My last, *maybe* note.

For the record,
It was never fair to me.
If you were me tonight,
You'd know the words how they hurt.
A song for a goodbye so good.
If each word they'd say.
Was a stab to my thoughts.
I've them right here, dead.

This is a goodbye note.
For the last time, maybe.
This is just my thoughts talking, maybe.
If they're alive still.
Maybe, maybe.

For the future,
The poets they need the pain.
If I feel it again.
I've started trying to turn away.
For the times I'll cheat.
Keep the papers in my pockets.
Never to reveal,
Burning at sundown.
Things I'll never want you to see.
To keep them alive,
To keep the things I think,
Alive.

This is a goodbye note.
For the last time, maybe.
This is just my thoughts talking, maybe.
If they're alive still.
Maybe, maybe.

Casualties of war.

In the war,
The dieing words of a soldier,
I love you.
And it rains,
Down in her arms,
He lays astray.
Away from her.
Looking away from her eyes.
In the casualties of war,
The door stands ajar.
The sounds of bullets,
But for now.
Its the silence before the storm.
Silence before the tears,
In the ruins,
The façade of this place.
Covered in blood,
For its now or never,
Tears for the kids,
Who don't ever want to be there.
In this war, giving up everything.
Just don't,
Let them have the last word.
Not now, let them go on.
Hand them the water guns.
Theres only much that mind bears.
With the bullets and blood.
You're spoiling the generation.
In the casualties of war.
In all fair.
In love and war, its all fair.

Upside.

I sit here,
Right here,
With nothing to say.
Looking away.
Into the darkness,
Thinking things, they're harmless.
Affecting me inside,
Turning me upside.
Like a pendulum,
I'm back to my valium.
Up high feeling so high,
30 floors above, look at the sky.
For the shining fades away.
In the night,
Without a fight,
You let go.
In your eyes, this feeling show.

I feel this again,
The hole in my heart.
Theres nothing I gained from this pain,
Abandoned in the nights,
I recall it up with the bottles they lie,
Thinking about all the fights,
Down in the rooms that haunt me,
Every corner has a haunted memory,
I can see it everywhere,
I hear your screams everywhere.
Changed the place from scratch.
But you hover over,
Like a wound you scratch.
At the right places,
For the last time,
For the last time was wrong.
You don't see this now,
Your not here,
You left with your pretty smile.
With your fake kiss.
Into the darkness,
Thinking things, they're harmless.
Affecting me inside.
Turning me upside.

I'm love.

I'm the pianist with the broken hand,
The guitarist with the broken strings.
The pick up line with the word beauty.
The thunder without the lightning,
And the rain without the rain drops.
I'm love,
I'm anywhere,
I'm everywhere.

In the heart of your daughter,
In the eyes of your mother.
In the things you see,
The shine in their eyes,
The smiles, they say alot.
Thats me,
Right there.
Thats me everywhere.

Inside the broken heart,
Piecing it up together,
Inside the tears of a lover.
Shedding it away from the other.
Inside the thoughtful smiles,
For when they leave, they always leave.
But I'm there.
I'm anywhere.
I'm everywhere.
I'm love.

Taking chances.

The steps you take back,
To not feel that again,
Resenting from all happiness,
Theres nothing that I can say.
To make it all go away.
Just one day, I'll be at your door step.
With a mouthful of words,
Words to make you smile.
In the middle of the night,
When its all too much,
When letting you go is just not fair.
In the brink of the moment,
Thinking about the words to say.
The things to say when you're right there.
Theres nothing that I can say.
To make it all go away.

The things I threw away,
In my fight with life,
To have you here.
Just to make you feel whole again,
I'm falling down but I need you now.
To hold me again,
I've come halfway to you,
Don't make me lose what I never found.
These chances I've taken,
Just to make you feel whole again.
I know theres nothing that I can say.
To make it all go away.
But for what it could be worth.
Every second from now on,
We can fly and never drown.
Fly off to nowhere and never come down.
Count the stars till forever,
Feel the love that we have to part.
This right here, halfway is a start.
Don't make me lose what I never found.

Empty again.

