in ever part.

The shine in this dimness.
Where are you, my heart?
My stillness.

Too many moments.

I'm sure you've been dizzy before?
That time when these questions pop into your head,
" Where am I? "
" Why am I here? "
" How did I get here? "
And then you realize the where,how,why and all those questions and everything's all clear again,
So this happened to me today,
I was just sitting with 3 of my friends, we're sitting in a square and just talking randomly.
And then I looked at their faces, and I remembered all the lucid moments I've had with each one of them,
The vivid images and picture perfect memories.
All of us, we go back years,
Not together but we do,
These few moments brought to my attention the fact that life is so big and deep and vast.
If I had written about moments like these everytime,
I wonder how big my journal or blog or virtual journal or whatever it is would be,
We make mistakes and we correct them,
We make the same mistakes again, we're frowned upon and it feels really bad, but it doesn't end there.
These little moments make our life,
But never let these imperfect moment be the base of your life.
There's too much to look forward to,
Too many things that won't go your way,
Too many things that will make you smile,
Just say Alhumdulillah for whatever you have,
And live these moments. :)

Grudges and Hate.

One thing I've learned about Human nature is that our mind has this amazing unexplainable capacity to compel us.
I tried this once, I sat down at the corner of my bedroom floor and thought to myself, for 10 minutes straight,
Telling myself in my mind 'Saad you have a piercing headache.', and what do you know?
A little while later, my head was pounding and exploding.
That was one.
Back in 2011, I had a huge fight with one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world,
And he changed, he realized his fault and he changed, a lot.
I'll put up his picture just now  ^_^
For a while, I was still not over the entire issue, lets say, to get my title into context, I still had a grudge of the past against him..
No matter what I did, he pissed me off, and I didn't like him, at all.
It was all in the mind.
When we grudge against someone, no matter how clean their intentions are, no matter how kind they are trying to be, not specifically to us, anyone in any matter, we look for an ulterior motive just to prove them evil.
And it just hurts me to see this happening, time and again.

It is said in a Hadith - " If you ask for forgiveness for any sin, it is upto Allah (SWT) to forgive you and he holds the power to do so, when it comes to hurting someone, Allah (SWT) will only forgive you after you've asked for forgiveness from the person you've hurt, and they forgive you. "

So there you go people.
Don't hate, don't grudge.
Embrace the love and the good side of people.

Little Bird II

If I tell you right now,
I was weak and wounded,
When you found me,
I was hurt and confused.
When nothing made sense to me,
I remember the reasons you gave,
For every scar on my skin,
When the truth brought back nightmares,
You held me at night,
Wiping my sea of tears,
Drifting me off to sleep.
If I tell you right now,
You made me forget,
All the bitterness,
The confusion and harshness.
You found me, when I was hurt.
Confused and wounded.
You held me together,
Like the feather of a bird,
The little bird, fallen in the storm,
You held me together.
And you made me fly again.

Just like the little bird,
I spoke no language,
But the language of your touch,
I could feel the calm,
And the soothe,
Everytime I saw you,
I could be it all coming true,
How I slept at night,
With my eyes open,
Watching over you,
Jealous of every strand on your cheeks.
I spent the night, humming the love songs,
Remembering every chilly night,
I spent alone,
I remember every scar you made me forget.
And I look over you,
This little bird,
Flies to your palm,
And you hold it too tight.
This little bird promises you,
To pay back, until forever,
You found me,
When I was broken,
Confused and wounded.
You found this bird,
And you set it free.

Days like this.

The sun is setting in my eyes,
The moon here shines in yours,
We together walk towards the stars,
They're everywhere, you're not alone.
If love was that I needed, baby,
You'd be all I need.
If this love was all that's holding me,
I'd be stronger than your defences.

Days like this, there's so bright,
So dull, when we close our eyes,
A small wish, a prayer,
Before we hold our pillows,
And sleep at night,
I'll wait for that day,
When, you're the other thing,
That crosses my mind,
Leaves me up at night,
When, for me,
You slip away those comforts,
Sit by the stars all night.
In your voice,
I'll find peace.
In mine,
You'll find comforts.

So many memories,
So many pictures on my walls,
The nightmare of yesterday,
Today, with your heart in mine,
Turns to dreams.
Dreams that came true.
With a few words you said,
Turning my cries to smile,
All my fumes, to sparks,
Tears of happiness.
When I feel you pulse,
Over my heart,
You feel your heart.
After my heartbeat.

Give me that smile.

With my eyes closed,
Wrapped around you,
When I'm sleeping.
And I'm smiling,
Don't wake me up,
Don't move a nerve,
Don't wake me up..
I'm dreaming of you.

When I'm looking at you,
A few steps ahead of you,
When we walk,
Close your eyes for every step.
Even when the skies fall down,
I'm a few steps ahead of you,
Taking every stone under my feet,
Stopping every storm,
Everything that hurts you.
I become its enemy.

