Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Memories of you.

Pinning pictures on the wall,
Like reading memories,
Memorising these faces like a song,
Like tomorrow there will be nothing,
Such a rush, when I'm breathing.
When these tables and candles stare at me,
And these smiles and eyes,
Remind me of these memories.
There's no memory better than this,
Better than remembering you.

When these heights and the cities,
Colours and the fountain,
The street of your apartment,
Feels so far apart,
From where you are,
To where we've been,
They all remain in place,
Untouched like these moments,
Haunting me with every step I take,
Towards these places, faces,
These streets and apartments,
They haunt me for you,
They remind me of memories,
Never heard of before,
Memories of you.

No one ever remembered.

Let there be nothing,
If there's nothing real.
Let there be no feeling,
If at all, you've ever trusted,
Break a promise and watch it fall,
Are you taken?
For granted, or for real?
Are you loved or left?
Of all those tears,
Unknown to them,
When its dark at night,
Under this pale moon,
In this sunless city.
Senseless and demeaning,
When you cry to sleep,
Do they still stand tall?
Over all your tries,
All your weaknesses,
You're used to it,
Falling and crying,
And before, no one,
No one ever remembered,
How dark and deep it is,
Down in these sorrows,
Where you fall, its dark and deep.
No one ever remembered,
If you were ever smiling.

Friday, September 28, 2012

Lies.

If these are lies that make you smile,
Just hide your face, for a little longer,
Just for a little while,
Stay away, while my heart grows fonder.
Just let me go, before you look at me,
With your eyes on me, when you breathe softly,
Let me go, before these lies I see,
For just a little more, I'll be your baby.

Leave me alone when its time,
Leave me next to the sea.
Leave your hand on mine,
Before these lies I see.

Let there be no light, no shine.
When you close my eyes,
Let there be no love, nothing mine.
When you leave your goodbyes.
If there's a broken heart,
Or just pieces of us,
If there's a brand new stand,
Could it be us?

For all I know,
For all I've seen.
Its all a yes or no.
And what could have been

Lies.

If these are lies that make you smile,
Just hide your face, for a little longer,
Just for a little while,
Stay away, while my heart grows fonder.
Just let me go, before you look at me,
With your eyes on me, when you breathe softly,
Let me go, before these lies I see,
For just a little more, I'll be your baby.

Leave me alone when its time,
Leave me next to the sea.
Leave your hand on mine,
Before these lies I see.

Let there be no light, no shine.
When you close my eyes,
Let there be no love, nothing mine.
When you leave your goodbyes.
If there's a broken heart,
Or just pieces of us,
If there's a brand new stand,
Could it be us?

For all I know,
For all I've seen.
Its all a yes or no.
And what could have been

Your heart speaks.

Stuck on words,
Slipping on promises,
There's a hope for more,
A vision for everything,
When its us,
There's no question for more,
With everything, that I need,
Everything that I want.
When there's so much to feel,
So much to see,
So much of you,
Given to me,
With closed eyes,
And a silent soul,
Contentment, and peace.
When I close my eyes,
When its quiet at night,
A prayer for tomorrow,
A note for today,
Tears for yesterday,
A kiss to these memories,
When I close my eyes,
Its a dream for the life.

Still on the pedestal,
When every mistake you praise,
Every smile you bring,
To me, you give love,
With so much patience,
More than I've seen,
With every like feeling,
When I close my eyes,
You hold me tight,
When I hide my face,
You know why,
For all I've said,
You've heard it before,
In my voice, in your heart.
And I steal your words,
Catch you by surprise,
When I hold you tight,
I close your eyes,
I speak your words.
When you sleep at night,
I hear your heart.

Gems and Stones

Like candles and stones,
Gems and diamonds,
Shining in this shimmering moon light,
Your eyes lighting up in mine,
And the pink on your cheeks,
As I trail my fingers,
When you smile like that,
Closing my eyes,
Taking me beyond the skies,
Beneath the seas.
Someplace, no soul has been.
When you look at me,
The way you do,
Here in this picture,
Where you've your arms open,
Waiting for me,
Until the moon shines,
Without the sun.
Waiting for me,
Until the time stops,
And we cry again,
Till our tears dry,
More than seven seas,
When you're without me,
Lovelier than the rainbows,
When you smile like that,
For you smile for me,
In this dimlight,
Where I lie and dream,
I feel you here,
Someplace, no soul has been.
Someplace you've taken me,
Beyond the skies,
Beneath the seas.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

A kiss.

Every kiss on your cheek,
Leaves a piece of my heart,
Beating and shining,
Pumping my blood,
Like it does, for you,
And you only.
If I ever kiss,
I kiss you.
You only.

Bigger than you and me,
The space in my heart for you,
Everything I have,
Bigger than everything,
All we've ever seen,
All the things that make you smile,
They are all here,
In this.
My love for you...
Its bigger than this.

When I promised you forever,
I remember crossing my finger,
I looked into your eyes,
And I lied.
I remember, everytime I held your hand,
You reminded me of forever,
I shivered and shuddered,
Until you raise your eyes to question.
I remember that moment,
I confessed,
I promised you a little more,
A little more than forever.

One in 7 billion.

Battered by the cries of you,
Spilled in the ocean of your tears,
Hypnotized and dazed,
When you pass, with the scent of you,
I am here in this moment,
And I am there in your arms,
For you feel so close,
Illusional, misleading,
When there's beauty in breakdown,
When there are smiles in their cries.
Their voices are the messages from heaven,
Their faces, post perfection, flawless.
When I am lost in thoughts,
And these moments slip away,
It is love,
When there is happiness in sorrow,
There is always the reason,
On the brighter side,
When it is love.
The reason of love.
You are the reason.
You are love.

Faces and paintings,
Such depth in your eyes,
Faded by the stares of you,
Scared with no thoughts of you,
When the stars collide,
And the worlds fall apart,
In one from these billions,
I've seen one, from these billions,
The smile of an angel,
The skin softer than the clouds,
In these billions, I've seen one,
With the eyes, post perfection,
With so much love and affection.
My one, and only one.
My one, one in 7 billion.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Kyun?

Yaad hain saare woh lamhein,
Har zakhm yahaan jo pade,
Jaane anjaane mein,
Itna kyun rulate ho tum,
Itni umeed jaga kar,
Phir ruuth jaate ho tum,
Jab din dhalta hai,
Dhal jaate ho tum,
Mujhe yahaan sard mein chord jaate,
Haste muskuraate, khush rehte ho tum,
Aur hum yahaan,
Sir palat te rehte, ghabrate rehte,
Din badal na jaye,
Tumhare aate hue kaheen raat na hojaye.
Jaane anjaane mein,
Itna rulate kyun ho tum?

Har ghadi yahi ek tammana thi meri,
Nazar ghumakar tumhe dhundna na pade,
Har taraf yahi ek dard sama sa hai,
Idhar udhar bhatka rahe ho tum.
Jaane anjaane mein,
Kitna rula rahe ho tum,
Meri har pal ka sahara,
Tumhare bina kaisa bebas raha mein,
Har pal mehsuus hua yahaan,
Tere bina, dard mein raha mein,
Jaane anjaane mein,
Kitna rulaya tumne.
Itna rulate kyun ho tum?

Mirror of mine.

I'm looking at you,
And I see all my flaws,
All my shines and doubts,
My fears, reflect in your eyes.
Every step, I take,
I know you're there,
Every thought in my mind,
I'd give you no word,
All my promises, I know you'd keep,
A tear in your eye,
Falls on my palms,
They fall like pearls in the dark,
Every time you feel this wind,
I feel it too,
Everytime I see you,
I see me too,
Mirror of mine.
My mirror.

I could tell from your eyes,
For I've memorized all my expression,
There's no lying, no stabbing,
For I'm an open book to you,
Every word I say,
I know I can count on you,
You understand things I never say,
You reason the scars on me,
With tears, I only walk to you.
I know you know,
I know you feel this.
For, I'm nothing,
I'm your mirror.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Misery loves company.

There's so much pain in hiding,
In our tears and eyes.
We're holding on,
These broken pieces,
We've held all along,
With our broken smiles,
We've paved their days,
With the promises we make,
To people we've never seen again,
From city to city.
You and me, my misery.
We've walked seasons and rain.
We've climbed mountains and hills.
In search of peace,
We've only fell asleep.
In your arms, like my dream last night,
I found peace, when I remembered you.

I remember your cries,
They're in every corner of this town,
When you yelled into my veins,
I remember when you cut me off,
I stood there, stabbed by every word,
Me and my misery,
We smiled for the curtains,
Closing on my life,
My love, my heart.
Closing on the brightest star,
It dimmed to darkness.
In uncertainity.
It dimmed to nothing.
Just me and my misery.

......