You leave me with tears,
For what its worth,
When the angels wipe them away.
With a smile on their faces,
I see you there.
With a candle in your hand,
Smiling at me, like healing my soul.
Looking into my eyes, like reading my mind.
You make every move, perfectly.
You say all the right things, softly.
You stab me in the right places, peacefully.
For people always leave.
For what it worth,
You at me dying in your arms.

In the same dream,
Over and over,
When I wake up, I hear your scream.
I think you're there, right where you hover.

In the life I've lived.
Every time you told me that you loved me,
You've stuck a piece of the puzzle.
In its place, right here in my heart.
Day by day, you complete me.
Piece by piece, you heal me.
Like an angel right next to me,
You watch over me when I sleep.
For the way you care,
Like tomorrow I'll break.
You've made me whole again,
In the morning I'll still be here.

Hold me like you'll never get to,
Ever again.
Look at me like you'll never get to,
Ever again.
This world of yours, you've made out of me.
Will never be empty again, with me here, never be empty again.

Life's too short.

Take two steps wrong,
And you could be gone.
You'd never know if they'll ever miss you.
You'll probably come down to earth int he form of dew.
For the misery, to be miserable.
For the grief, to be sad.
For the fights, to be hurt.
Life's too short,
Don't let the bitter ones change who you are.

Do your thing, take those chances.
Take the risk that are worst their pounces.
Start over right now.
Begin with a memory.

Embrace hope by the second,
Deeper and deeper believe in the good.
It might save you for all you know,
You've learned to run away when it hurts you.
Hide your face with the fake smiles,
Till the day you'll be gone faraway,
With one wrong step.
You could be gone forever.
For the things left behind, believe again.
For the things left to do, embrace hope.
For the things you've never said, smile.
Life's too short.
Don't let the bitter ones change your dreams.

Do your thing, take those chances.
Take the risk that are worst their pounces.
Start over right now.
Begin with you and I.

On the other side.

I was walking away from this place,
Leaving all the ties by your door step.
Leaving forever, and it rained.
Leaving me at your door, with nothing to say.

I'd knock but you'd never smile.
I'll feel like a bother for the entire while.
Now I'm outside your door,
On the other side, you're the one I adore.

With my bags on the pavement,
I hid my face when you looked this way,
Feeling the rain drops on my skin,
I felt like a bother,
Paralized to your eyes,
Sticking on me like a victim.
I turned to the other side,
And I walked away.
In this rain I walked away,
Without a word to say.


I'd say 'hi' but you'd never smile.
I'll feel like a bother for the entire while.
Now I'm across your door,
On the other side, I feel your eyes bore.

Spinning top.

I'm up at the top,
Living the dream,
Make up for it, go ahead and scream.
In the darkness, let your self glow.
From the top drop off your show.
Change the steps you take,
Smile in grief just for their sake,
Feel the belief creep in,
Hold it tight, let them cry.
Say think that make them pry.
Keep screaming till they scratch your neck.
Looking far and far away, just to check.
From the top, drop.
Drop the drops of blood.
In the rain, sense the pain.
Let the thunders reach your skin.
Beat up the beat,
Mash up the mash up.
In the message, send the x's and o's.
With false love, atleast you make them smile.
On their way to top.
You trip them on their trip.
Up to the top, spin them like a top.
Betray them with a knife of the tray.
With just a second's difference, they'll be second.
Plan the plan for the fall for their downfall.
In the place's you'll go,
Look at me, up at the top.
With so many different things to say.
Leave them by the door in the tray.
For the stair's broken,
I was the one never looked upon.
Now you stare at me like a star,
Stare at me like I'm god.
Come up to the top.
Watch me make you spin like a top.
From top until you trip.
Trip from the top,
Till the trip you took seems worth it.

Letting go.

One shot for tomorrow,
Another chance for a smile.
After the countless shooting stars,
I needed a tomorrow,
But you're gone,
There was supposed to be a tomorrow.
But now I'm letting go.
Letting go,
I'm letting go.

For the nights he cried,
Walked in the empty roads,
He'd just walk on his thoughts to pry.
Without you, this journey seemed so peaceful.
Without you in his mind, he'd fall at the hurdles.
But faraway after dropping the stars from above.
Writing your name in the sky,
With the fire in his heart,
He created a universe for them to find.
Name it some syllable, but its you for him.
He cried teardrops when he wrote.
Raining down on you, raining down love.
Waiting by for tomorrow,
But you closed your eyes,
You left this place, you walked away.
There was supposed to be a tomorrow,
But now he's letting go,
This time he's letting go.
Dropping it all by the triangle.
Waiting it be sucked it,
Into the depression hole,

But this time he's letting go.
Leaving a message in the rain.
For the love and for the pain.
For all the while you kept him sane.
Seasons come and go but this rain,
Will never stop.


