Untitiled IV

De do tum apna dil,
de do tum apni dua,
Dard jab hoga yahaan,
Dena na is dard ki dawa.

Jab saans bhi na le sakuun,
Haanth apna bardha dena,
Phir kabhi is hi raah mein,
Mera har khushi garv se le lena.

Dil mein jitni baat chupi hui hai,
Ishi baarish ke garj ke saath,
Har awaaz mein, tum tak aa na saki,
Garajte garaje, guzar gayi saari raat.

Jab betaabi leke khush rahe tum,
Tab zindagi ne mujhe rulaya,
Khul gaye tum, har raah ko,
Tum hari hi awaaz ne, dard mein sulaya.

Mujhe aane mein deer lag gayi shayad,
Is hi chaand ke niche, tum nahin.
Tumne shayad jeena seekh liya,
Tere bina, meri khushiyaan, kaheen nahin.

Stay until my heart beats.

I tried smiling without you,
I tried counting stars for you,
It didn't work my way,
Until I had your hands in mine,
I needed you when my heart beats,
Now, tomorrow, today and forever,
I remember the feel of your fingers,
Pressing on mine,
I remember your feel...

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

I tried reading your eyes,
I tried finding the reasons,
All the windows open to your heart,
The doors, to your smile.
It feels better than home,
When you take my name and smile,
Better than happy ever after,
Beating in my heart,
It feels like home.

You caught me right here,
Hand on my heart baby,
Right here,
Where my heart beats,
Where your memories keep me beating
If you walk away now,
I'll be lonely and broken.
Counting stars until they fade,
I'll be blind by the morning,
My eyes, my heart, my life.
Stay until my heart beats.

I keep my promises.

I'll take away your pain,
I'll wear your favourite smile,
I promise baby, I'll make it right.
I keep my promises,
And I promise to love you forever,
Your hands, and none other I've held,
Set your tears free,
Let them fall on my shoulders,
I promise you sunshine,
When you open your eyes,
After you lay in my arms,
Under the moonlight,
I promise you dreams,
Of fields and flowers,
Rainbows and rain,
I promise you forever,
And I keep my promises.

I'll keep you here,
Where you close your eyes,
And I'll be in your reach,
Just hold your hands out,
And I'll fit your fingers,
With rings and flowers,
Cover your smiles,
With kisses and giggles,
I'll be perfect,
I'll try and I'll give you everything,
Believe in me,
Let me be, all I want to be,
After you lay in my arms,
Under the moonlight.
We'll talk of tomorrow,
And I'll brings your dreams to you,
When you close your eyes,
In the chilly night,
Until the sun shines bright,
I'll bring your dreams to you.
I promise you forever,
And I keep my promises.

Zindagi ban ke.

Phir banke aansoon,
In aankhoon se baras rahe ho,
Tum zindagi ban gaye,
Phir bhi hum pe garajh rahe ho.
Dil mein do lafz rakh ke,
Chalte chalte raat ho gayi,
Boondhoon mein, dubta raha mein,
Itni saari batein theen, ek bhi na huin.

Ruuth ke kyun bikhar gaye tum,
Na kuch bola, na kuch kaha..
Chalte chalte tumhare darr pe hum pohchein,
Har darkhan bas ginta raha.
Jitne kadam uthaya, darrte darrte.
Sab sehme sehme, khoye se pal mein,
Kal raha ya na raha,
Bas aaj hi tha, hal aise pal mein.

Har kadam pe,
Teri yaadoon ne sataya,
Jahaan murdh ke dekha,
Mujhe yadoon ne rulaya.
Phir banke aansoon,
In aankjoon se baras rahe ho,
Tum zindagi ban gaye,
Phir bhi hum pe garajh rahe ho.

Here and there.

There are so many faces,
Seen and unseen,
So many emotions,
Felt and unknown.
Promises pile over here,
Kept and untold,
Secrets that held us together,
Hidden and spilled.
So many hearts held together,
Beating for each other,
Broken and mended,
Like the silhouette of our lives.
Glazed with pain,
Pierced with pleasure,
Of this life, there are too many faces.
For tears and smiles.
For laughs and cries.