Dil darr gaya,
Aaj jab woh lamhe yaad aye,
Main ghabra gaya, phisal gaya.
Har taraf sirf andhera chaa gaya,
Kuch samajh nahi aaya,
Kuch kar nahi paaya.
Wahaan meri jaan jaa rahi thi,
Aur mein khada raha,
Masuum, berehem, dard mein,
Main khada raha,
Inn purani yaadoon mein,
Yeh jo aansoon bahe the,
Unko kas kar, mein khada raha.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Dream.

Somewhere deep inside of me,
There's still that spark,
When opened to air,
It burns up again,
I remember when I closed my eyes last night,
You held me in your hands,
I feel so close to love,
So close to perfection,
There were no apologies,
No words joining our last.
There was no pain in my heart,
When I look at you,
There was only love.
When I heard your voice,
There was only love.
Love. Love. Love.

Somewhere I know you're still here,
Beating me harder than before,
As I breathe and wait,
I remember how it feels,
Every tickle of your hair,
With my head on your lap,
I feel your fingers on my cheeks,
I remember the darkness when I close my eyes,
The outline of you, my guardian angel,
Behind my eyes,
When they're close,
I remember this,
From when my eyes were close.
Last night, I feel close to perfection.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

For all of you.

Petals and leaves,
Fallen, soaked and seeped.
Every drop of dew,
Shining in this morning sun,
Vanishing in my eyes.
They're here somewhere,
Hiding from all of us,
Like my pain, they're hiding,
Behind the chirps of these birds,
They're holding hands,
And standing far away,
Until there's darkness,
They'll be back again,
My sadness,
Like the dew and these chills.
With the moon,
They'll be back.

Sweeter than these eyes,
With his cries and giggles,
Crawling into these arms,
They're here today, tomorrow, forever.
So passionate and deep,
Their love, unexplanable,
Like tears in their eyes,
For the pain of one.

Don't let it go,
These tears you're holding back,
They'll make you tumble,
Trip and fall,
For every tear you shed,
They'll break you down.
They'll make you weak.
I'm here, for all your pain.
For your hurt,
For ever stab, I'll be your back.
My arms are stretched wide,
For all of you.
I'm here forever, for all of you.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

....

Aadha adhura,
Chalta raha mein,
Dil mein sirf wahi dard,
Har taraf sirf wahi yaadien,
Abhi mein duur nahin,
Awaaz doge to mein aajaonga,
Abhi sirf aadhi hi raat hui,
Lautado woh saare gham,
Le lo har yeh jhuuti khushi.
Kal ko aankhon mein nami toh nahi rahe gi,
Jab jab raat hogi, ek aadat to rahegi.
Is dard sehne ki halat to rahegi.

Dear Mommy.

So soft like heaven,
Her touch lighter than all feathers,
Her eyes bring peace,
With my tears, she dies.
When he holds me tight,
She forgets if its the night.
With everything I do,
She holds herself together,
Just to hold me tight,
Just to wipe my tears.
To give me her love,
Eternal, unconditional.
She goes through so much,
My Mom, she does so much for me.

Dear Mom,
Your dreams are mine,
This heart you've given me,
This heart beats for you.
My Mom, I love you.
All of me, is all for you.
Your baby.

I still remember,
When I first opened my eyes.
I remember your tears,
They felt so precious on my cheeks,
I saw you, so beautiful.
With my voice, you died inside,
Watching me cry,
You'd shut the world,
Just to hold me together,
Smiling, laughing,
Close to you,
My Mom, I remember your tears.
They fell on my cheeks.
When I cried and you called my name.

Dear Mom,
Your dreams are mine,
This heart you've given me,
This heart beats for you.
My Mom, I love you.
All of me, is all for you.
Your baby.

Pleasure in pain.

I run and run and run,
Keep coming back to you,
For every moment in pain,
Winced eyes, and clenched fists,
I'm holding on to you,
While you're letting me fall,
Giving me pain,
Making me feel, every inch.
Of this hate, of this misery.
I feel alive,
When I'm holding on to you,
I find pleasure, in this pain.
In this pain you put me through.

Days and weeks and months and years,
I've never changed,
But you've been like seasons,
Making me numb and peeling my skin,
You've hurt me like these blades,
Pieces through my skin,
With the darkness in everything you do,
You've got me so stuck,
So stuck to everything you do,
I find love,
In your eyes when you stab me,
I find love,
In your touch, when you're burying me.
Down in the ground.
I feel alive,
For all you've put me through.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Tears and Smiles.

Steps by steps,
Like the clouds fall into place,
The pieces of their hearts,
They fall together,
Sometimes just the two,
Sometimes the scars of the past,
They heal when they meet,
One hand holds the other,
Close and tight,
Healed by the other.
When the clouds shatter,
It rains tears,
Tears and smiles,
For tomorrow,
Another grey sky.
Too much rain,
When they crash together,
They burst into tears.
Tears and rain.
Pieces of our hearts.
We're like the clouds,
Waiting to come togethers,
Sometimes we crash and burst,
Tears and rain,
Sometimes we come together,
Fall into love,
Tears and smiles.

Feels so true.

You strike me,
High and mighty,
Not just to see,
You feel so soft,
Every moment here with you,
Feels so new,
Feels so true.
Like you're replacing the wounds,
Covering me, making me feel safe,
Giving me the sunshine,
To open up again,
At times like the morning,
To get out in the sun,
Feel every inch of my skin,
This burning sensation in my heart,
When you leave with no note,
When you leave for so long,
You strike me,
Surprisingly leaving me overwhelmed.
I'm like the moon to you,
You give me light,
And I shine for you,
I'm next to you,
In the day, at night.
Covering me with your light,
Making me feel safe.
You, feel so new.
Feel so true.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Whisper 'Lets Go.'

Lights flickers,
Like the smiles you bring to me,
They shine, when I stare down at them,
Thunder and lightning,
With your voice, piercing.
Through this darkness,
Holding me together,
Holding me tight,
Its just you and me,
And I'm falling deep,
Into this darkness,
Over and over,
And I'm thankful to you,
For every second that I breathe,
You bring me back,
Up to the heights,
Where we watch the moon shine,
The lights fade,
As they close their eyes,
They're windows dimming,
The streets haunting the barks,
The trees shunning these birds,
We sit there,
You hold me together,
With your angel like voice,
Piercing through my problems.
There's too much to live for,
There's a long way to go,
You hold my hand,
Smile at the moon,
The stars, the thunder,
You look into my eyes.
You hold me together,
Whispering 'Lets go.'

Oh soul of my life.

I'm not certain about this place,
Where I am right now,
Every feeling I try to feel,
Everything I try to remember,
Hurts me deep down,
Where have you put me?
Oh soul of my life.
What have you done to me?
I don't know what to see,
What to feel, what not to feel.
Right now I feel this emptiness,
Like the sky in this place,
Wherever you've brought me,
Oh soul of my life,
Right now I see roads,
With no turns,
With no lights.
With no where to go,
And I'm not sure where to go,
What have you done?

 

EspaƱa

Whatever or whoever I've been supporting,
Its a coincidence that I've been supporting them since the year 2003.
John Cena and Espana, Michael Schumacher as well :D
Its been a long time coming hey?
Euro 2008 - World Cup 2010 - Euro 2012.
EspaƱa - EspaƱa - EspaƱa

Heartbreak of this season was David Villa, and Puyol.
Missed that No 7 magic, they game changer Puyol <3
What was really depressing was, for these glory hunter supporters of the teams,
They ruin the moods and everything.
So, Italy vs Germany was on way,
They said, Germany would win,
I myself, expected Germany to win, but the unpredictable Italian game changed everything,
By the time the clock hit 90 mins, I saw tweets of my fellow Spaniards tweeting that they're not sure if EspaƱa would win this year.

This post here is just to make them feel bad about themselves,
If you doubted the game of Spain, then you're not an EspaƱa fan. :D

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Are we asking for too much?

Are we asking for too much?

I just looked to my side and saw my Blackberry, my iPod, my laptop that I'm not using right now.
I honestly, don't mean to brag about my possessions,
I'm saying Alhumdulillah for everything, and then I look these shiny glitter they put all over the internet, advertisements and things of that sort, and I'm tempted to 'want' it.
Just one question,
Are we asking for too much without being thankful for what I already have?

Let me know your thought.

Intezaar.

Abhi, is lamhe mein,
Kuch samajh nahi aa raha,
Awaazien yahaan sirf sunai de rahi hain,
Kuch khaas tha, ab raha nahi.
Kuch kheechta rehta tha mujhe,
Ab mein yahaan,
Barish ke boondh mein,
Khada raha, dard mein,
Aansooun mein, lipta hua,
Ruka hua hoon mein,
Bhardha lo haanth,
Main dard mein hoon,
Fursat se jab dil behel gaya,
Har aahat ghabrane lagi,
Har kandha masroof hogaya,
Apne aansoon thame hue,
Do kadam uthaya aur behne diye,
Har moodh pe jisne dheka,
Jaane diya,
Mere in aansooun ko,
Bhoondhoon mein mila kar,
Chalde diye.