One shot for tomorrow,
Another chance for a smile.
After the countless shooting stars,
I needed a tomorrow,
But you're gone,
There was supposed to be a tomorrow.
But now I'm letting go.
Letting go,
I'm letting go.

Move me.

Sometimes people write things they can't say.
Everytime I think of you,
I'm sucked into this oblivion.
If only you could fit into my shoes,
You'll wait for you to wait for your move.
Just to see what its like to be me,
When you smile like that.
Just to see what its like to be me,
When you laugh like that.
Be me and through my eyes,
Look at you, the way you look when your hair's open.
Staring at you like a gem,
If only you could be me,
You'd think of me lesser as a starer,
For you'll know the reason I'm awestruck.
Step into my shoes.
Watchs your golden waves, the waves you emit.
Moving me but not really moving me.
You guide me, give me your strenght.
Sometimes people write things they can't say.
I stopped here..
Wondering if I'd just betray my feeling,
Or ever do it justice.

If only you could be me,
Step into my shoes.
Be me and watch you move me but not really move me.

Away, away, away.

Away, away, away.
In this place I can no longer stay.
With the fire inside of me,
This pearl on the top I'd love you to see.
On my knees with my hand held to you.
Just today, right here, Say ' I do. '
With all my heart and my soul, I'll love.
Love you forever, ever after I shine from up above.

No breathing, I'm on my knees.
Without you, I'm not me.
Without me, You're never me.
Gasp it out, two words to say.
Let me carry you away, away, away.

Away, away, away.
Look at it from my eyes, This is the way.
Twirling in the snow,
This thing I want you to know,
You stepped into my life,
By my side, playing the role of my wife.
Now when I'm away, away from you.
Any song that's even remotely romantic reminds me of you..
Reminds me of you.

No breathing, I'm on my knees.
Without you, I'm not me.
Without me, You're never me.
Gasp it out, two words to say.
Let me carry you away, away, away.

Less Nicer.

It can be this one,
No you don't have to take it.
Take away all the pain,
That makes each bit of it real.
Every second that it hurts,
Reminding me of the times I've had.
Oh I miss you.
Reminding me of every time you threw me away.
In the darkness, I've turned dark.
Darker than the sky when its 9.
Thought we were miles apart,
But I feel you here,
Haunting me when I'm alone.
Whispering in my ear,
Are you back already?
It can be this one,
No, don't you take it away.
This hole in my chest,
Reminding me of the times I've had.
Oh I miss you.
If I had been a bit less nicer,
It wouldn't be hard to believe.
Your absence wouldn't be so strange.
For the love I gave,
Like no other.
Everyday I wake up, reassure myself.
She'll never find it anywhere.
She'll never find it anyway.

Better off alone.

I closed all my doors tonights,
I know you're never coming in.
The path you walk on,
I chalk it up to never stop on again.
I realise this today,
I'm better off alone,
With a smile or my face,
This time its not fake.
With hope in my heart.
This time it won't fall apart.

Three steps away from you.
One for the pain.
One for the sorrow.
One more,
Just one more, for no tomorrow.

I couldn't help but notice,
I didn't wait at the corner of the street,
It nearly noon, I know you'll pass by.
But this time I didn't stare into nothing,
Its hard with a clock ticking,
With a closen door and no more threads to carry around.
I walked away, with a smile,
This time its not fake.
With hope in my heart,
This time it won't fall apart.

Three steps away from you.
One for the pain.
One for the sorrow.
One more,
Just one more, for no tomorrow.

Unexpected.