So many tears of us,
Pieces and puzzles.
We're losing the heart,
With so much love to carry,
Care and adore.
So much love for you.
In pieces of my heart.
Breaking and beating.
Fresh and raw.
Tears and wounds.
Like the silhouette of our lives.
Glazed with pain,
Pierced with pleasure,
Of this life, there are too many faces.
For tears and smiles.
For laughs and cries.

I'm still the same.

Sharp as a blade,
As deep as the ocean.
Love is sharp and short tempered.
Live and learn the rules it lives by,
Fight every thought, for the promises made.
Never going back, but it changes paths.
Passing through the same pages,
Over and over,
Remembering the same feelings,
The old visions they splatter around,
Bringing back every fall,
Every sign of danger,
Taken down with the storm.
The slippery smiles,
The chilling voice,
The promises it makes.
Shining on you...
You're glad you came.

We're running in circles,
Flickering away from the memories.
Please, stop for a moment.
Let me catch you.
Let me catch up with you,
For all the lost days,
The darkness I faced,
Give me a sign,
Give me a hint.
There's too much in me.
Still too much in me.
Look at me, baby, trust me.
I'm still the same.

Scars [Ft.Marium Asad Khan]

(Marium)
Remember when you have scars to hide,
Reflection is an enemy but darkness is a friend,


Remember when you dont wish to fight,
Ignorance is the key but you go on forever to depend,


 I have nothing more to follow,
The roads to my heart are broken,
'Cause you broke them



So what if the wounds are healing,
We know that the scars are appearing,
And these scars stay for a long time,
To remind me, you were never mine




Covers and pieces,
I'm draped with my shame.
It left holes in me,
When you slipped away.
Mending pieces of my heart,
Cause you broke them,
Pieces of my broken heart,
These scars don't dry,
They still feel raw,
There's no mercy in my memory.
Dreaming of darkness,
Stuck between your eyes,
And the bright lights
,A million scratches,
Just there to remind me,
Just to bring life in me,
With these broken doors
,Losing the feeling of home,
Wake me up, just to remind me,
You're never mine.
You never were.


I have nothing more to follow,
The roads to my heart are broken,
'Cause you broke them



So what if the wounds are healing,
We know that the scars are appearing
,And these scars stay for a long time,
To remind me, you were never mine.

I wish...

I wish I was the wind,
I'd wrap around your beauty,
Tickle you when you're in fear,
Bring out the best of your smiles,
Make you feel loved,
When you're on your own,
I'll be forever around you.
Close enough to protect,
Close enough to touch.
And when you cry,
I'll dry your tears,
With everything in me,
Right now,
I'll be the wind to make you smile.

I wish I was the rain,
I'd run all over your skin,
Tickle your senses,
Play with the warm, softness.
I'll be pouring down on you,
When you bring yourself together,
When you cry, I'll hide your tears,
In thunder and lightness,
I'll make you smile,
Pouring every cloud of love,
On you my love,
Right now,
I wish I was the rain,
Just to make you smile.

I wish I was your voice,
So beautiful and flawless,
I'd attract the eyes of thousands,
Just floating in the air,
The perfect pitch,
With a hint of your smile,
To make every song so beautiful,
I wish I was your voice.
To calm the racing heartbeat,
To console the crying lover.
To bring everyone together,
To let our heart wonder,
Right now,
I wish I was your whisper,
I'd put me to sleep.

I wish I was your love,
Engulfing me, how you do,
With so much respect and loyalty.
Even when the stars collide,
You hold my hand,
And stay by my side,
I'd be like nothing there's ever been,
If I was your love,
I'd be rare and beautiful.
Kind and comforting.
Lovely and passionate,
Gorgeous and stunning.
Right now,
I wish I was your love,
To be so beautiful,
I could be compared to nothing.

Pieces of our memories.

Days have gone,
And we still lie on the floor,
Pieces of our memories,
On your bedroom floors,
Shattered like the glass,
The soul in me, you never see.
Bringing together piece by piece.
Piercing on my skin,
Bleeding over our memories.
Its been days and more,
I still lie there on the floors,
Feeling you fade,
I see you in my soul,
I see you in my heart,
But you're nowhere I can feel.