Baithe hue is tanhai mein,
Is hawa ka rukh badalne se,
Dil behel jata hai,
Kisi aahat ke intezaar mein,
Shayad mein yahaan tukdoon mein gir jaaon,
Shayad is intezaar mein,
Mujhe meri tanhai ka kandha mile,
Shayad ishi mein khushi mile.
Shayad phir akelepan mehsuus nahi ho.

Feel like home.

This place.
I've no clear picture of it,
Not yet anyways.
I see a few faces and they're here again,
Across tables,
Behind the pillars and stairs.
Sitting on the chairs under the large trees.
I'm new to this wind,
It tickles me under my chin,
These lights and sounds,
They haunt me at times,
I'm scared, at times afraid.
There's still goodness,
In so much that is around me,
This place,
Unknown to me,
I find so much light,
At every corner, I'm welcomed,
With so many lights,
So many memories to make,
Somewhere in this mix up of memories,
I remember hints of these roads,
These clouds look the same,
But this place.
So unknown to me.


In rightness and wrong,
Their faces and faults,
There's so much to see,
Here there is so much to experience,
I'm just another lost mind,
In this crowd of thousands,
On rails and roads,
Holding railings and belts.
There's no stillness, in my stillness.
I'm so desperate,
So tired of being home-sick.
I sit in corners and make memories.
I keep these pictures on the wall,
They make me feel like home,
In this place, so unknown to me.

I'm here again,
I remember that tie,
The smell of this place,
The crash of the waves,
Next to this huge fountains,
Maybe, I'm like those birds,
Sipping from so much,
So much left to see,
So many things to feel.
I'm stuck here, making memories,
I'm fighting with the unknown.
In this place,
So unknown to me.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Mahi. May you rest in peace.

With everything that you proudly smug about,
The colours and tastes of this land,
This land was mine too,
I had dreams of the fields and rain.
We had miles to walk, before we went to sleep.
Such was my country.
With the best of you,
Putting together your heads,
I'm fading,
I'm almost long gone.
So deep, in this darkness.
I can almost remember their promises,
Those ones in the black's and whites,
With four wheels, how they faded in corners.
How they held these hands,
Now ragged, rough and broken,
Such was my country.
And I was one of you too,
How could you just let me go?

You're all up there,
Behind the glasses and screens,
Watching them make their names,
I'm a path they've followed,
For the gold round their necks,
For the cheers and the fame.
Such carelessness, in my country.
Where there is name, and prestige.
I was one of you too,
But now I'm fading,
Taking all my dreams with me,
Maybe deep down,
I'm smiling as I go,
But I still remember,
The promises you made,
How could you let me go?


Saturday, June 23, 2012

I don't know what this is, just saying.

Its all really dark over here right now, everyone thinks I'm sleeping,
One thing about having the PC all to myself in my room, is that it helps my tendencies of waking up in the middle of the night and typing out absolute crap.
One of my many recent tweets, the tick of the clock in pitch black darkness and excruciating silence is louder than 'Bass down low' on my Creative thingy.
But anywho, My Brother got me a time machine watch..
There it is, its about marbles or chrome balls and stuff,
Very german, trust me you don't want me to explain it right now.
Lets just say, whenever a minute passes by, there is a machine sounds that go off and balls rolling,
So every minute, my heartbeat accelerates to the no of balls that roll by.

So the point of this post is, okay I have absolutely no idea.
I was just thinking and thinking,
And well I realized that sometimes you need to let go off the truth, rather your straight forwardness just to keep a few sparks going, or a few relations stable.
Time minute you criticize, the negetive evaluation starts,
And like I said in my earlier post,
When you're annoyed with someone, everything they do starts being annoying times 10.
So you're annoying and then the fact that you're breathing bothers the person.
When you're dealing with short tempered, angry and unstable, emotionally, people,
Just let it go a few times,
It feels great being the more mature, understanding one.
A little blow for a long run doesn't hurt much. :)

Don't give people reasons to jump on you, if they do so,
Forgive and forget.

Friday, June 22, 2012

My stillness.

I remember the sweetness,
The stillness in this word,
The soft and slow,
Thump of my heart,
I felt it on your skin,
That time when you smiled,
The last time I saw you,
I'm still here.
The moon shine is still the same,
The wind here, blows again
Chilling me to the bone,
Where are you?

My warmth, the breathlessness,
The spark in ever part.
The shine in this dimness.
Where are you, my heart?
My stillness.

Smiling still,
I remember the tears,
They fell and fell again.
I smiled, for every story they're tell.
Every corner of my heart,
Every calm waves of the sea,
Brushes memories of you and me,
Of the times you held me tight,
Touch me with your heart,
And we danced to our heartbeat.
Like the life in you,
Like you, life in me,
Fearlessness in your touch,
Such beauty in your eyes.
The way your eyes seem,
The deepness and peacefulness,
It gives me strength, it gives me hope.
Love, you give me hope.
In this silence,
In the dimness.
You keep me here, and move me.
You, my stillness.

My warmth, the breathlessness,
The spark in ever part.

The shine in this dimness.
Where are you, my heart?
My stillness.

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Too many moments.

I'm sure you've been dizzy before?
That time when these questions pop into your head,
" Where am I? "
" Why am I here? "
" How did I get here? "
And then you realize the where,how,why and all those questions and everything's all clear again,
So this happened to me today,
I was just sitting with 3 of my friends, we're sitting in a square and just talking randomly.
And then I looked at their faces, and I remembered all the lucid moments I've had with each one of them,
The vivid images and picture perfect memories.
All of us, we go back years,
Not together but we do,
These few moments brought to my attention the fact that life is so big and deep and vast.
If I had written about moments like these everytime,
I wonder how big my journal or blog or virtual journal or whatever it is would be,
We make mistakes and we correct them,
We make the same mistakes again, we're frowned upon and it feels really bad, but it doesn't end there.
These little moments make our life,
But never let these imperfect moment be the base of your life.
There's too much to look forward to,
Too many things that won't go your way,
Too many things that will make you smile,
Just say Alhumdulillah for whatever you have,
And live these moments. :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Grudges and Hate.

One thing I've learned about Human nature is that our mind has this amazing unexplainable capacity to compel us.
I tried this once, I sat down at the corner of my bedroom floor and thought to myself, for 10 minutes straight,
Telling myself in my mind 'Saad you have a piercing headache.', and what do you know?
A little while later, my head was pounding and exploding.
That was one.
Back in 2011, I had a huge fight with one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world,
And he changed, he realized his fault and he changed, a lot.
I'll put up his picture just now  ^_^
For a while, I was still not over the entire issue, lets say, to get my title into context, I still had a grudge of the past against him..
No matter what I did, he pissed me off, and I didn't like him, at all.
It was all in the mind.
When we grudge against someone, no matter how clean their intentions are, no matter how kind they are trying to be, not specifically to us, anyone in any matter, we look for an ulterior motive just to prove them evil.
And it just hurts me to see this happening, time and again.

It is said in a Hadith - " If you ask for forgiveness for any sin, it is upto Allah (SWT) to forgive you and he holds the power to do so, when it comes to hurting someone, Allah (SWT) will only forgive you after you've asked for forgiveness from the person you've hurt, and they forgive you. "

So there you go people.
Don't hate, don't grudge.
Embrace the love and the good side of people.

Little Bird II

If I tell you right now,
I was weak and wounded,
When you found me,
I was hurt and confused.
When nothing made sense to me,
I remember the reasons you gave,
For every scar on my skin,
When the truth brought back nightmares,
You held me at night,
Wiping my sea of tears,
Drifting me off to sleep.
If I tell you right now,
You made me forget,
All the bitterness,
The confusion and harshness.
You found me, when I was hurt.
Confused and wounded.
You held me together,
Like the feather of a bird,
The little bird, fallen in the storm,
You held me together.
And you made me fly again.

Just like the little bird,
I spoke no language,
But the language of your touch,
I could feel the calm,
And the soothe,
Everytime I saw you,
I could be it all coming true,
How I slept at night,
With my eyes open,
Watching over you,
Jealous of every strand on your cheeks.
I spent the night, humming the love songs,
Remembering every chilly night,
I spent alone,
I remember every scar you made me forget.
And I look over you,
This little bird,
Flies to your palm,
And you hold it too tight.
This little bird promises you,
To pay back, until forever,
You found me,
When I was broken,
Confused and wounded.
You found this bird,
And you set it free.

Days like this.

The sun is setting in my eyes,
The moon here shines in yours,
We together walk towards the stars,
They're everywhere, you're not alone.
If love was that I needed, baby,
You'd be all I need.
If this love was all that's holding me,
I'd be stronger than your defences.

Days like this, there's so bright,
So dull, when we close our eyes,
A small wish, a prayer,
Before we hold our pillows,
And sleep at night,
I'll wait for that day,
When, you're the other thing,
That crosses my mind,
Leaves me up at night,
When, for me,
You slip away those comforts,
Sit by the stars all night.
In your voice,
I'll find peace.
In mine,
You'll find comforts.