Look in my eyes.
When I'm looking away,
I hide so much love,
So much love that I have,
Find me the reasons,
In your fingers between mine,
Give me the shivers,
I'll keep you here.
Give me that smile,
And I'll never let go.

'T'

This is that time,
The wind is still,
The lights put off,
There's the shine from the moon,
The sparkle of the stars,
This is that moment,
The dreams are clear, here.
They speak of love,
They show me perfection,
These dreams bring smiles,
They end in your arms.

This is the start of everything,
The loss of a tear,
The stillness in the moment,
This is that smile, etched.
They talk of love,
These moments tell me the truth.
This here, right now.
This is perfection.

Remember that day.

Do you remember the time,
You said 'Baby it'll be alright,
My heart will keep beating,
As long as you're mine..'
With my hand on your heart,
'I'll be safe, just stay here.'
With tears in your eyes,
My song on your lips,
You moved me then,
Do you remember that day?

When you looked at me,
Flooded eyes,
With the memories of us,
I remember cries from my heart,
Calling your name,
I remember the trembles of my lips.
Did you feel it too?
Like I'm weak for you..
Were you weak for me too?

Life starts here.

Life starts here,
When you're by yourself,
Never turn around,
For what you want,
No word can stop you.
No one can feel this,
When you stand here,
Pricked by the wind,
Oceans above the sky,
Where you feel you.
The smiles before the cries,
It'll feel better,
When you shed a tear,
For the one you love,
Give it all away,
For all that you are.
For all that you feel.
When you stand after cries.
After smiles, fearless.
Life starts here.

If I bleed just to feel alive,
Would there be love in this heart?
If I need to give up on my smiles,
Is there care in this world?
When there's no home, in this moment,
When there are no tears to spare,
And everything feels dead and broken.
Turn around and just live your life.
If you're made to be broken,
Throw your pieces,
Farther into the sky,
Watch yourself break apart,
When you feel you,
When you stand after cries,
After smiles..
Fearless.
Life starts here.

Love for fear.

Do you love or do you fear?
Is it in haze and fumes?
Hate and love.
Its frightening, when it ends,
It ends with sparks and flames,
Chasing dreams never dreamt,
Burning pages never written.
When your heart collides,
Do you pick your pieces,
Or sit and cry.

Do you die,
Time and again,
Waking up with dreams,
Like a fool.

Do you know where you stand?
In my heart, beating.
Thumping to get out,
And you're tired,
Of these false promises,
Of the visions and memories.
All day and all night,
Something pulls you back inside,
The fear of love,
You're still stuck,
The love for fear.

Chasing survival.

Windows down,
Hear the oceans,
Waves that crash,
Next to our hands,
Yours in mine,
Pressed down to my bone,
Through my eyes,
I see the pearls in yours,
As we drive into the horizon,
Vanishing away from these tall eyes,
Fading into the darkness,
Where is you and me,
Love and softness.
The waves crash,
Next to our hearts,
Swimming and dancing,
Together they survive.

Row and row,
We row by the river,
With birds and chirps,
Stillness in the wind,
The feel of your cheeks,
On my chest,
The tickle of your hair,
Under my palm.
When we tumble,
The look in your eyes.
From curious to calm,
With a touch,
The fall of darkness,
When its you and me,
There's no fright,
There's no pain.
Loving and care.
Together we survive.

Take care of me.

I know you bring me smile,
Now you bring me life.
When I sit under the stars,
They all remind me of your eyes,
Until its dark,
The sun comes up,
Taking away all the drops,
My tears and the sea,
Pours in down on me,
With hopes, fears, regrets.
Will you bring me love?
When I'm lonely and broken.
Will you mend me again?
If I break apart,
Loving you,
I break apart.

Intoxicated and dazed.
I see tomorrow,
Misty and hazed.
I cross my fingers,
Try to find meanings,
In all my dreams.
In all my wishes.
In the words you say.
I find hope for tomorrow.

I can sit out for ever,
Push hopes down my veins,
If you give me a pebble of love,
I'll stick my hope down,
For as long as you can remember,
The way I feel is too much for now,
Deeper, brighter and softer,
Than your eyes to me,
Than your smile when I cry,
Than the feel of your shoulder,
Unconditional is my love for you,
Take care of me.

Stay until my heart beats.

I tried smiling without you,
I tried counting stars for you,
It didn't work my way,
Until I had your hands in mine,
I needed you when my heart beats,
Now, tomorrow, today and forever,
I remember the feel of your fingers,
Pressing on mine,
I remember your feel...

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

I tried reading your eyes,
I tried finding the reasons,
All the windows open to your heart,
The doors, to your smile.
It feels better than home,
When you take my name and smile,
Better than happy ever after,
Beating in my heart,
It feels like home.

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.