In those tunes,
Driving on the highways again,
The stars don't fall anymore,
For you don't smile next to me,
These clouds don't pour on us,
I need you now but you don't feel it burn,
Cutting all ties with me and my broken heart,
We try to make it work,
Beating each other,
Piercing on our skin,
But we bleed no more.
Its been days and more,
Even after all these years,
Me and my broken heart,
We face each others,
Like we've never been here,
Ever before.
We feel each other,
But you're nowhere I can feel.

In my mind

Walking by a thousand trees,
Flowers that never bloom,
Finding reasons why you miss,
Your beautiful life.
Thinking of a million words,
Spreading them, like the tiny stars,
Let your voice beat on your heart,
Words scribbled on your heart,
Love is just a mess
And I'm stranded by the door,
When you walk by a thousand trees,
In my mind.

When we sunk, with fading faces,
Cries to keep us up,
For the lights that fell on us,
Come here, deep into the sea,
Swim next to these colours,
As these lights fades,
Find reasons to stay in my arms,
When we breathe our last breaths,
Find reasons why you miss,
Your beautiful life.
I'll spread all my tears,
Deep in the ocean,
Let them shine with my love,
Come here,
Come with me,
Love is you and me,
And I'll be letting it go,
Until you hold my hand,
In my mind.

Life lesson 1 - Regrets.

Regret?
Regret!
Regret.
Yes, regret.
Fulton Oursler said “Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.” 
They also say, 'If only...' is the saddest phrase ever.
It is indeed true, I'll get back to that after I tell you about my dilemma recently,
Okay its a vague memory, I don't remember much but yes, I was troubled about something,
Confused and unable to decide what I wanted to do,
So I was just whining to my friend on my Blackberry messenger,
And he tells me, 'Dude just flip a coin, when its halfway down, you'll know exactly what you want.'
And it worked, I can tell you that because I obviously don't have any regrets what so ever.
So for those of you having a hard time deciding, they're your silver lining to everything.
So yes, coming back to the point,
Why regret?
When you do something, as little as buying a cloth of some random colour,
We need to realize two things,

• Us humans, we will never stop being greedy

• When you do something, pick a colour or something, decide a place to go, or whatever decision you make, these was a point in time when THAT is exactly what you wanted,

So why regret?
I started with a quote, and if I've been able to deliver a message,
I think its time I'll close with a quote.
" Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. "

Let it open.

Here I'm looking in your eyes,
Saying everything you'll need,
I'm leaving you for your own,
I'll be tired of waiting,
Everything I say, leads you away,
Faraway from here, until forever.
I'm depending on you,
To shoot for stars,
And fall for your dreams,
Never look back at you and me,
I'll watch your walk away today,
With your back against all of this,
When I hold your face today,
I look into your eyes,
Don't notice my tears,
I'll say things you'll need,
To let go,
Never know what you could be missing,
I'll be tired of waiting,
I'll be counting on you,
Never look back at us.

You're silent and serene,
I know you've no mind of your own,
Its all numb and confusing.
In this heat, your skin's cold.
I've been there too,
I have felt every feeling in you,
For years and years,
In a place like this,
I've felt the tears seap in,
There are no tears for you,
Here, when I look into your eyes,
Don't watch me cry,
I'll miss you forever,
Faraway from here, until you fade,
I'm depending on you,
Counting on your dreams,
Shoot for stars,
This is everything you've wished for,
When you walk tonight,
Never look back at you and me,
With your back against all of me,
Just let go.

Silence that you left.

Me and the silence you just left,
We never talk, it never speaks.
Numb and confused.
Both of us, stay far away.
We talk to the thoughts in me,
Tear after tear, after every broken dream.
Its late in the night,
Disturbed and scared,
I'm awaken by this silence.
It screams so loud,
The shrill of your last words,
The sight of your last smile.
Me and the silence you just left,
We walk miles but never talk,
From the places I go to,
Drifting off, drifting away,
With my eyes closed, scared of this silence.
Its scream, so loud.
Drifting off, drifting away.
I'm pulled back again,
I'm awaken by this silence.
Silence you just left.

