Wounds

It could be the turns that lead us apart,
The stones that hit you hard,
That last lingering of our fingers,
Maybe the opinion of the singers,

For the turns I never took,
I'm impaled with this pain,
The pain of looking at you,
Over and over, after so long.
Of the darkness in your eyes,
That scream at me,
Making me cry, making me wonder.

For the turns I never took,
Why am I to blame?
For those turns I'd never take,
Could we ever be the same?

Could it be the words I never said,
Or the words said too much,
For the truth behind papers,
So much for these expressions.
Expectations and decisions,
All leading to false conclusions,
Could you look in my eyes,
The truth that follows here,
For my intentions you witness.
Blood shot and wet, crying for you.
For this pain is too real,
Left mewith this slap on my face,
Overshadowing the truth in my eyes,
The love in my heart.
You fail to see,
The goodness in me.

Unintentionally hurting,
Those apologies I was searching.
Hung by the hatred in you,
Erupting, exploding, igniting.
This pain, this pain is too real,
For these wounds will never heal.

Look at me.

Untieing the tighest of knots,
Flying away from this light,
Unravelling the hardest of secrets,
Life's giving you a fight.
Pull yourself together, and pull through this,
This pain that feels so real, the one thats killing you.
Wake up to the wetness of your tears,
See yourself in the mirrors that scare.
Throw your hands up, to reach the sky,
Try harder and harder, I know you can fly.

Even after falling down,
You could smile and stand,
Up again, hand in hand,
Walk through the skies, never falling down.
Glide in the clouds, never looking down.
This chaos amidst the darkness,
It'll pull you to it, just seek the brightness,
For when tears fall off and you look at me,
Look at me, and see what I see,
"I believe in you, you need to believe in yourself,
And pull this darkness off with a smile. Go shine."

For The First Time.

Right here under these stars,
A few seasons ago,
I tied this thread around your wrist,
Watching you smile then, melted my bones.
I fell on my knees,
Breathing like its for the last time,
Until I know you're mine.
Looking right at you,
Like its for the last time,
For the first time, I held your hand,
Different from every other way,
That night you shined through the fire,
In my eyes, savouring every look,
Every smile, and every laugh.
For the first time,
I love you,
With a hand in yours, matching my smile to yours,
Fearing for it to fade,
Under the bridge, as the rain poured down.
Next to the sea that ran,
To the bottom of the river,
Deeper than my love, It couldn't have been.
For the first time,
I felt your heartbeat, smiling to you.
Seasons later, we're still here,
And the river's no more.

Fade

Words that we don't like,
Like stings and stirs,
They hit us with a blur,
Confusing and strange.
To never see you again,
And longing to hold your hand.
Its the distance between you and me,
Right now, we're hanging in between.

Like butterflies we thought it through,
Picking to the colours of love,
Turning from the dews that slip.
Leaf to leaf, seeped by the ground.
Like our happiness, they fade,
Leaving us with a frown.
Like butterflies we stick..
Stick to the colours of love.

Hold my hand, It won't be long.
Before the skies turn grey,
And you're moving on,
For me, just smile tonight.
Under the stars,
Make this beautiful promise.
Between your gorgeous arms,
I'll lie forever,
After the colours of love fade,
We'll still stay together.

Misery.

I could tell you a few things,
And make it harder for you.
I wouldn't mean to,
But you love me too.
When a edge scratches me,
It hurts you too.
If I'm all alone, you'll feel lonely too
I could just tell you a few things,
And make you feel miserable too..

I wish I could,
Lie in your arms all day.
Breathe in my world,
Have you stay there,
But I could not feel.
Theres just too much to say.
To love you like you want,
I'd have to hurt you that way.
Its tough to see you cry,
Tougher when theres nothing I can say.
I could just say a few words,
And make you feel this too.
I could just say a few words,
And make you feel miserable too..

I love you more,
And that's why I wouldn't tell you.
The things that kill me,
I wouldn't them to bother you.
I know you're mine, but over here,
I couldn't help but just miss you.

Times like these..

Its times like these,
they take away my energy.
Its the middle of the night,
I feel it explode.
This bottle of emotions,
overflowing to the top.
I have my heart no more, it walks as you do,
I feel it fade, but I feel you here,
Distant but I know you're mine...
Faraway my heart beats in you,
I know youre mine for your beats here too.

Its times like these that change me,
Again and again looking into nothing,
Looking for you, I know you're gone.
I hold my hand on the doorbell,
And my ears for your ringtone.
I sing to myself, here under the rainbow.
Rubbing my hands to the strings,
Feeling the colour of this love,
As it flies into the music..
Its time like these,
That make me need you..
I know you're mine,
But I need you now.

I need your magic.

Courage and bravery,
I drown them deep inside.
When I'm hiding in the dark,
Trembling for these thoughts to disapprear.
Ignoring every ray of light that hurts me,
In a heartbeat, in the blink of an eye.
I feel the tears slip,
Down in this darkness,
Like pearls hidden from the shine.
I'm like a turn on the road,
Misguided, you've moved away.
I wanted you to breathe this air too,
Do what you always do.
I need your magic...

Patience and positivity.
Far from looking upto smiles,
I wrap me around myself.
In these four walls, search your presence.
You promised to be here,
When I'm too cold for the sun,
Too scared to run,
I blink my eyes, time and time again.
Remembering your words,
" In the blink of an eye, I'll be there... "
I need your magic...

This way.

It gets colder in the summer,
Hotter in the cold.
It rains on a sunny day,
And shines in the dark.

Life goes on,
Without hurts and blames.
With smiles and laughs,
Like playing in the rain.

My world turns around,
When you laugh like that.
My world turns grey,
When you cry like that.

If it means anything,
Then I'll write it in every way,
I'll say it everyday.
Write on the sand,
And never let it wash away.
If it means anything,
I will tell you..
Time stops when you smile that way...