My eyes are twitching,
As these wounds I'm stiching.
I tied this skin to the boat.
Sailing away, dragged, can you float?
Listen up, get lost or diss that look.
To spoil my day, your face was all it took.
Take up your pain,
Stash it in the trash can.
Don't cry when I'm around.
I'll kick your arse, wanna try being space bound?
Nobody cares, this is 21st century.
But to end it, even Edward had the vulturi.
You'll live it again and again.
When you shout no pain, no gain.
Watch me shoot your face,
And laugh off this silly place.
Pick up the ice blocks.
Jump in those green socks.
You run like a 5 year old.
Like your last teddy bear he sold.
To that homeless man, the seriel killer.
Scarier than the one from MJ's video of Thriller.
This ain't my rap, this just flows.
Like blood on that paper, the way it glows.
Red to black, black to brown.
Take a blade, Cut and then frown.
You're gone for the moment.
You stammer you go like m-m-m-moment.
Close the tab if this makes you sad.
This is new, this is something I never had.
Go holla before its too late.
I'm gone, I'm gone. Close the tab before its too late.

The Reminder.

I come here,
To this place and sit in silence.
I remember how I was shattered on the floor,
Right here, pieces of me everywhere.
The echo's of the pain.
The price to pay,
For the past that'll sting forever.
The sting that pierces through.
The reminder of the disaster.

I see you,
In that place and hitch my breathe.
Looking away, I remember ever word we've said.
Under that tree, Leaning into each other,
The tears we cried.
For the days that we had,
For the things that we regret.
The regrets that sting forever.
The sting that pierces though.
The reminder of the disaster.

When they dim down.

The colours dimmed down,
Lost all contrast, lost all glow.
The world turned grey,
Deprived off sleep, on the brink of a nightmare.
That scream, that shout.
In the night when your eyes grow cold.
And he walks out into nothing.
Shattered inside, he's haunted.
He meant every word he said.
He tried to take away your pain.
But this time you never came around.
In the middle of the night,
Shouting and throwing him away.
Something's made your eye grow cold.

The colours dimmed down,
Lost all contrast, lost all glow.
The world turned grey and he walked away.
For the words you said, in the rush of it all.
Boiling till you steam,
With that look that kills.
Shaking up his existence.
Wishing it never meant anything.
Wishing for this phase to go away.
Wishing was all there is left,
Now he's gone,
Can't sleep now.
You're haunted.

We'll be alright.

Some shit leaves a mark,
On your skin, glows in the dark.
Feel it prickly on your skin,
Somewhere around, someone's got a twin
For the mark, that you'll carry around,
Could you just cut it off for lost and found.
Closer into the corner,
Poke yourself with something sharper.
Enough of the walks on the edge.
Broken up, pierced by a wedge.
Tumbling from the top,
You world makes a stop.
Leave you hanging,
To your death tumbling.
A second chance,
A desperate dance,
Just open your eyes,
And look down through the skies,
Closer into the reality.
Witness this world's brutality.
The lights flicker at the ends of the road.
The walk hand in hand, with ego's wide and broad.
They'll be better than us,
In this short run, with a fuss.
In this long run, you're faraway.
I've shed tears for you, none ever say.
In this long run, we'll be alright.
Life'll come to us, without a fight.
I feel this is the truth, this is right.
You and me, we'll be alright.

Gradiant

This is my world,
From my eyes.
This is how it is,
Doesn't glow like fireflies.
This is everything in grey.
Empty roads in every direction.
Roads that just go on,
This is like that dream from inception.
These books that I hold,
They never end.
Leave this story untold.
Pages they've written, the words don't make sense.
Like the start of one but the end of another.
Jumbled up and mixed up like an unfortune.
Nonsensical like the birth of a mother.
No fears to even brew for the strangers.
This is my world.
From my eyes,
Blacker than before, the greyness twirled.
Inch after inch setting the sun.
You'd jibe and poke me to fight harder.
But this is how it is,
This is all I got from my father.
Nothing gets tougher than each step to take.
With these shoes burning on the road.
Scratching the skin under the toe.
Peeled off like the tongue of a toad.
This was never the way I planned,
The way its turned out to be,
Far from what could've been.
Far from what shoud've been, from what should be.
This is it.
This is my world.
This is how it is.
My story unfurled.

Hopelessly Broken.