So many memories,
So many pictures on my walls,
The nightmare of yesterday,
Today, with your heart in mine,
Turns to dreams.
Dreams that came true.
With a few words you said,
Turning my cries to smile,
All my fumes, to sparks,
Tears of happiness.
When I feel you pulse,
Over my heart,
You feel your heart.
After my heartbeat.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Give me that smile.

With my eyes closed,
Wrapped around you,
When I'm sleeping.
And I'm smiling,
Don't wake me up,
Don't move a nerve,
Don't wake me up..
I'm dreaming of you.

When I'm looking at you,
A few steps ahead of you,
When we walk,
Close your eyes for every step.
Even when the skies fall down,
I'm a few steps ahead of you,
Taking every stone under my feet,
Stopping every storm,
Everything that hurts you.
I become its enemy.

Look in my eyes.
When I'm looking away,
I hide so much love,
So much love that I have,
Find me the reasons,
In your fingers between mine,
Give me the shivers,
I'll keep you here.
Give me that smile,
And I'll never let go.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

'T'

This is that time,
The wind is still,
The lights put off,
There's the shine from the moon,
The sparkle of the stars,
This is that moment,
The dreams are clear, here.
They speak of love,
They show me perfection,
These dreams bring smiles,
They end in your arms.

This is the start of everything,
The loss of a tear,
The stillness in the moment,
This is that smile, etched.
They talk of love,
These moments tell me the truth.
This here, right now.
This is perfection.

Remember that day.

Do you remember the time,
You said 'Baby it'll be alright,
My heart will keep beating,
As long as you're mine..'
With my hand on your heart,
'I'll be safe, just stay here.'
With tears in your eyes,
My song on your lips,
You moved me then,
Do you remember that day?

When you looked at me,
Flooded eyes,
With the memories of us,
I remember cries from my heart,
Calling your name,
I remember the trembles of my lips.
Did you feel it too?
Like I'm weak for you..
Were you weak for me too?

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Life starts here.

Life starts here,
When you're by yourself,
Never turn around,
For what you want,
No word can stop you.
No one can feel this,
When you stand here,
Pricked by the wind,
Oceans above the sky,
Where you feel you.
The smiles before the cries,
It'll feel better,
When you shed a tear,
For the one you love,
Give it all away,
For all that you are.
For all that you feel.
When you stand after cries.
After smiles, fearless.
Life starts here.

If I bleed just to feel alive,
Would there be love in this heart?
If I need to give up on my smiles,
Is there care in this world?
When there's no home, in this moment,
When there are no tears to spare,
And everything feels dead and broken.
Turn around and just live your life.
If you're made to be broken,
Throw your pieces,
Farther into the sky,
Watch yourself break apart,
When you feel you,
When you stand after cries,
After smiles..
Fearless.
Life starts here.

Love for fear.

Do you love or do you fear?
Is it in haze and fumes?
Hate and love.
Its frightening, when it ends,
It ends with sparks and flames,
Chasing dreams never dreamt,
Burning pages never written.
When your heart collides,
Do you pick your pieces,
Or sit and cry.

Do you die,
Time and again,
Waking up with dreams,
Like a fool.

Do you know where you stand?
In my heart, beating.
Thumping to get out,
And you're tired,
Of these false promises,
Of the visions and memories.
All day and all night,
Something pulls you back inside,
The fear of love,
You're still stuck,
The love for fear.

Chasing survival.

Windows down,
Hear the oceans,
Waves that crash,
Next to our hands,
Yours in mine,
Pressed down to my bone,
Through my eyes,
I see the pearls in yours,
As we drive into the horizon,
Vanishing away from these tall eyes,
Fading into the darkness,
Where is you and me,
Love and softness.
The waves crash,
Next to our hearts,
Swimming and dancing,
Together they survive.

Row and row,
We row by the river,
With birds and chirps,
Stillness in the wind,
The feel of your cheeks,
On my chest,
The tickle of your hair,
Under my palm.
When we tumble,
The look in your eyes.
From curious to calm,
With a touch,
The fall of darkness,
When its you and me,
There's no fright,
There's no pain.
Loving and care.
Together we survive.

Take care of me.

I know you bring me smile,
Now you bring me life.
When I sit under the stars,
They all remind me of your eyes,
Until its dark,
The sun comes up,
Taking away all the drops,
My tears and the sea,
Pours in down on me,
With hopes, fears, regrets.
Will you bring me love?
When I'm lonely and broken.
Will you mend me again?
If I break apart,
Loving you,
I break apart.

Intoxicated and dazed.
I see tomorrow,
Misty and hazed.
I cross my fingers,
Try to find meanings,
In all my dreams.
In all my wishes.
In the words you say.
I find hope for tomorrow.

I can sit out for ever,
Push hopes down my veins,
If you give me a pebble of love,
I'll stick my hope down,
For as long as you can remember,
The way I feel is too much for now,
Deeper, brighter and softer,
Than your eyes to me,
Than your smile when I cry,
Than the feel of your shoulder,
Unconditional is my love for you,
Take care of me.

Stay until my heart beats.

I tried smiling without you,
I tried counting stars for you,
It didn't work my way,
Until I had your hands in mine,
I needed you when my heart beats,
Now, tomorrow, today and forever,
I remember the feel of your fingers,
Pressing on mine,
I remember your feel...

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

I tried reading your eyes,
I tried finding the reasons,
All the windows open to your heart,
The doors, to your smile.
It feels better than home,
When you take my name and smile,
Better than happy ever after,
Beating in my heart,
It feels like home.

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Untitiled IV

De do tum apna dil,
de do tum apni dua,
Dard jab hoga yahaan,
Dena na is dard ki dawa.

Jab saans bhi na le sakuun,
Haanth apna bardha dena,
Phir kabhi is hi raah mein,
Mera har khushi garv se le lena.

Dil mein jitni baat chupi hui hai,
Ishi baarish ke garj ke saath,
Har awaaz mein, tum tak aa na saki,
Garajte garaje, guzar gayi saari raat.

Jab betaabi leke khush rahe tum,
Tab zindagi ne mujhe rulaya,
Khul gaye tum, har raah ko,
Tum hari hi awaaz ne, dard mein sulaya.

Mujhe aane mein deer lag gayi shayad,
Is hi chaand ke niche, tum nahin.
Tumne shayad jeena seekh liya,
Tere bina, meri khushiyaan, kaheen nahin.

Stay until my heart beats.

I tried smiling without you,
I tried counting stars for you,
It didn't work my way,
Until I had your hands in mine,
I needed you when my heart beats,
Now, tomorrow, today and forever,
I remember the feel of your fingers,
Pressing on mine,
I remember your feel...

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

I tried reading your eyes,
I tried finding the reasons,
All the windows open to your heart,
The doors, to your smile.
It feels better than home,
When you take my name and smile,
Better than happy ever after,
Beating in my heart,
It feels like home.

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

I keep my promises.


I'll take away your pain,
I'll wear your favourite smile,
I promise baby, I'll make it right.
I keep my promises,
And I promise to love you forever,
Your hands, and none other I've held,
Set your tears free,
Let them fall on my shoulders,
I promise you sunshine,
When you open your eyes,
After you lay in my arms,
Under the moonlight,
I promise you dreams,
Of fields and flowers,
Rainbows and rain,
I promise you forever,
And I keep my promises.

I'll keep you here,
Where you close your eyes,
And I'll be in your reach,
Just hold your hands out,
And I'll fit your fingers,
With rings and flowers,
Cover your smiles,
With kisses and giggles,
I'll be perfect,
I'll try and I'll give you everything,
Believe in me,
Let me be, all I want to be,
After you lay in my arms,
Under the moonlight.
We'll talk of tomorrow,
And I'll brings your dreams to you,
When you close your eyes,
In the chilly night,
Until the sun shines bright,
I'll bring your dreams to you.
I promise you forever,
And I keep my promises.

Zindagi ban ke.

Phir banke aansoon,
In aankhoon se baras rahe ho,
Tum zindagi ban gaye,
Phir bhi hum pe garajh rahe ho.
Dil mein do lafz rakh ke,
Chalte chalte raat ho gayi,
Boondhoon mein, dubta raha mein,
Itni saari batein theen, ek bhi na huin.

Ruuth ke kyun bikhar gaye tum,
Na kuch bola, na kuch kaha..
Chalte chalte tumhare darr pe hum pohchein,
Har darkhan bas ginta raha.
Jitne kadam uthaya, darrte darrte.
Sab sehme sehme, khoye se pal mein,
Kal raha ya na raha,
Bas aaj hi tha, hal aise pal mein.

Har kadam pe,
Teri yaadoon ne sataya,
Jahaan murdh ke dekha,
Mujhe yadoon ne rulaya.
Phir banke aansoon,
In aankjoon se baras rahe ho,
Tum zindagi ban gaye,
Phir bhi hum pe garajh rahe ho.

