This Rain.

" Ayy, Guess what? Guess what?
Its raining, *_*
Miss you. Love you.
Tc. =D "
I was on my way to that hill,
When it started raining,
The stars hiddens under those grey clouds.
They collide and crack.
In the brink of the moment.
I closed my eyes and stood still.
Remembering your smiles, and it tickled.
The rain drops on my skin,
Travel the line of my smile.
I let go,
Let go off this hesitation and laugh.
I sing along with the thunder.
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming at the top of my lungs.
Letting the world know how it feels,
To be loved, to feel this.
You run a marathon in my mind,
Everytime I look at the corner of the street.
I feel like you're there somewhere,
Wishing to just run to me,
And match my smile.

" Wowwie *_*
Love you too :* "

From faraway your words touch my soul.
And I ring you up,
To hear your voice, the sweet chime.
I sit under that tree as you say hey.
Going on and on about what you've been upto.
Sighing to that wish of freefalling right here.
Off this steep hill, Out into nothing.
In this rain, with our hands held tight.
Right into the ocean, we'd jump.
With no horror in our eyes,
Just the rush of the moment.
But you're not here.
Not breathing against my skin.
This rain tickles my senses.
Leaving me with just a wish to come true.
But you're not here.
Not breathing this rainy scent.
The one thats making me smile.
Just your touch,
And I'll fly.
You'll fly.
We'll fly.
Fly away, fly away.

Little things you do.

When you hold my hand,
And I take my time breathing out.
The reality slips me like sand.
The moon's shining and I'm here with you, sneaking out.

The little things you do,
That make me lose my mind.
Its like you play the reel.
Its all true but feels so unreal.
A distant dream, a lovely fairytale.

The suns at the left, the moon at the right.
I'm at my terrace, its 4 in the night.
This is exactly when, where we had the fight.
When you shut me up and held me tight.

The little things you do,
That make me lose my mind.
Its like you play the reel.
Its all true but feels so unreal.
A distant dream, a lovely fairytale.

It.Is.True.

I picked you up from the ashes, you burned.
I nurtured you, I made you smile. I loved you.
Cold and dark, the looks they gave.
You thought I was the one to lie.
To say you're so beautiful, after all the ties you have.
To the darkness, after all the baggafe.
I believed every word you said and,
Here I am.
I love you, I'll make you smile.
Through the darkness and the cold.
To make it perfect for you.
To make you believe, Its true.
My love for you, It.Is.True.

I learned those words that made sense to you.
In times you were in pain, the nights you suffered.
You knew there was someone by your side.
In the foggy memory of each cry, someone held your hand.
Calming you again, putting you to sleep.
Staying up all night,
Steady and sturdy, right here by your side.
To make it better for you.To make you believe, Its true.
My love for you, It.Is.True.

Carve.

Days after you left me, abandoned me.
After the numb nights and fearful days.
Every moment, each day. Reliving those memories to this place.
With you here, its hard to not see your smile.
In the history of this place, lying here in my arms.
Without you here, Its hard to breathe.
You searched tears in my eyes.
But that wall's not thick and dried.
My eyes have dried, yes I cried.
Blood stains on the night stand, I fought it.
My haunted dream, you're here again but I'm over it.
The lights flicker when I'm high.
High of your hate, sinking in deep.
Living in this shithole, I almost consider hellhole.
I drop those blades, It makes me mental.
But I carve your name, not on my skin.
In these walls made of clay.
My feelings tey potray.
Like your hate for this fark,
It glows in the dark.

Complete again.

Running away from the burden of the while.
I escaped into the darkness of the night.
For love running into the darkness.
With the fear in my eyes.
Fear of losing you, the fear of loneliness.
After feeling this empty space where you belong.
I crawl to the corners, to escape this numbness.
I run miles, to escape this loneliness.
Screaming out loud, to be complete again.

Every day that goes by,
Every second haunts me,
Leaving me with tears welled up,
And sniffs to part, it pains inside.
Going through the pages, those words of love.
Our initials, almost interlocked together.
This feeling of belonging, forever.
You walked in to my nightmares.
Like the guiding like, taking me by the hand.
Now I feel abandoned for you're not here.
In this torturous moment, I need you.
Screaming out loud, to be complete again.

Desperate.

In the middle of the night,
I wake up to see the stars sparkle.
These little things that make me smile now.
For they take your place,
Replace you upon that pedestal.
In this wind that blows tonight,
I smell you, I smell desperation.
Desperate to see you again,
Desperate to feel you again, maybe love you.
But its not the same,
You're not the same.

In the middle of the road,
When I spot a face,
As they smile, I see you inside.
Somewhere in the curve of the lips.
They resemble you to the slightest degree.
Burning me inside, I'm sorry everyday.
I will always love, I will always cry.
It was my turn to walk away,
But I thought it was our time.
I thought if I saw you then,
I'd feel you again.
I was missing you when I saw the sparkles.
I found me, the me you saw.
How I was when I laid in your arms,
When I smiled, I felt it again.
In this moment, my heart thumps this feeling.
Feeling of desperation,
Just to see you again,
To lie in your arms,
To feel complete again.
But I saw you,
It wasn't the same.
You weren't the same.

Heartbroken.

You've started backing off,
Pushing me away.
Slowly and slowly, I see it everyday.
The look in your eyes,
You look at me like a bother.
Like its a job that you're supposed to hug me everyday.
A job you're tired off,
A bother, something you'd get rid off.
You've set to break my heart.
I know you'll break my heart,
Leave me heartbroken but do it gently.

When I cried under that tree the other day,
You said you had to take that phone call.
Hiding away in the corner,
Waiting for all the signs of my tears to fade away.
You came back, faking that smiling.
Twitching towards running away.
Leaving me there,
Leaving me at the time I needed you the most.
Yesterday I slept blank, covered in the lies.
Haunted by the breaking of the dawn,
It was great, having you here.
Having you right by my side...almost.
When I cried, when I screamed to my misery.
My pleads for these times to go away.
But you helped me learn these things.
You hardened my shell but putting me through this.
But you never told me how to not shatter.
You broke my heart.
Left me heartbroken, you did it gently.