Shivering and broken,
She stood there, hopelessly taken.
Left at the edoge of a nightmare,
Hides her face, but she sees through her hair,
The tears that dried, I saw it all.
I was right around the corner, I'd never let her fall.
Sentimental, she runs away.
Tumbling between words to say.
Day after day, she'd die inside,
But she laughs, that's how she'd hide,
Her pain from their looks,
Hidden behind her books,
Alive and concious.
I see her, she's so precious.
A steady rock, in this war against fear.
I'd never let her but she'd never shed a tear.
Day after day, she pulls through.
After the roughness, she'd smile for you.
In all honestly, for the love I feel for the while.
If a few words could make you smile,
I'd carve then down the road you walk on,
With everything inside of me, on and on,
You shine my world, although you'd hide it.
In your eyes, deep inside, I see it.
With a snap, I'd wash it all,
Run my hands through my hair, take that call.
I'd hear you say you love me,
I'm on my way, to see you, things you do to me.
I wish I could tell you how much you mean to me,
Leave behind this guilt, leave behind the world, you have me.

Confused state of mind.

Stand up,
Take a bow.
Look through,
Into their eyes.
You fight these lies,
Up on the pedestal,
You stand on the stage.
Put your hands up.
Sync with the moment.
Let go of this hesitation.
Lean on into nothing.
Fall out into nothing.
In the eyes of the kid,
He looks at you like superman,
As you run through the risks,
Take out your heart,
You cut through,
You let it glow,
His eyes they glitter.
With those tiny legs,
He walks to you.
With a hopeful heart.
To heal this part.
Where he keeps his hand.
To his heart,
he hopes you to heal.
With a smile,
With your touch,
He matches you smiles.
Cuddling into safety.
The taps on his back.

But you'd never say, never let them feel.
This is the way, this pain makes it real.
With a smile you take it all away,
With just one touch, you bleed inside.
For the love of those you'd never see again.
For this little deed.
You're in a confused state of mind.

Its in your soul to soothe.
This is in your soul.
Being worth the pain.
The magic in your touch.
You'd never show.
Taking up the pain,
Pain of a torn soul,
Pain of a tortured self.
This is what you do.
Absorbing the jibes of the world.
Throwing your hands up.
You bottle it up.
Love is what you're doing.
To all those you'd never see again.
Like a angel,
From high off the ground.
You've fallen from the sky.
Gimme your hand.
I've done the same...
Its your turn to fly.

But you'd never say, never let them feel.
This is the way, this pain makes it real.
With a smile you take it all away,
With just one touch, you bleed inside.
For the love of those you'd never see again.
For this little deed.
You're in a confused state of mind.

This Rain.

" Ayy, Guess what? Guess what?
Its raining, *_*
Miss you. Love you.
Tc. =D "
I was on my way to that hill,
When it started raining,
The stars hiddens under those grey clouds.
They collide and crack.
In the brink of the moment.
I closed my eyes and stood still.
Remembering your smiles, and it tickled.
The rain drops on my skin,
Travel the line of my smile.
I let go,
Let go off this hesitation and laugh.
I sing along with the thunder.
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs.
Letting the world know how it feels,
To be loved, to feel this.
You run a marathon in my mind,
Everytime I look at the corner of the street.
I feel like you're there somewhere,
Wishing to just run to me,
And match my smile.

" Wowwie *_*
Love you too :* "

From faraway your words touch my soul.
And I ring you up,
To hear your voice, the sweet chime.
I sit under that tree as you say hey.
Going on and on about what you've been upto.
Sighing to that wish of freefalling right here.
Off this steep hill, Out into nothing.
In this rain, with our hands held tight.
Right into the ocean, we'd jump.
With no horror in our eyes,
Just the rush of the moment.
But you're not here.
Not breathing against my skin.
This rain tickles my senses.
Leaving me with just a wish to come true.
But you're not here.
Not breathing this rainy scent.
The one thats making me smile.
Just your touch,
And I'll fly.
You'll fly.
We'll fly.
Fly away, fly away.

Little things you do.

When you hold my hand,
And I take my time breathing out.
The reality slips me like sand.
The moon's shining and I'm here with you, sneaking out.

The little things you do,
That make me lose my mind.
Its like you play the reel.
Its all true but feels so unreal.
A distant dream, a lovely fairytale.

The suns at the left, the moon at the right.
I'm at my terrace, its 4 in the night.
This is exactly when, where we had the fight.
When you shut me up and held me tight.

The little things you do,
That make me lose my mind.
Its like you play the reel.
Its all true but feels so unreal.
A distant dream, a lovely fairytale.