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Here and there.

There are so many faces,
Seen and unseen,
So many emotions,
Felt and unknown.
Promises pile over here,
Kept and untold,
Secrets that held us together,
Hidden and spilled.
So many hearts held together,
Beating for each other,
Broken and mended,
Like the silhouette of our lives.
Glazed with pain,
Pierced with pleasure,
Of this life, there are too many faces.
For tears and smiles.
For laughs and cries.

So many tears of us,
Pieces and puzzles.
We're losing the heart,
With so much love to carry,
Care and adore.
So much love for you.
In pieces of my heart.
Breaking and beating.
Fresh and raw.
Tears and wounds.
Like the silhouette of our lives.
Glazed with pain,
Pierced with pleasure,
Of this life, there are too many faces.
For tears and smiles.
For laughs and cries.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

I'm still the same.

Sharp as a blade,
As deep as the ocean.
Love is sharp and short tempered.
Live and learn the rules it lives by,
Fight every thought, for the promises made.
Never going back, but it changes paths.
Passing through the same pages,
Over and over,
Remembering the same feelings,
The old visions they splatter around,
Bringing back every fall,
Every sign of danger,
Taken down with the storm.
The slippery smiles,
The chilling voice,
The promises it makes.
Shining on you...
You're glad you came.

We're running in circles,
Flickering away from the memories.
Please, stop for a moment.
Let me catch you.
Let me catch up with you,
For all the lost days,
The darkness I faced,
Give me a sign,
Give me a hint.
There's too much in me.
Still too much in me.
Look at me, baby, trust me.
I'm still the same.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Scars [Ft.Marium Asad Khan]

(Marium)
Remember when you have scars to hide,
Reflection is an enemy but darkness is a friend,


Remember when you dont wish to fight,
Ignorance is the key but you go on forever to depend,


 I have nothing more to follow,
The roads to my heart are broken,
'Cause you broke them



So what if the wounds are healing,
We know that the scars are appearing,
And these scars stay for a long time,
To remind me, you were never mine




Covers and pieces,
I'm draped with my shame.
It left holes in me,
When you slipped away.
Mending pieces of my heart,
Cause you broke them,
Pieces of my broken heart,
These scars don't dry,
They still feel raw,
There's no mercy in my memory.
Dreaming of darkness,
Stuck between your eyes,
And the bright lights
,A million scratches,
Just there to remind me,
Just to bring life in me,
With these broken doors
,Losing the feeling of home,
Wake me up, just to remind me,
You're never mine.
You never were.


I have nothing more to follow,
The roads to my heart are broken,
'Cause you broke them



So what if the wounds are healing,
We know that the scars are appearing
,And these scars stay for a long time,
To remind me, you were never mine.

I wish...

I wish I was the wind,
I'd wrap around your beauty,
Tickle you when you're in fear,
Bring out the best of your smiles,
Make you feel loved,
When you're on your own,
I'll be forever around you.
Close enough to protect,
Close enough to touch.
And when you cry,
I'll dry your tears,
With everything in me,
Right now,
I'll be the wind to make you smile.

I wish I was the rain,
I'd run all over your skin,
Tickle your senses,
Play with the warm, softness.
I'll be pouring down on you,
When you bring yourself together,
When you cry, I'll hide your tears,
In thunder and lightness,
I'll make you smile,
Pouring every cloud of love,
On you my love,
Right now,
I wish I was the rain,
Just to make you smile.

I wish I was your voice,
So beautiful and flawless,
I'd attract the eyes of thousands,
Just floating in the air,
The perfect pitch,
With a hint of your smile,
To make every song so beautiful,
I wish I was your voice.
To calm the racing heartbeat,
To console the crying lover.
To bring everyone together,
To let our heart wonder,
Right now,
I wish I was your whisper,
I'd put me to sleep.

I wish I was your love,
Engulfing me, how you do,
With so much respect and loyalty.
Even when the stars collide,
You hold my hand,
And stay by my side,
I'd be like nothing there's ever been,
If I was your love,
I'd be rare and beautiful.
Kind and comforting.
Lovely and passionate,
Gorgeous and stunning.
Right now,
I wish I was your love,
To be so beautiful,
I could be compared to nothing.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Pieces of our memories.


Days have gone,
And we still lie on the floor,
Pieces of our memories,
On your bedroom floors,
Shattered like the glass,
The soul in me, you never see.
Bringing together piece by piece.
Piercing on my skin,
Bleeding over our memories.
Its been days and more,
I still lie there on the floors,
Feeling you fade,
I see you in my soul,
I see you in my heart,
But you're nowhere I can feel.

In those tunes,
Driving on the highways again,
The stars don't fall anymore,
For you don't smile next to me,
These clouds don't pour on us,
I need you now but you don't feel it burn,
Cutting all ties with me and my broken heart,
We try to make it work,
Beating each other,
Piercing on our skin,
But we bleed no more.
Its been days and more,
Even after all these years,
Me and my broken heart,
We face each others,
Like we've never been here,
Ever before.
We feel each other,
But you're nowhere I can feel.

In my mind


Walking by a thousand trees,
Flowers that never bloom,
Finding reasons why you miss,
Your beautiful life.
Thinking of a million words,
Spreading them, like the tiny stars,
Let your voice beat on your heart,
Words scribbled on your heart,
Love is just a mess
And I'm stranded by the door,
When you walk by a thousand trees,
In my mind.

When we sunk, with fading faces,
Cries to keep us up,
For the lights that fell on us,
Come here, deep into the sea,
Swim next to these colours,
As these lights fades,
Find reasons to stay in my arms,
When we breathe our last breaths,
Find reasons why you miss,
Your beautiful life.
I'll spread all my tears,
Deep in the ocean,
Let them shine with my love,
Come here,
Come with me,
Love is you and me,
And I'll be letting it go,
Until you hold my hand,
In my mind.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Life lesson 1 - Regrets.

Regret?
Regret!
Regret.
Yes, regret.
Fulton Oursler said “Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” 
They also say, 'If only...' is the saddest phrase ever.
It is indeed true, I'll get back to that after I tell you about my dilemma recently,
Okay its a vague memory, I don't remember much but yes, I was troubled about something,
Confused and unable to decide what I wanted to do,
So I was just whining to my friend on my Blackberry messenger,
And he tells me, 'Dude just flip a coin, when its halfway down, you'll know exactly what you want.'
And it worked, I can tell you that because I obviously don't have any regrets what so ever.
So for those of you having a hard time deciding, they're your silver lining to everything.
So yes, coming back to the point,
Why regret?
When you do something, as little as buying a cloth of some random colour,
We need to realize two things,
  • Us humans, we will never stop being greedy
  • When you do something, pick a colour or something, decide a place to go, or whatever decision you make, these was a point in time when THAT is exactly what you wanted,
So why regret?
I started with a quote, and if I've been able to deliver a message,
I think its time I'll close with a quote.
" Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. "

Let it open.

Here I'm looking in your eyes,
Saying everything you'll need,
I'm leaving you for your own,
I'll be tired of waiting,
Everything I say, leads you away,
Faraway from here, until forever.
I'm depending on you,
To shoot for stars,
And fall for your dreams,
Never look back at you and me,
I'll watch your walk away today,
With your back against all of this,
When I hold your face today,
I look into your eyes,
Don't notice my tears,
I'll say things you'll need,
To let go,
Never know what you could be missing,
I'll be tired of waiting,
I'll be counting on you,
Never look back at us.

You're silent and serene,
I know you've no mind of your own,
Its all numb and confusing.
In this heat, your skin's cold.
I've been there too,
I have felt every feeling in you,
For years and years,
In a place like this,
I've felt the tears seap in,
There are no tears for you,
Here, when I look into your eyes,
Don't watch me cry,
I'll miss you forever,
Faraway from here, until you fade,
I'm depending on you,
Counting on your dreams,
Shoot for stars,
This is everything you've wished for,
When you walk tonight,
Never look back at you and me,
With your back against all of me,
Just let go.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Silence that you left.

Me and the silence you just left,
We never talk, it never speaks.
Numb and confused.
Both of us, stay far away.
We talk to the thoughts in me,
Tear after tear, after every broken dream.
Its late in the night,
Disturbed and scared,
I'm awaken by this silence.
It screams so loud,
The shrill of your last words,
The sight of your last smile.
Me and the silence you just left,
We walk miles but never talk,
From the places I go to,
Drifting off, drifting away,
With my eyes closed, scared of this silence.
Its scream, so loud.
Drifting off, drifting away.
I'm pulled back again,
I'm awaken by this silence.
Silence you just left.