Fighting and crying,
Its after the sun rise,
We sit and we smile.
I feel it fade away,
This silence,
I feel you coming closer,
Your presence.
When the birds chirp loud,
They talk to my thoughts.
Flying to my shoulder.
Where they lean and they cry.
Healing wounds of my heart,
Pierced by this silence.
Silence at the bottom of the page,
At the end of the day.
Silence when you're gone,
Silence these smiles mourn.

Burning in my eyes.

In the pages of the year before,
I read words and I feel everything,
All over again, the rush at your words,
The way you've made me feel.
I'm missing it.
Its taking my breath away,
Leaving me here to breathe my misery.
My heart aches and they stare down,
Memories of us, they burn in my eyes.
I walk and run, miles to you.
They never end,This distance between us, never ends.
You still walk so high,
Leaving trails to darkness,
Watching me walk into these pits,
'I won't let you fall',
Feeling the ground slip away from me,
I remember words you said.
Every promise you made,
They burn in my eyes.
Memories of you and me.

Dear 16 year old me.

Dear 16 year old me,
What went wrong?
Or is it right to think things went wrong?
Where were you, when the tears slipped by,
For these steps you took,
Towards these dark caves I'm in,
Months later, I'm trying to remember,
16 year old me,
Where were you, when it went wrong.
But without you, 16 year old me.
I'd never be me.

Dear 16 year old me,
Remember the times we promised each other,
Today we'd look back to yesterday,
Smiling with tears of joys,
So far we've come from being so quiet,
We're so proud of all that we've accomplished.
Without you, 16 year old me.
I'd never be me.

Dear 16 year old me,
I remember the nights,
You never slept, and sat under the moon,
Writing letters to me.
So many promises you made,
Of my mornings under the rainbows,
And the rain at my thought.
Breaking my broken heart,
I'm sure you remember.
Every scar on it,
But without you, 16 year old me.
I'd never be me.

Prison of love.

In this prison of memories,
Lying here, as this cold wind blows,
In pieces, my dreams of you.
Far away from every spark.
No more goodbyes, no more sorrows.
We find the smiles in this misery.
Drowning in tears but we're still glee.
There's no forgetting,
For however long you stay there,
There's no forgetting the feel of your smile,
The blink of your eyes, on my heart.
The feel of your heartbeat on my chest.
They shine so bright, in your pearls,
The stars, the moon, my love for you.
High above the ground,
They're all I have.

Behind these walls, folded curtains.
Through these bars and thoughts,
Far away from where your tears fall,
There's no forgetting here,
For howevery long I'm here,
You're all I have,
There's no forgetting, the feel of your skin.
The way my heart beats, at the sight of you.
They dry and shine, my tears, up above.
Beautiful and gorgeous, you shive over the moon,
In this misery, smile, because you can.
Laugh, to the memories of the fields and tickles,
The leaves falling apart,
Breathe, for the promises we made,
Lying there beneath the stars,
Under the shine of the moonlight.
Breathe, to come true.

Weak for you.

From the darkest of pits,
The roughest waters,
Life, sour like the truth,
You pull me through them all,
With the softness of your touch,
The depth in your voice,
So much sincerity in your love.
The ring in your name,
Rings all my senses,
And I feel all I've never felt before,
I hear the thunders miles away,
With this, I lose everything,
When you're collecting pieces far away.
I lose everything.

I'll make you fight for me,
Fight with me, for me.
Backs against the wall,
Our hands join with our breaths.
Our souls fight to capture,
Capture my breathe,
You've taken my love,
Won over my pride,
And beneath this thick shell,
Beneath how tough I seem.
I'm weaker than you think,
Weak for you.

Till I get there.

The sunset is taking its time,
And I can't wait so long,
It feels like a dream,
To say you're here and its dim.
After every call for you,
Making promises and dying to give you forever.
Come here and don't go,
Just last forever, after its dark and dim.

Tomorrow you will be away from these clouds,
And they will give you love.
Give you calm and wind,
When my love is far away,
They'll give you hope.
Raining on you when you cry,
And they'll never know.
These thoughts that go by,
When its dark and dim.
They'll hold you tight,
Till I get there.
Until I get there.

Soulful.