It.Is.True.

I picked you up from the ashes, you burned.
I nurtured you, I made you smile. I loved you.
Cold and dark, the looks they gave.
You thought I was the one to lie.
To say you're so beautiful, after all the ties you have.
To the darkness, after all the baggafe.
I believed every word you said and,
Here I am.
I love you, I'll make you smile.
Through the darkness and the cold.
To make it perfect for you.
To make you believe, Its true.
My love for you, It.Is.True.

I learned those words that made sense to you.
In times you were in pain, the nights you suffered.
You knew there was someone by your side.
In the foggy memory of each cry, someone held your hand.
Calming you again, putting you to sleep.
Staying up all night,
Steady and sturdy, right here by your side.
To make it better for you.To make you believe, Its true.
My love for you, It.Is.True.

Carve.

Days after you left me, abandoned me.
After the numb nights and fearful days.
Every moment, each day. Reliving those memories to this place.
With you here, its hard to not see your smile.
In the history of this place, lying here in my arms.
Without you here, Its hard to breathe.
You searched tears in my eyes.
But that wall's not thick and dried.
My eyes have dried, yes I cried.
Blood stains on the night stand, I fought it.
My haunted dream, you're here again but I'm over it.
The lights flicker when I'm high.
High of your hate, sinking in deep.
Living in this shithole, I almost consider hellhole.
I drop those blades, It makes me mental.
But I carve your name, not on my skin.
In these walls made of clay.
My feelings tey potray.
Like your hate for this fark,
It glows in the dark.

Complete again.

Running away from the burden of the while.
I escaped into the darkness of the night.
For love running into the darkness.
With the fear in my eyes.
Fear of losing you, the fear of loneliness.
After feeling this empty space where you belong.
I crawl to the corners, to escape this numbness.
I run miles, to escape this loneliness.
Screaming out loud, to be complete again.

Every day that goes by,
Every second haunts me,
Leaving me with tears welled up,
And sniffs to part, it pains inside.
Going through the pages, those words of love.
Our initials, almost interlocked together.
This feeling of belonging, forever.
You walked in to my nightmares.
Like the guiding like, taking me by the hand.
Now I feel abandoned for you're not here.
In this torturous moment, I need you.
Screaming out loud, to be complete again.

Desperate.

In the middle of the night,
I wake up to see the stars sparkle.
These little things that make me smile now.
For they take your place,
Replace you upon that pedestal.
In this wind that blows tonight,
I smell you, I smell desperation.
Desperate to see you again,
Desperate to feel you again, maybe love you.
But its not the same,
You're not the same.

In the middle of the road,
When I spot a face,
As they smile, I see you inside.
Somewhere in the curve of the lips.
They resemble you to the slightest degree.
Burning me inside, I'm sorry everyday.
I will always love, I will always cry.
It was my turn to walk away,
But I thought it was our time.
I thought if I saw you then,
I'd feel you again.
I was missing you when I saw the sparkles.
I found me, the me you saw.
How I was when I laid in your arms,
When I smiled, I felt it again.
In this moment, my heart thumps this feeling.
Feeling of desperation,
Just to see you again,
To lie in your arms,
To feel complete again.
But I saw you,
It wasn't the same.
You weren't the same.

Heartbroken.

You've started backing off,
Pushing me away.
Slowly and slowly, I see it everyday.
The look in your eyes,
You look at me like a bother.
Like its a job that you're supposed to hug me everyday.
A job you're tired off,
A bother, something you'd get rid off.
You've set to break my heart.
I know you'll break my heart,
Leave me heartbroken but do it gently.

When I cried under that tree the other day,
You said you had to take that phone call.
Hiding away in the corner,
Waiting for all the signs of my tears to fade away.
You came back, faking that smiling.
Twitching towards running away.
Leaving me there,
Leaving me at the time I needed you the most.
Yesterday I slept blank, covered in the lies.
Haunted by the breaking of the dawn,
It was great, having you here.
Having you right by my side...almost.
When I cried, when I screamed to my misery.
My pleads for these times to go away.
But you helped me learn these things.
You hardened my shell but putting me through this.
But you never told me how to not shatter.
You broke my heart.
Left me heartbroken, you did it gently.