Fighting and crying,
Its after the sun rise,
We sit and we smile.
I feel it fade away,
This silence,
I feel you coming closer,
Your presence.
When the birds chirp loud,
They talk to my thoughts.
Flying to my shoulder.
Where they lean and they cry.
Healing wounds of my heart,
Pierced by this silence.
Silence at the bottom of the page,
At the end of the day.
Silence when you're gone,
Silence these smiles mourn.

Burning in my eyes.

In the pages of the year before,
I read words and I feel everything,
All over again, the rush at your words,
The way you've made me feel.
I'm missing it.
Its taking my breath away,
Leaving me here to breathe my misery.
My heart aches and they stare down,
Memories of us, they burn in my eyes.
I walk and run, miles to you.
They never end,This distance between us, never ends.
You still walk so high,
Leaving trails to darkness,
Watching me walk into these pits,
'I won't let you fall',
Feeling the ground slip away from me,
I remember words you said.
Every promise you made,
They burn in my eyes.
Memories of you and me.

Dear 16 year old me.

Dear 16 year old me,
What went wrong?
Or is it right to think things went wrong?
Where were you, when the tears slipped by,
For these steps you took,
Towards these dark caves I'm in,
Months later, I'm trying to remember,
16 year old me,
Where were you, when it went wrong.
But without you, 16 year old me.
I'd never be me.

Dear 16 year old me,
Remember the times we promised each other,
Today we'd look back to yesterday,
Smiling with tears of joys,
So far we've come from being so quiet,
We're so proud of all that we've accomplished.
Without you, 16 year old me.
I'd never be me.

Dear 16 year old me,
I remember the nights,
You never slept, and sat under the moon,
Writing letters to me.
So many promises you made,
Of my mornings under the rainbows,
And the rain at my thought.
Breaking my broken heart,
I'm sure you remember.
Every scar on it,
But without you, 16 year old me.
I'd never be me.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Prison of love.

In this prison of memories,
Lying here, as this cold wind blows,
In pieces, my dreams of you.
Far away from every spark.
No more goodbyes, no more sorrows.
We find the smiles in this misery.
Drowning in tears but we're still glee.
There's no forgetting,
For however long you stay there,
There's no forgetting the feel of your smile,
The blink of your eyes, on my heart.
The feel of your heartbeat on my chest.
They shine so bright, in your pearls,
The stars, the moon, my love for you.
High above the ground,
They're all I have.

Behind these walls, folded curtains.
Through these bars and thoughts,
Far away from where your tears fall,
There's no forgetting here,
For howevery long I'm here,
You're all I have,
There's no forgetting, the feel of your skin.
The way my heart beats, at the sight of you.
They dry and shine, my tears, up above.
Beautiful and gorgeous, you shive over the moon,
In this misery, smile, because you can.
Laugh, to the memories of the fields and tickles,
The leaves falling apart,
Breathe, for the promises we made,
Lying there beneath the stars,
Under the shine of the moonlight.
Breathe, to come true.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Weak for you.

From the darkest of pits,
The roughest waters,
Life, sour like the truth,
You pull me through them all,
With the softness of your touch,
The depth in your voice,
So much sincerity in your love.
The ring in your name,
Rings all my senses,
And I feel all I've never felt before,
I hear the thunders miles away,
With this, I lose everything,
When you're collecting pieces far away.
I lose everything.

I'll make you fight for me,
Fight with me, for me.
Backs against the wall,
Our hands join with our breaths.
Our souls fight to capture,
Capture my breathe,
You've taken my love,
Won over my pride,
And beneath this thick shell,
Beneath how tough I seem.
I'm weaker than you think,
Weak for you.

Till I get there.

The sunset is taking its time,
And I can't wait so long,
It feels like a dream,
To say you're here and its dim.
After every call for you,
Making promises and dying to give you forever.
Come here and don't go,
Just last forever, after its dark and dim.

Tomorrow you will be away from these clouds,
And they will give you love.
Give you calm and wind,
When my love is far away,
They'll give you hope.
Raining on you when you cry,
And they'll never know.
These thoughts that go by,
When its dark and dim.
They'll hold you tight,
Till I get there.
Until I get there.

Soulful.

These moments of pain,
Playing with my heartbeat.
I'm numb and I'm lost.
Searching for your word,
Longing for the truth,
I'm so incomplete.
And every breath, every beat of my heart,
It feels like a waste, it feels nothing but empty.
The sweetness of your voice,
Hoarse for all these bullets of misery.
Memories of every moment with you,
Flooding with these tears,
For now, for today, right now,
Searching for a lost soul.
To dwell in, to long for,
A heart to love, your heart to protect.
Your love to cherish, your love to remember.

You're mine and I'm for you,
Between us, its sincere.
When you're back again,
Its dim here, nothing but the calm,
I capture your words for me,
Locked in my heart,
And a promise for today,
Today, that yesterday was tomorrow,
Today you're here again,
Dwelling in my soul,
Last night, you looked for me,
I woke up again, feeling complete.
Your soul for me, I'm soul for you.
Your heart to me,
My love to remember,
Your soul for me,
When I'm numb and I'm lost.
I'm soulless, nothing but incomplete,

Digging deeper.

The last time I saw you,
It meant a little less,
As I can feel, seeing you,
After so long, you're so much more deeper,
Under my skin, with every moment,
Digging deeper and smiling,
With every look at you,
I'm scared of letting you go,
With my breath getting heavier,
I feel you heavy on me,
Falling head over heels,
Deep into your love,
And I'm strong enough to survive.
Day by day, I can feel more of you,
Struggling to breathe, struggling to feel.
Since the last time I saw you,
Standing there, waiting,
Standing there, looking prettier than ever,
You grow beautiful by the heartbeat,
You grow more onto me,
You're more under my skin.

Halfway gone.

This night is dull,
A bit of a pain,
I know you're somewhere around,
Call me a little insane,
But this cold wind, never felt the same,
It covers so much of you,
Bring your scent to every spec of me,
There's so much of you,
More than these rushes could ever feel.

This night is dull,
But these stars shine so bright,
Apart from what's here inside,
Fearing the truth, wishing on the shine
When it means so much,
Why're we here?
Apart from being in my mind,
You're here in my arms,
When the stars fall,
I hold you tighter,
My star, I'll never let you fall,
My miracle, you mean so much to me,
More than my tears to you.

Light up these candles,
And we'll make castles all night,
Break them apart,
Like everytime we did,
Set it on fire,
And go back to the beginning,
When these clouds snore here,
We breathe in this dim light,
Cover us, cover you and me,
With the warmth of my love,
Under my arm, a kiss from above,
When you've lost every word you said,
We'll go back to you and me,
How much I love you,
More than these words ever said,
Years and still, I'm still halfway done,
Just holding your hand,
This night's halfway gone.

Dil.

Dil cheez hi kya hai,
Bin kahe, bin soche,
Aap chura jo le gaye.
Yeh kaisi tanhaee hai,
Jab aap na hote hain,
Yeh kaisa andhera hai.
Har gali, har raasta yahaan,
Apki yadoon ki parchai se bhara,
Apki awaaz ki gunjoon se nikhra,
Yeh dil cheez hi kya hai,
Sab kurbaan karne ke liye tayyaar,
Hum khade rahe yahaan,
Yeh dil zalim hai meri jaan.
Tere liye kar diya sab kurbaan.

Cringe of pain.

Living in the shadows,
The burning skin,
A shattered heart, a weak heart.
Broken, living in pieces.
And you scream, you shout,
Pull me in terror,
Make me fear your voice,
Fear me out of my senses,
And I'm numb,
Numb from all that follows,
And the cast of love,
The voice of peace,
So faraway, surreal to feel.
Yet we try but never cry.
To find love but we never do,
When it all falls apart,
They fall too.

Sometimes over these shadows,
Sometimes creating them,
You grab me tight,
Why don't you hold me for a while?
You scream out my name,
And I'm calm when you call.
Like missing pieces,
Flowing with the river,
Pieces of me, pieces of my heart,
Smiling their broken smiles,
With faces that need that touch,
When you love, not hate.
Close your eyes and feel the rain,
And you forget the thunder,
Let every drop wash your pain.
And when you cringe,
I live for love,
I live not long.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Time.

Sometime, somewhere, walking down the street.
These street reminds me of every day that went by,
There's nothing new here,
So somewhere down this road, there was a moment that hit me really hard,
I was stuck and lost, numb and confused, as in I was spiritually out of my body looking back at myself,
Looking at what I've become, and what I'm going to be.
And every scar on my skin reminds me of the wrong turns, the trail of tears remind me of the poor decisions,
This place I'm at when I feel all of this, what is this?
It reminds me of pain in its piercing form,
Is it regret?
Is it the touch of these memories?
How life changed from back then to now,
From yesterday to right now, this moment,
Everything has changed, by the second, with this heartbeat,
Things are changing.
Being here I realized one thing,
Once you've lost time, it never comes back,
Once you've taken a step, you cannot go back and undo it,
Time is your biggest enemy, your biggest fear.
If its not, it should be.
Because standing here, I realized that I lost,
And I lost to time.
For every wrong step, for every misjudged decision,
TIME did NOT stop for me to think over and over.
Time went by.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Fireworks for you.