These moments of pain,
Playing with my heartbeat.
I'm numb and I'm lost.
Searching for your word,
Longing for the truth,
I'm so incomplete.
And every breath, every beat of my heart,
It feels like a waste, it feels nothing but empty.
The sweetness of your voice,
Hoarse for all these bullets of misery.
Memories of every moment with you,
Flooding with these tears,
For now, for today, right now,
Searching for a lost soul.
To dwell in, to long for,
A heart to love, your heart to protect.
Your love to cherish, your love to remember.

You're mine and I'm for you,
Between us, its sincere.
When you're back again,
Its dim here, nothing but the calm,
I capture your words for me,
Locked in my heart,
And a promise for today,
Today, that yesterday was tomorrow,
Today you're here again,
Dwelling in my soul,
Last night, you looked for me,
I woke up again, feeling complete.
Your soul for me, I'm soul for you.
Your heart to me,
My love to remember,
Your soul for me,
When I'm numb and I'm lost.
I'm soulless, nothing but incomplete,

Digging deeper.

The last time I saw you,
It meant a little less,
As I can feel, seeing you,
After so long, you're so much more deeper,
Under my skin, with every moment,
Digging deeper and smiling,
With every look at you,
I'm scared of letting you go,
With my breath getting heavier,
I feel you heavy on me,
Falling head over heels,
Deep into your love,
And I'm strong enough to survive.
Day by day, I can feel more of you,
Struggling to breathe, struggling to feel.
Since the last time I saw you,
Standing there, waiting,
Standing there, looking prettier than ever,
You grow beautiful by the heartbeat,
You grow more onto me,
You're more under my skin.

Halfway gone.

This night is dull,
A bit of a pain,
I know you're somewhere around,
Call me a little insane,
But this cold wind, never felt the same,
It covers so much of you,
Bring your scent to every spec of me,
There's so much of you,
More than these rushes could ever feel.

This night is dull,
But these stars shine so bright,
Apart from what's here inside,
Fearing the truth, wishing on the shine
When it means so much,
Why're we here?
Apart from being in my mind,
You're here in my arms,
When the stars fall,
I hold you tighter,
My star, I'll never let you fall,
My miracle, you mean so much to me,
More than my tears to you.

Light up these candles,
And we'll make castles all night,
Break them apart,
Like everytime we did,
Set it on fire,
And go back to the beginning,
When these clouds snore here,
We breathe in this dim light,
Cover us, cover you and me,
With the warmth of my love,
Under my arm, a kiss from above,
When you've lost every word you said,
We'll go back to you and me,
How much I love you,
More than these words ever said,
Years and still, I'm still halfway done,
Just holding your hand,
This night's halfway gone.

Dil.

Dil cheez hi kya hai,
Bin kahe, bin soche,
Aap chura jo le gaye.
Yeh kaisi tanhaee hai,
Jab aap na hote hain,
Yeh kaisa andhera hai.
Har gali, har raasta yahaan,
Apki yadoon ki parchai se bhara,
Apki awaaz ki gunjoon se nikhra,
Yeh dil cheez hi kya hai,
Sab kurbaan karne ke liye tayyaar,
Hum khade rahe yahaan,
Yeh dil zalim hai meri jaan.
Tere liye kar diya sab kurbaan.

Cringe of pain.

Living in the shadows,
The burning skin,
A shattered heart, a weak heart.
Broken, living in pieces.
And you scream, you shout,
Pull me in terror,
Make me fear your voice,
Fear me out of my senses,
And I'm numb,
Numb from all that follows,
And the cast of love,
The voice of peace,
So faraway, surreal to feel.
Yet we try but never cry.
To find love but we never do,
When it all falls apart,
They fall too.

Sometimes over these shadows,
Sometimes creating them,
You grab me tight,
Why don't you hold me for a while?
You scream out my name,
And I'm calm when you call.
Like missing pieces,
Flowing with the river,
Pieces of me, pieces of my heart,
Smiling their broken smiles,
With faces that need that touch,
When you love, not hate.
Close your eyes and feel the rain,
And you forget the thunder,
Let every drop wash your pain.
And when you cringe,
I live for love,
I live not long.