Its you and me, her, him and her too.
We're so different but when we're right here,
Can you see, everything comes together again.
We're bandages for the broken hearts,
And fireworks for the smiles.
Under this roof, we all shine,
If they could see again,
The way we go through,
Going on and on through this life,
In this we're together, right here.
Under this roof,
We pour our souls and let our hearts wander,
When the time is right, we fall too,
And shed the most painful tears,
They burn our shoulders,
And when the sun goes down,
We're bandages for the broken heart.

Let go off everything when these sparks sparkle,
In this darkness one of us shine so bright,
There was nothing that held us apart,
Holding you high, we give life to your sparks,
We make it come alive, your dream.
Our dream to be shining like the bright high sun,
We rise and we let it show,
Letting go of everything,
Just to be the fireworks for the smiles.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Take it easy.

So beautiful you're mine,
And I don't believe its true,
When you say you love me,
I know its true, but I'm lost,
In the bliss, oblivion of my own.
I've been sleeping a little less since yesterday,
I've felt so safe, I looked back through the day,
Can you really do this to me?
Being so far from where I am,
I know you're not home,
And I feel like I've lived enough,
I know you're more than this,
Are you coming back home?
I'm so scared of what it would be,
So much from so far away.
Take it easy on me,
When you come back home.

I know they say it gets better,
Every moment brings together lost pieces,
When you're all I need,
And I have you here,
Maybe I don't deserve you,
How much of you, you've given me.
Little things I try to do,
Tender and soft, giving all of me.
Tears in my eyes,
You will never find,
Words on my tongue that hurt,
You understand more than they do,
From so faraway, from here where they echo.
Take it easy on me please,
When you come back home.

Silhouttes.

You stand me up,
Come running back,
Its unbelievable, how you come tripping back,
Making amends with your past,
Repleted with hate,
Repleted with rage and insecurity.
Its not your fault,
For these empty chairs around you,
There's no empathy, for this,
There's no turning around and looking over your shoulder,
These dark, numb and cold months have passed.
Days have gone by, spent keeping warm,
Ringing numbers you've never known,
And they wall down your hallway,
Its not too crowded,
With the silhouttes of your sadness,
Your happiness, your fears, your fears.
In this dark places, there are no emotions.
Nights and days, sunset after sunrise.
You embed your soul in your skin,
For so much misery,
You sew your heart to your chest.
Scared of every word they say,
Too proud to prove them wrong,
Take it from their whispers,
You're not that tough.

Look close, close up to your heart,
There are holes piercing through,
Shadows in your heart,
And empty hands, yearning to hold,
Grudge after grudge,
Look at your rusting happiness.
Never smiled on, you're never looked at,
Spare them the dirty look,
Spare them your broken promises,
Where the sunlight breaks,
You break the dawn,
Falling from the sky,
Stand tall and hold your head high.
I know you can,
Hold up down the sun,
Rise the sun while its set,
I know you can,
Change this world,
Its not too crowded, these hallways.
They're faces of yesterday.
Walking past your dead soul.
Put it back together,
I know you can.
Take it from their whispers,
Its not that tough.

Oh pretty girl - II

Changing the meaning of my life,
And rising my heartbeats,
For no reasons they could find,
Nights become days,
When I stay up and think of you.
Where the sun sets, sparks fly,
In the arms of this rain,
Rushing away with the snow.
The sun rises from under the rainbows,
Together, close enough to touch,
Bringing the light in the dark,
When the moon shines so loud,
And the stars fly to you.
Together in the sky, they shine your name,
Changing the course of nature.
Oh pretty girl,
What are you doing to my heart?

I roll these decisions on my thoughts,
And they fall on you.
I'm one step closer,
To wherever you take me,
You or your smile.
Playing hide and seek with my eyes,
Changing everything I need,
You'll all that there is,
And the things I do, with love
To make you fall, so I could catch you again,
And you laugh, you glide, you smile.
Here in my arms, changing everything inside.
When I lead you to places you're scared,
Just to hold you tighter than before,
Tighter than when you hug me before,
Oh pretty girls,
What are you doing to my heart?

No.

Yes, no, alright maybe.
I'm hurt but I'm not sure.
Intentions and expressions,
Lost behind your words,
Maybe, I'm losing that grip,
And no, I know you didn't mean to.
Yes, we've been here before,
So maybe, just maybe I'm weak,
But no, we never went back.
Yes, I cried.
Maybe I forgave and forgot.

If you're coming back to me,
Maybe I'm not me anymore,
No, I've never been told,
Yes I feel the same,
And if your questions need answers,
Maybe I'm not the one,
Yes, we've been there before,
I'm sorry, no, I could never say 'No'.
Yes, maybe I don't 'no'.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Random classroom writing - 2





I know we're both faraway,
Living miles apart,
The tears have dried,
And they've lost the charm,
All it takes now,
Is a wander of this heart,
It falls on you.
On the memories of you.
Seldom, they make me cry.
Seldom, I feel your love..

I guess, you're far from moved on,
I'm sure you're living alright,
But we've been so deep, so far.
Its hard to look away,
All it takes for now,
Flashbacks and these memories,
My eyes they fall on you and me, together.
My tears they fall on, just you and me, this picture.
Everytime, my heart here sinks.
Every time, I search for you.
I close my eyes and let this go.
Seldom it leaves me.
Seldom, I feel your love.

Random Classroom writing.

I'm standing in the shadows,
Watching you smile.
And they all lift you up,
I know you're watching me hide.
Still in my world, beating your heart,
And you silence this silence,
Now we're apart.
I'm known to have fallen, down on my knee.
Seeing through snowfakes,
Brushing your hair, seeping my weakness.
A kiss of love, and I'm all about you.
Lingering on these ways, leaving pieces of me.
At every turn, I lead you to me.
Now we're apart, and you're a part of me.
When the sun roars high, 
Mine is, where you breathe
They'd lift you off, and what me feel high. 
I'm all about you.
 My world, you are 7ayati

Friday, April 20, 2012

Tenderness.

There's so much depth in this,
Significant and insignificant moment,
I was young, you remember this?
We walked that chilly night,
And you look at me, so tenderly,
Choosing everything for me,
Every step that you took,
For us, you can hear me now,
I realise, can you hear me now?
I remember that February night,
We knocked down all out differences,
And I experienced your selflessness,
Your care and love,
Thriving to keep every promise.
I've experienced you put me together,
After everytime I broke, and fell apart.

I can never imagine losing your touch,
And now, when you're right here,
We colour the world,
Together we paint our futures,
See the words, harder to speak.
I surrender all of me,
Choosing everything for us,
Every step I take,
With your feet on mine,
We take a step to tomorrow,
Togetherness. Selflessness. Tenderness.
Surrounded by you.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Surfacing.

If walls could talk,
I'd be this open book,
With no pages and scribbles,
I'd be this fire inside you,
That never starts, that never glows.
This person here that writes for you,
Between walls, I'm as empty as this ocean,
There's so much we never see,
All this colour, surfacing,
All of me.

If I could speak,
The words they'd understand,
Steady and smiling,
I'll spill all that is of me,
And blow it away,
If yesterday was broken,
Tomorrow is so far away,
Today I'm picking pieces,
Every word I could speak,
Has never been enough,
Everything that was in the past,
Has come today, shutting me down.
If I could speak,
I'd speak of everything,
But this walls that rip me apart,
Stay deep inside,
There'll be too much, you'll never see.

Ripping apart.

We were both soft and,
Weak for the other.
And the things I could never say,
Ripping me apart,
Everytime you breathe in my arms,
How poor am I, I have no patience.
And you're doing it right,
Maybe testing my depth.
How far can I go?
Before I fall apart,
With every time you slip away,
Like the sand between my fingers,
And these metaphors would never be enough,
With the missing pieces of me,
The things I can never say,
Carrying all the right smiles,
Carrying all the right heartbeats.
I can never say I miss you this much,
I'll be weak and I'll be fallen,
Are you looking through me?
While you're so far away.
Playing hide and seek, with my heartbeat.
And all that I yearn for,
I am restless, I can't feel breathing.
I can feel you breathing.
I can feel you reaching, and looking for me.
Can you see me standing?
Ripping apart.

My strength.

I'm not far from the one,
Waiting on my turn to cry,
And these kids need no punishment,
And their doors are closed,
To be loved and to be flown,
A missing piece of word,
Maybe its lies in your 'we'll be okay',
If we slip and fall,
On all their threads,
Pulling us down, all their threats.
I'm still little bit afraid,
But I'm working on it, aren't we all?
Waiting on our turns to cry.
It feels so dark, our jaws tremble,
Our claws clench so tight,
Last time you saw me,
I was holding my tears tight.

Trouble was here tonight,
Sweeping me so far away.
And there she was, my little girl.
There she was, struggling for ropes.
Shooting hopes across the sky,
Losing is never here, never mine.
And this night kept me up,
Crying to myself,
Crawling to myself.
On broken mirrors, on painted, tainted walls.
We forgot all this recklessness,
Taking the edges off, we never fall.
Forget about the darkness,
Be careful for me, hang on to the hopes.
And I'll walk over my pieces,
Waiting for my turn,
Like these clouds and rain,
Maybe I'm weak, put me together.
I'm weak, and you can be my strength.
Don't do this,
Don't you see?
Someday you will,
My secret, I need you.

Random Scenario - Arshad Ansari.

Where would you be?
When I'm ready to let you go.
Where would you fall?
If I drop you down, leave you where you're not.
Far away from here, where I'm not.

He smiles and look around,
He doesn't cry,
'I'll never fall, and I know I can fly,
But I'll be here, I'll walk to you.
Mile after mile, to where you are,
From where we're not.
Drop me down, and I'd be there for you.'

If you miss me too much,
When I'm hidden under this ground,
I'm fighting their cries,
When I'm at the end of a day,
And you sit here,
Waiting and slipping,
What will you do, when I'm not around?

Closed eyes and a smile on his face,
He holds her hand, and watches her smile.
'Tomorrow you'll be here,
Maybe the day after,
Maybe I'll never see you again,
But you'll be here,
The skies will change,
I'll grow old and weak,
But when the time comes,
I'll be here, right here.'
 

Sanity.

There's nothing more sane,
Like mountains on the waters,
And fire on the moon,
Setting up our moods,
When there's no life on earth,
And we could walk on skies,
Nothing's more sane than every step to you,
Sanity lies in loving you.

These walls changed their colour,
But they're the same for they,
They who walk with their noses on me,
With so much light on me,
Outlining all my pain,
Mocking every moment,
Every breath short of your glow.
They speak with their tongues tied,
And pierce my skin, with eyes closed.
They say stop, but I step and never see.
Sanity is when I'm me,
Sanity lies next to you.

Remember together.

Remember all these promises,
Remember perfection when its you and me.
All your pieces, I stitch at my heart.
Fading away from this place,
Surrounded by perfection.
The feel of your hand,
Different on me,
And you're hair on my skin,
Softer than they are,
Like every breathe with you,
Deeper than they can get,
Like every taste of life,
Tingling farther into my senses.
Remember to keep us together.
Remember to never fall apart.

These words mean more than they say,
And times make it harder,
Times like these cloud up my mind.
Run up and race my heartbeat.
Running with my voice,
Both for you,
Soulful and serene,
And times like these,
They dry and crumble,
Fall far from where we smile.
Hands held together,
Safe and sound,
No me without you,
And you'd never be without me.

Cringe of love.

Sometimes over these shadows,
Sometimes creating them,
You grab me tight,
Why don't you hold me for a while?
You scream out my name,
And I'm calm when you call.
Like missing pieces,
Flowing with the river,
Pieces of me, pieces of my heart,
Smiling their broken smiles,
With faces that need that touch,
When you love, not hate.
Close your eyes and feel the rain,
And you forget the thunder,
Let every drop wash your pain.
And when you cringe,
I live for love,
I live not long.

Yeh dil.

Thoda sa dard hai,
Thoda sa nasha,
Thodi si baat pe,
Kyun hai yeh inteha?
Do lafzoon mein hi,
Kitne saari batein hain,
Do lafzoon mein bhi,
Thodi si hi baat ki hai.
Ho na tum bhi ishi mausam mein,
Rone ka ab pata bhi nahin.
Thoda sa dard hi sahi,
Kuch to seh lenge,
Kuch tum kaho ya na kaho,
Do lafz hum keh lenge.

Har aansoon mein,
Meri ghabrahat mein,
Tera na milne ki shiqayat,
Tere muskurane ki khwahish,
Kabhi murdh ke dekhoo,
Jo tujhe main dedoon, dil apna,
Dhadak dhadak kar roye yeh,
Haanth bardhaye toh thaam lena,
Yeh dil sharmata hai.

Silence silences.

It gets lonely here,
At this time of the day,
In this part of the town,
Two foot steps,
They're both mine,
And I hold my hand,
Make it feel right,
It cuts deeper here,
On this part of my heart,
It still goes dark,
It can get darker,
And their words can stab,
But here, they can rip you apart.

There's no softness here,
Only silence,
Silence that screams,
Chills and long empty roads.
Trees with no leafs,
And cottages with no doors,
Its a one way road to misery.
And you remain your own enemy.

It gets wild and scary,
Torn over photographs.
Lying on torn photographs.
Tears for the ones you loved,
Tears for their soul bewitched,
Lips part, after a thousand year,
After breaking a thousand promises,
They part an apology.

Days seem like years,
And moments last forever,
This here is made of cliche's,
Chosen for every step,
Like a haunting shout,
In this silent silence .
Here, silence silences.

Lets go 'there'.

Take my hand,
I promise I'll keep you safe,
And we can go there,
We can talk about years,
And I'll embrace what you've been,
And what you are,
So perfect to me,
Flawless, how you are inside,
Bringing out sides of me I never knew,
And we explore new reasons to smile,
You hold me warm, when I shiver,
I remember you in the chills,
Rain drops and waterfall,
You wish and I'll bring you the world,
And I promise I'll keep you guarded,
Take my hand,
Let's go.
Let's go there.

You complete me,
With your fingers fitting mine,
And yours eye lashes tickle my senses,
Making me feel like I've never felt,
Ever before, never without you.
Counting seconds until I see you again,
And I watch these doors,
Open and close, I wait for you.
I search for your feel,
In this crowded place,
And when I close my eyes,
I dream of you, so simple and beautiful.
I dream of you, and we're there.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Preserve.

Don't call me crazy,
I have the best eyes ever,
For they fall on you,
Even when my eye lids fall,
And I'm at peace,
I'm in heaven,
When I see you.

Don't call me crazy,
I have the best memories ever,
For its you and me,
And the moments we live.
With a trip down memory lane,
I'm here, crying for you.
I want more of you,
A taste of heaven.

Don't call me crazy,
It doesn't get better than this,
With your lips on mine,
I whisper I love you,
And your arms around my neck,
I hold you tight, tighter than before,
And when you look into my eyes.
I'm in heaven.
And it doesn't get better than this.

Don't call me crazy,
I'm in love with you,
And there's nothing else I'd ever feel.
When I hold you hand, and kiss your palm,
When I hold your face, and kiss your smile,
I preserve every feeling,
I cherish this surge in my heartbeat,
And with my eyes close,
I preserve this, I preserve heaven.
I preserve you.

This pain goes away.

Where does it go?
This call for perfection,
The cry for rain,
Sweating in the summer heat,
Where does this pain go?
Stabbed by the companion,
Betrayed by every other,
When you leave me alone,
I feel it all,
And with you in my arms,
Where does this pain go?

Tick tock, time goes by.
And this gets washed away,
With every tear in your arms,
Drying on your cheeks,
Leaving kisses by your lips,
Shivering until they grow numb,
So you've done it again,
And I smile in vain,
Watching you play with my pain.
Muster it away, pull me together.
When you're here,
This pain goes away.

Kiski ore hai?

Uchalte uchalte, gir gaya hoon main,
Awaaz dene se darr raha hoon main,
Yeh kaisa shore hai, yeh kiski ore hai?
Bulandi main duubi hui yeh awaaz,
Suni suni si hai, kohre mein khoi..
Uljhi uljhi si, mere laboon pe soyi..
Phir yeh kaisa shore hai?
Kya yeh meri ore hai?

Raat bhi na hui, tere bina.
Itni dooriyon main bhi, tu mili na,
Kaisa yeh andhera hai, jisme tum khoi thi..
Abhi toh yaheen, mere kandhoon pe roi thi,
Ay zindagi, kahaan hai tu?
Jee na bhul gaya main, kahaan hai tu?

Har lafz mein sirf apni hi awaaz bachi,
Yahaan akelepan mein, tu hi thi bachi,
Kahaan kho gayi, kahaan reh gayi,
Tu hi toh nahi,
Par yeh kaisa shore hai?
Yeh kiski ore hai?

All that you taught me.

All that you taught me.

by Saad Naseem on Wednesday, 28 March 2012 at 18:53 ·
You taught me being me,
Being so beautiful that you are,
You taught me how to fly,
To love and cherish,
You taught me patience and perseverance.
You taught me love,
My love. You taught me love.

Drifting away, you caught me gliding away.
You held me together and never let me cry,
And your promises made me look for forever,
You taught me sweetness,
You taught me kindness,
All that I am today,
You taught me how to live.
My life, you taught me life.

Holding my flaws close,
You taught me consideration,
Looking away from the darkness,
You pulled me through with you,
You taught me being thankful,
And when the world falls asleep,
And the sun starts to shine,
I pray for you,
I'm thankful for you.